Today is just another day, morning kena kacau by my sis at 8.30am like tat cuz she ask me to fetch her to her office...alright no choice so i did then came back wanna go sleep again but saw grandma online so talk to her for like 15 minutes and facebook-ing a while then go sleep again...sleep like hell till around 11.30am, then kath rang me up and asking me whether i am going to take my car...haha, i almost overslept and forget about my baby.
So i got up and get ready, wait for kath to send me to the toyota service centre at pj there...Reach there and waited for a while, finally i got my baby back...i though it would have some serious problem with it but it just a small matter, no wonder they get to finish so fast. After got my car then went to eat with sw at nearby her college there then drop her at the lrt.
It was around 2.30pm and i need to pick kath to meet up with genji at ss2...we went to pick genji at her working place then went nearby wong kok and eat. It been a while since i met her last time, she looks still the same and i think she is much thinner now...so we talk talk talk tilll around 4pm then have to ciaoz already.
After that fetch kath home, it started to rain so heavily....it actually spoiled my plan to play basketball. so then i just went home and online for a while, then here i come bed, went to sleep...
woke up, dinner then bath and here i am again...online-ing here no fail man...
I was actually kinda pissed at the message where she sent to me in friendster...i hate the way she said it, i seriously do...so i just replied her with a angry way too. Why can't she just don't make me angry for a day? I m really pissed whenever i heard something about her, and the way she talk to me now is like shit...Genji was actually asking about her so i just said we are over already and first thing ji ask was "she got another guy right?" I was like damn, what kind of impression she give to people man...Yea people was saying that another guy is that farker, i don't give a damn man...is blardy obvious already, now i know why people said i am dumb enough to believe that she is not with him.
was kinda pissed at what people think of her also but i can't do much man...i mean nowadays i don't like to talk about her in front of my friends...they only said i still care about her and all, i am sick of it already...She actually sms-ed me just now, she was calling me dear but i don't like it...i told her we can only use dear as for couple...well she was kinda pissed i guess...so she just sigh...she said "love u" then i ask her whether she still love me...she said love u again but she ask me back the same question...i was actually stone for a while, suddenly my brain is like can't function anymore. So i chill and think, i don't get the idea why i still have to think when i already know i still love her but something makes me think about it so hard...
i stop and question myself, "honestly, do u still love her?" it took me about 5 minutes to reply her, it seem that i can't tell her that i still love her...First thing comes to my mind is she already have someone else right, why still love me? Is she also tell that farker that she loves him...i m confused...so end up i just said i think so, but reaction was kinda sad but i have no choice...i m seriously confused already....I don't like when she call me dear, i hate it cuz i know she probably call that farker dear too...that's why i really though she sent wrong message...
Well i can don't care about what other people said, last time i seriously try hard not to believe what people said but now is different. Is darn obvious already, as if the whole world is saying that i am dumb...After that incident, i really have to believe it already...Well what comes around goes around, i really don't wanna think anymore.
for your info, i am going to genting on thursday...next few days gonna be busy man, chloe is gonna stay over my house and all...need to visit tisya also. Plans still have to go, yet assignment still haven't do...sigh. "that" is still bothering me so much, really try hard not to think but it seems that it always appear in my dreams...Somehow i am not doing anything about it and since no one know now, but i don't plan to tell anyone either...let god be the one that decide okay...haha.
Easily feel tired nowadays, getting old already man, guess i am gonna sleep in another hour later...but still have something haven't do, blah blah blah. Gotta wake up early tomorrow cuz got plan for tomorrow...i am not gonna say it out today, so check out my blog tomorrow to find out k...haha...tat's all, ciaoz.
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