Kinda feeling better now. I was really sick just now, after taken a bath, i felt much refresh now.
I was so right. This morning woke up, i found myself in a so shit condition.
I have no choice but to wake up early to get flowers for my cousin.
went to centrepoint to get it then went to see doctor.
I was shocked that the clinic is full of people. I waited for like an hour to reach my turn.
A lil fever, sore throat and flu.
Was kinda surprised that lie kian call me today in the clinic. She gave me a fitness coupon and yum cha with her at pyramid.
I have no time to rest at all.
I have to head to sentul to fetch my cousin's gf. She is using my baby now.
Gosh i am gonna miss my baby again.
Guess i can't race much now since the car i drive is under power.
Then i have to fetch my aunt from work. Busy day and yet i am sick.
I was really tired. Had my dinner then i went for a nap just now.
at least i am feeling better now.
This flu is really killing me. My rubbish bin gonna be full of tissue already.
Thinking about this week, only to realize my gila-ing cousin is coming back this thursday.
No doubt that i have to entertain her from friday till sunday.
Her birthday this friday some more, didn't even get her anything yet.
didn't wanna think about her today. she gave me a bad night yesterday.
Start to dislike her, or a better saying would be i really pissed at her.
Damn didn't even wanna reply my msg. Is alright, i don't fucking give a damn.
Hate myself for being so stupid. Still wanna care about her so much but she don't even give a damn.
where is my brain man??Can't u see this is sucks??didn't u know all u get are lies?
Argh!!!Fucking Dumbass.
One day, i am gonna get crazy and fuck the hell out of her. She is getting into my nerves man.
Seriously man, don't let me do that. Never in this life i would be so bad. I don't fucking care whether u got your bf there, i will still fuck this. My anger is already taking over me, i can kill someone by now.
This is really pissing me off.
I am not your slave nor what people called a wussy. and i really hate your lies.
fucking wanna make me angry even though i am sick.
I seriously have to think about those opinion that people gave man.
Being like this make my life more sucks.
"Yea i have changed, thanks to u."
Ciaoz people.
Jay @ Revenge
Tuesday, October 30, 2007
Wounding.
I was feeling really sick.
Went to bed earlier but couldn't sleep at all.
keep rolling around the bed and started to think alotz.
1.45am
I have no idea why, think so much and i started crying.
i really don't want to be like this anymore.
is really hurting me badly.
how am i gonna stop being like this?
I really couldn't sleep.
but i don't wanna think anymore.
is already 1.53am now.
hopefully i can fall asleep at 2am.
once again, i bet i am gonna be sick when i wake up.
Jay@emo-ing.
Went to bed earlier but couldn't sleep at all.
keep rolling around the bed and started to think alotz.
1.45am
I have no idea why, think so much and i started crying.
i really don't want to be like this anymore.
is really hurting me badly.
how am i gonna stop being like this?
I really couldn't sleep.
but i don't wanna think anymore.
is already 1.53am now.
hopefully i can fall asleep at 2am.
once again, i bet i am gonna be sick when i wake up.
Jay@emo-ing.
Monday, October 29, 2007
Fondness.
Bad day~
Hurt my toe when i close my wardrobe door in the afternoon.
It badly hurt and is darn pain.
I wasn't feeling so well after all. Couldn't get up in the morning, feeling really sick.
slept until 1pm plus, got up and online.
Feeling so bored and hungry. Only to remember i didn't take my dinner yesterday.
I must have addicted to driving, so i must at least drive out to make myself happier.
Rang up sw, ask her to have err so called lunch. Is already 3pm at that time when we reach the cafe.
At ss2, the cafe is suck as usual. Everytime they have to make me angry.
The service there is sucks to the max, we have no choice so to that place.
Btw that cafe is wong kok. Food sucks, i guess i won't head back there next time.
After that went home and facebook again.
Still feeling unwell. Cousin called me to ask me to do him a favor, Buy flowers.
so tomorrow i have to go to the florist. Sigh.
Dinner, bath and again online.
Feeling so unwell. Keep sneezing.
i guess i am gonna get sick soon.
Exam is 2 weeks down the road. I am still being so hopeless.
I really have no idea what am i thinking.
Sigh, guess i am gonna retake again.
I really hate myself.
When i was driving just now, i think so much.
She just couldn't get out my mind. I hate it.
I am so suffering. Is this what a punishment?
Punishment for playing those girls' heart last time?
I still remember. I recalled back just now, the girl which i hurt so much.
She loves me but i never did. I was a bad bf after all.
I changed after i met J. A good bf but too good after all.
Soon after that i rejected this girl, i hurt her so much.
She is the one that make me felt guilty.
Later i become even better. That's when my friends said i am becoming more stupid. =/
I am the best bf that people ever seen.
What she want, i can get. What she don't like, i won't do. When she angry, is my fault.
Who make her angry, go fight with them. What she said, i will do.
Well actually this is an act of dumbness.
I am too good, and they never appreciate. That is why the word "dumb" came in.
Looking back at my life, i realize that i am really stupid. haha.
the thing that changed my life so much is love.
I used to be a top student when i am in form 2.
After fallen in love, my results are like shit. Then i am becoming worst after that.
Love influence my life so much. well maybe this is my biggest weakness.
That is why look at me now, i am like a piece of shit because of love.
I guess i wanna be like who i am last time.
I don't wanna be so good anymore, a evil and bad person will suit me more.
I have learnt my lesson. That is why i hate girls that play guys' heart.
The worst is girls cheat on their bf. I hate that man.
I guess i really have to find a normal gf after all. those too fancy are no good. They will only hurt me more.
Trying to get her out of my mind, i guess she is killing me everyday.
What she wants from me man? What a complex person.
She just can't make up her mind or being selfish.
Yer i don't know man. Sooner or later, i will really die because of her.
Damn Damn Damn.
I have absorb so much from different people now. but i don't know what to do.
Sigh. Guess i really have to get some good rest tonight. before i get sick tomorrow.
That's all for today.
Ciaoz.
Hurt my toe when i close my wardrobe door in the afternoon.
It badly hurt and is darn pain.
I wasn't feeling so well after all. Couldn't get up in the morning, feeling really sick.
slept until 1pm plus, got up and online.
Feeling so bored and hungry. Only to remember i didn't take my dinner yesterday.
I must have addicted to driving, so i must at least drive out to make myself happier.
Rang up sw, ask her to have err so called lunch. Is already 3pm at that time when we reach the cafe.
At ss2, the cafe is suck as usual. Everytime they have to make me angry.
The service there is sucks to the max, we have no choice so to that place.
Btw that cafe is wong kok. Food sucks, i guess i won't head back there next time.
After that went home and facebook again.
Still feeling unwell. Cousin called me to ask me to do him a favor, Buy flowers.
so tomorrow i have to go to the florist. Sigh.
Dinner, bath and again online.
Feeling so unwell. Keep sneezing.
i guess i am gonna get sick soon.
Exam is 2 weeks down the road. I am still being so hopeless.
I really have no idea what am i thinking.
Sigh, guess i am gonna retake again.
I really hate myself.
When i was driving just now, i think so much.
She just couldn't get out my mind. I hate it.
I am so suffering. Is this what a punishment?
Punishment for playing those girls' heart last time?
I still remember. I recalled back just now, the girl which i hurt so much.
She loves me but i never did. I was a bad bf after all.
I changed after i met J. A good bf but too good after all.
Soon after that i rejected this girl, i hurt her so much.
She is the one that make me felt guilty.
Later i become even better. That's when my friends said i am becoming more stupid. =/
I am the best bf that people ever seen.
What she want, i can get. What she don't like, i won't do. When she angry, is my fault.
Who make her angry, go fight with them. What she said, i will do.
Well actually this is an act of dumbness.
I am too good, and they never appreciate. That is why the word "dumb" came in.
Looking back at my life, i realize that i am really stupid. haha.
the thing that changed my life so much is love.
I used to be a top student when i am in form 2.
After fallen in love, my results are like shit. Then i am becoming worst after that.
Love influence my life so much. well maybe this is my biggest weakness.
That is why look at me now, i am like a piece of shit because of love.
I guess i wanna be like who i am last time.
I don't wanna be so good anymore, a evil and bad person will suit me more.
I have learnt my lesson. That is why i hate girls that play guys' heart.
The worst is girls cheat on their bf. I hate that man.
I guess i really have to find a normal gf after all. those too fancy are no good. They will only hurt me more.
Trying to get her out of my mind, i guess she is killing me everyday.
What she wants from me man? What a complex person.
She just can't make up her mind or being selfish.
Yer i don't know man. Sooner or later, i will really die because of her.
Damn Damn Damn.
I have absorb so much from different people now. but i don't know what to do.
Sigh. Guess i really have to get some good rest tonight. before i get sick tomorrow.
That's all for today.
Ciaoz.
Sunday, October 28, 2007
Existence.
Wondering around~
I am feeling kinda sick.
but i don't care anymore.
or actually the right word is i don't want to care anymore.
Never have my dinner.
I don't have the mood plus i ain't feeling hungry either.
I am pissed, disappointed and confused.
And again, i just wish i am already dead.
Got home about 6pm. Yea went to apartment and stay last night.
Yesterday was alright, woke up at 10 something.
get ready and went to fetch kath. head to pavillion after that.
had japanese food, it was alright. Then went to walk around.
Sort of quarrel with kath in the mall, then she went home.
walk with wy and i end up err buying shirts.
Bought 3 shirts at Topman and cause me a bomb with 250 bucks gone. Sob~
then went to fetch Ryan and pick kath. Went to one utama after that.
Ate BBQ plaza, yea our favorite dine in. haha.
Then walk aorund at one utama while waiting for steph and gang to come.
They said wanted to clubbing at Mardi Gras.
So end up without any clubbing mood of me, just follow them and make me more broke.
It was Halloween party at mardi gras.
somehow is so boring, maybe i don't have the mood.
So i didn't dance at all, just sit and drink.
Those girls are not attracting me either.
We left at about 2 am.
Went to apartment, play some ps2 and sleep.
I was so tired.
Can't get enough of sleep.
woke up at 12.30pm this morning.
watch movies and eat pizzas till 4 something only go home.
Reach home, first is gonna check my facebook. I guess it already part of my life.
Nothing much, saw something i don't wanna see.
Got pissed and started to emo till now.
I hate to mention it here what it is about.
I guess i already wrote that before.
People ask me to forget about her.
Yea they think is easy, but is hard.
I am sicked of all this.
I just hate lies.
Yesterday Kath was talking about her cousin.
I think i would die if i get a gf like her.
She play guys' heart.
I hate people like this.
U think guys got no feelings huh?
I don't know man.
I don't know what am i thinking.
I am so a loser now.
even i look down on myself.
Really *SIGH*.
I am feeling kinda sick.
but i don't care anymore.
or actually the right word is i don't want to care anymore.
Never have my dinner.
I don't have the mood plus i ain't feeling hungry either.
I am pissed, disappointed and confused.
And again, i just wish i am already dead.
Got home about 6pm. Yea went to apartment and stay last night.
Yesterday was alright, woke up at 10 something.
get ready and went to fetch kath. head to pavillion after that.
had japanese food, it was alright. Then went to walk around.
Sort of quarrel with kath in the mall, then she went home.
walk with wy and i end up err buying shirts.
Bought 3 shirts at Topman and cause me a bomb with 250 bucks gone. Sob~
then went to fetch Ryan and pick kath. Went to one utama after that.
Ate BBQ plaza, yea our favorite dine in. haha.
Then walk aorund at one utama while waiting for steph and gang to come.
They said wanted to clubbing at Mardi Gras.
So end up without any clubbing mood of me, just follow them and make me more broke.
It was Halloween party at mardi gras.
somehow is so boring, maybe i don't have the mood.
So i didn't dance at all, just sit and drink.
Those girls are not attracting me either.
We left at about 2 am.
Went to apartment, play some ps2 and sleep.
I was so tired.
Can't get enough of sleep.
woke up at 12.30pm this morning.
watch movies and eat pizzas till 4 something only go home.
Reach home, first is gonna check my facebook. I guess it already part of my life.
Nothing much, saw something i don't wanna see.
Got pissed and started to emo till now.
I hate to mention it here what it is about.
I guess i already wrote that before.
People ask me to forget about her.
Yea they think is easy, but is hard.
I am sicked of all this.
I just hate lies.
Yesterday Kath was talking about her cousin.
I think i would die if i get a gf like her.
She play guys' heart.
I hate people like this.
U think guys got no feelings huh?
I don't know man.
I don't know what am i thinking.
I am so a loser now.
even i look down on myself.
Really *SIGH*.
Saturday, October 27, 2007
Dreams
Gosh I am tired...
even though i slept for like 3 hours in the afternoon but still feeling tired.
Just got back from, errr alor. Went there to eat my favorite dish which is errr, i have no idea what it called but is a seafood!!!Lol...
Today morning woke up, fetch my aunt to get her car from Honda then went to eat in section 17.
Got home around 1pm, online for a while then head to bed.
So darn lazy man.
Woke up around 4 something, feel like driving so drove all the way to Puchong for no reason.
Then end up jam at ldp, damn!
so fetch my aunt at 7pm, went home and eat dinner. Lepak and online for a while then go out.
Yea i went and meet with her, she went gym as usual...at IOI there.
happy to see her, i saw her last friday too.
Hopefully i can see her every friday. =)
After that went to fetch kath, then we go to alor and meet with Ashley.
Ate so much man, all the spicy food some more, hope we don't cirit-biri man...lol.
Fetch kath home then come back, feeling so tired man.
Guess i have to sleep early, tomorrow i am going to Pavillion!!Wee!!
I just love Pavillion, i have no idea why man, just always wanted to go there.
After that have to go dinner then going to Q Bar.
Gonna be darn tired tomorrow too, i love to hang out...maybe just not make me think so much.
I slept for 3 hours yesterday afternoon, dreaming non stop. Woke up then went back to sleep and the dream continue, then after that woke up and went back to sleep and the dream continue again.
A kinda weird dream but is sweet. I am actually in a drugs import company, the best company some more, because we will never catch by polices and we are darn smart wan.
So one day i have to go buy stuff with my aunt, so went to a shopping mall and blah blah blah. After finish buying things, went to my car, then found few teenagers in my car actually. So then i meet this girl.
She is really pretty and is my type. Is kinda weird then we start talking to each other while waiting for my aunt to come to the car. Is actually love at first sight man, i got her number and all then contact each other after that.
Then one day, i went to my company with my friends. As usual we have to bluff those polices away by doing some gun shoot out. So that day is my turn to do it, but don't know why things go wrong and we are suppose to act being shoot, became real.
So i got shot 2 times and i quickly get in the factory.
I can only remember that this girl is calling me, and i was so worry, keep wanting to call her back.
Then one of them in the factory is her, she was jealous that i have a new girl, so i think she actually pissed at me.
Then things go blur, i only know people in my company is so worry because the system we use to cheat the polices kena bocor already and soon the polices will come and catch us, so we faster run.
After that, i not sure what happened already, i just know that i go find that girl then i woke up already.
I never went back to sleep anymore.
Feel kinda weird about this kind of dream, this afternoon also got dream but never continue.
Can't really remember what it is about, but this few days i really dreamt alotz.
I guess i have to head to bed now. Is already 2.23am.
so update more when i am free, and err if i m not lazy....haha.
even though i slept for like 3 hours in the afternoon but still feeling tired.
Just got back from, errr alor. Went there to eat my favorite dish which is errr, i have no idea what it called but is a seafood!!!Lol...
Today morning woke up, fetch my aunt to get her car from Honda then went to eat in section 17.
Got home around 1pm, online for a while then head to bed.
So darn lazy man.
Woke up around 4 something, feel like driving so drove all the way to Puchong for no reason.
Then end up jam at ldp, damn!
so fetch my aunt at 7pm, went home and eat dinner. Lepak and online for a while then go out.
Yea i went and meet with her, she went gym as usual...at IOI there.
happy to see her, i saw her last friday too.
Hopefully i can see her every friday. =)
After that went to fetch kath, then we go to alor and meet with Ashley.
Ate so much man, all the spicy food some more, hope we don't cirit-biri man...lol.
Fetch kath home then come back, feeling so tired man.
Guess i have to sleep early, tomorrow i am going to Pavillion!!Wee!!
I just love Pavillion, i have no idea why man, just always wanted to go there.
After that have to go dinner then going to Q Bar.
Gonna be darn tired tomorrow too, i love to hang out...maybe just not make me think so much.
I slept for 3 hours yesterday afternoon, dreaming non stop. Woke up then went back to sleep and the dream continue, then after that woke up and went back to sleep and the dream continue again.
A kinda weird dream but is sweet. I am actually in a drugs import company, the best company some more, because we will never catch by polices and we are darn smart wan.
So one day i have to go buy stuff with my aunt, so went to a shopping mall and blah blah blah. After finish buying things, went to my car, then found few teenagers in my car actually. So then i meet this girl.
She is really pretty and is my type. Is kinda weird then we start talking to each other while waiting for my aunt to come to the car. Is actually love at first sight man, i got her number and all then contact each other after that.
Then one day, i went to my company with my friends. As usual we have to bluff those polices away by doing some gun shoot out. So that day is my turn to do it, but don't know why things go wrong and we are suppose to act being shoot, became real.
So i got shot 2 times and i quickly get in the factory.
I can only remember that this girl is calling me, and i was so worry, keep wanting to call her back.
Then one of them in the factory is her, she was jealous that i have a new girl, so i think she actually pissed at me.
Then things go blur, i only know people in my company is so worry because the system we use to cheat the polices kena bocor already and soon the polices will come and catch us, so we faster run.
After that, i not sure what happened already, i just know that i go find that girl then i woke up already.
I never went back to sleep anymore.
Feel kinda weird about this kind of dream, this afternoon also got dream but never continue.
Can't really remember what it is about, but this few days i really dreamt alotz.
I guess i have to head to bed now. Is already 2.23am.
so update more when i am free, and err if i m not lazy....haha.
Sunday, October 21, 2007
Malacca.
I m back!!!err from Malacca...wee~~
Yesterday which is Saturday 20 of October, i went to Malacca with Kath and Ryan. It was actually an interesting day man.
At 12.15pm, went to pick Kath. So we have to pick Ryan also, as usual i will use the cheras highway to get to his house. That day was quite lot of cars, but i still manage to speed and do my zig zag pass by most cars. After i get pass one of this black car so happily, suddenly in front there jam, so i keep back the middle lane then i saw polices!!!
I was like "fuck man, polices!!!" Kath was like " shit, u sure gantung dy." The first thing come to our mind was "Keep All Our Money!!" So we quickly keep our money before they stop me. Then come to me, the police ask me go to the side then i know sure fuck up already.
The police was telling me that i go beyond the speed limit, i drive for about 112. Then i stoned man, then he said wanna give summon and all, then he changed his mind and ask whether we wanna pay. So i ask him how much, he said something like half of the summon, then i said i got no money.
Kath was so "smart", she put a 2 bucks, some more is Singapore dollar in my wallet. So i show him i only got that, then Kath also show she got no cash. So Kath said "bang, kita rushing to bank la, kita tak ada wang." Then i also help a lil, at last, the police ask us to go. He was like so pissed at us and ask us to go.
Walau i really cannot stop laughing afterthat man...it was like so darn funny wei, i guess i am gonna try that next time.
Afterthat we pick Ryan then start our journey to Malacca!!
i drive for like 140 at first then getting most geng and geng....broke my record for going till 180 with my vios...it was so fast man and Ryan was so scared. Some more race with different cars, got this 2 savvy and waja so stupid. It was actually my first time driving to outstation, man u really have to see my petrol go down like darn fast man, i drive faster, it go down faster.
Guess how long i take to reach Malacca? haha, it was only about half an hour or lil more. Broke another record man.
i guess it has been 5 years i never been to Malacca already. We were so hungry then we went to Jonker Street there and eat chicken rice ball first. Afterthat, we went to visit those museum and took darn lot of pictures man. Then walk to the shopping mall there and lepak for a while, went McD and sat for like 45 minutes then walk back to Jonker Street about 7.30pm.
i bought necklace from there, 3 for 10 bucks, pretty cheap man. then we walk and see stuff, was looking for a hat but couldn't find. Then we went and eat at the side where they have those hawker store, ate mix mix food, not that much tasty but still alright.
After eat still walk around, then ciaoz back the cars and went to 7 eleven to buy stuff. I bought this mamee snack that Kl didn't sell, only Malacca has it i guess. Then start our journey back to Kl, Kath was sleeping on the way so i talk to Ryan a lot. We reach Kl about 11pm like that, i didn't drive so fast cuz is kinda late and is dark plus Ryan keep ask me to drive slowly.
Drop by at Kath's House for a while then went to buy A&W, i was desperately wanted to eat chicken, i guess i really influence by the chicken little thingy.. cuz KFC was already closed so have no choice to buy A&W.
Then we went back to apartment to eat and sleep...it was really tiring man. This afternoon i came back and sleep again man. I was so tired and some more back bones so pain, don't know what's wrong man...i m feeling kinda sleepy again man, still wondering what is she doing now, guess i really can't get over her that easy.
Saw this chick in friendster, super pretty man. even her sister also darn pretty, holy shit, where to find girls like this man. Gonna ask my friend to intro her to me man...ipoh girls are not bad, guess i really have to pay more visit to Ipoh man, since i got relatives there...haha.
Guess i gonna stop here, i think i have update pretty much stuff already.
Btw "Kath, Good luck for your intern tomorrow!!"
Url for the Malacca trip:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=15556
&l=d7afc&id=733503078
Yesterday which is Saturday 20 of October, i went to Malacca with Kath and Ryan. It was actually an interesting day man.
At 12.15pm, went to pick Kath. So we have to pick Ryan also, as usual i will use the cheras highway to get to his house. That day was quite lot of cars, but i still manage to speed and do my zig zag pass by most cars. After i get pass one of this black car so happily, suddenly in front there jam, so i keep back the middle lane then i saw polices!!!
I was like "fuck man, polices!!!" Kath was like " shit, u sure gantung dy." The first thing come to our mind was "Keep All Our Money!!" So we quickly keep our money before they stop me. Then come to me, the police ask me go to the side then i know sure fuck up already.
The police was telling me that i go beyond the speed limit, i drive for about 112. Then i stoned man, then he said wanna give summon and all, then he changed his mind and ask whether we wanna pay. So i ask him how much, he said something like half of the summon, then i said i got no money.
Kath was so "smart", she put a 2 bucks, some more is Singapore dollar in my wallet. So i show him i only got that, then Kath also show she got no cash. So Kath said "bang, kita rushing to bank la, kita tak ada wang." Then i also help a lil, at last, the police ask us to go. He was like so pissed at us and ask us to go.
Walau i really cannot stop laughing afterthat man...it was like so darn funny wei, i guess i am gonna try that next time.
Afterthat we pick Ryan then start our journey to Malacca!!
i drive for like 140 at first then getting most geng and geng....broke my record for going till 180 with my vios...it was so fast man and Ryan was so scared. Some more race with different cars, got this 2 savvy and waja so stupid. It was actually my first time driving to outstation, man u really have to see my petrol go down like darn fast man, i drive faster, it go down faster.
Guess how long i take to reach Malacca? haha, it was only about half an hour or lil more. Broke another record man.
i guess it has been 5 years i never been to Malacca already. We were so hungry then we went to Jonker Street there and eat chicken rice ball first. Afterthat, we went to visit those museum and took darn lot of pictures man. Then walk to the shopping mall there and lepak for a while, went McD and sat for like 45 minutes then walk back to Jonker Street about 7.30pm.
i bought necklace from there, 3 for 10 bucks, pretty cheap man. then we walk and see stuff, was looking for a hat but couldn't find. Then we went and eat at the side where they have those hawker store, ate mix mix food, not that much tasty but still alright.
After eat still walk around, then ciaoz back the cars and went to 7 eleven to buy stuff. I bought this mamee snack that Kl didn't sell, only Malacca has it i guess. Then start our journey back to Kl, Kath was sleeping on the way so i talk to Ryan a lot. We reach Kl about 11pm like that, i didn't drive so fast cuz is kinda late and is dark plus Ryan keep ask me to drive slowly.
Drop by at Kath's House for a while then went to buy A&W, i was desperately wanted to eat chicken, i guess i really influence by the chicken little thingy.. cuz KFC was already closed so have no choice to buy A&W.
Then we went back to apartment to eat and sleep...it was really tiring man. This afternoon i came back and sleep again man. I was so tired and some more back bones so pain, don't know what's wrong man...i m feeling kinda sleepy again man, still wondering what is she doing now, guess i really can't get over her that easy.
Saw this chick in friendster, super pretty man. even her sister also darn pretty, holy shit, where to find girls like this man. Gonna ask my friend to intro her to me man...ipoh girls are not bad, guess i really have to pay more visit to Ipoh man, since i got relatives there...haha.
Guess i gonna stop here, i think i have update pretty much stuff already.
Btw "Kath, Good luck for your intern tomorrow!!"
Url for the Malacca trip:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=15556
&l=d7afc&id=733503078
Dance floor anthem
She’s going out to forget they were together
All that time he was taking her for granted
She wants to see if there’s more
than he gave she’s looking for
He calls her up
He’s trippin' on the phone now
He doesn’t want her out there
And alone now
He knows she’s movin' it
Knows she’s using it
Now he’s losing it
She don’t care
Everybody put up your hands
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
to the beat now
If you’ve got nothing to lose
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Back it up now
You’ve got a reason to live
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Feelin' good now
Don’t be afraid to get down
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
He was always giving her attention
looking hard to find the things she mentioned
He was dedicated
By most suckers hated
That girl was fine
But she didn’t appreciate him
She calls him up
She’s tripping on the phone now
He had to get up
And he ain’t comin' home now
He’s tryin' to forget her
That’s how we come with him
When he first met her
When they first got together
Everybody put up your hands
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
feel the beat now
If you got nothing left
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Back it up now
You got a reason to live
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Feelin' good now
Don’t be afraid to get down
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
To the beat (x3)
You got nothing to lose
Don’t be afraid to get down
We break up
It’s something that we do now
Everyone has got to do it sometime
It’s okay, let it go
Get out there and find someone
It’s too late to be trippin' on the phone here
Get off the wire
You know everything is good here
Stop what you’re doin'
You don’t wanna ruin
The chance that you got to
find a new one
Everybody put up your hands
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
feel the beat now
If you got nothing left
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Back it up now
You got a reason to live
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Feelin' good now
Don’t be afraid to get down
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Now you know what to do, so come on feelin' good
All that time he was taking her for granted
She wants to see if there’s more
than he gave she’s looking for
He calls her up
He’s trippin' on the phone now
He doesn’t want her out there
And alone now
He knows she’s movin' it
Knows she’s using it
Now he’s losing it
She don’t care
Everybody put up your hands
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
to the beat now
If you’ve got nothing to lose
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Back it up now
You’ve got a reason to live
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Feelin' good now
Don’t be afraid to get down
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
He was always giving her attention
looking hard to find the things she mentioned
He was dedicated
By most suckers hated
That girl was fine
But she didn’t appreciate him
She calls him up
She’s tripping on the phone now
He had to get up
And he ain’t comin' home now
He’s tryin' to forget her
That’s how we come with him
When he first met her
When they first got together
Everybody put up your hands
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
feel the beat now
If you got nothing left
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Back it up now
You got a reason to live
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Feelin' good now
Don’t be afraid to get down
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
To the beat (x3)
You got nothing to lose
Don’t be afraid to get down
We break up
It’s something that we do now
Everyone has got to do it sometime
It’s okay, let it go
Get out there and find someone
It’s too late to be trippin' on the phone here
Get off the wire
You know everything is good here
Stop what you’re doin'
You don’t wanna ruin
The chance that you got to
find a new one
Everybody put up your hands
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
feel the beat now
If you got nothing left
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Back it up now
You got a reason to live
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Feelin' good now
Don’t be afraid to get down
Say I don’t wanna be in love
I don’t wanna be in love
Now you know what to do, so come on feelin' good
Thursday, October 18, 2007
13 to 16
Alright let's talk about last saturday, nothing much actually...was excited because gonna fetch grandma and hang out with her for few days...I picked her up from sri petaling lrt around err 6pm if i am not mistaken...then we head to one u for our dinner, and yea pick kath as well...though of buying stuff for pinky but most of the shops were not open so we have no choice but buy it next day...went home with chloe then kath came to my house with steph and also the black label...haha.so end up watching HBO and drinking black label...we were watching the lake house, half way through the show, chloe actually fell asleep...haha so funny....they went home afterthat and went to sleep teruk.
The next morning, couldn't sleep well actually...i was awake at 8 am already and can't really get back to sleep...maybe i was too excited of seeing her i guess, well already like 2 weeks never see her that's why i am feeling happy...
so laid on the bed till around 9 something, got up and lepak for a while because is still early...Wy will onli come at 10.15am so i actually pray that the time pass faster...then went to get ready and all...blah blah blah, when i check the clock already 10.30am so really have to go man...spend too much time on my hair man...haha.
10.45am reached her house, pick her up and start our journey to dum dum's house...she is still the same, nothing much different, still kacau me and all but i was reall happy to see her man. Reach dum dum's house at 11.15am, blah blah blah and all...we ate and talk craps...and play with the cats...yuhh snowball is really cute man!!!
Afterthat we went to pavillion...first time being there, it was nice and classy. I love this place man...those girls said they wanna shop so we got in Zara at first then i went to see shirts, come out i only found her and the others don't run where already. So end up me and her walking only =.= that 3 fellas are really smart ar, actually wanna make my relationship with her better i guess. Not to said is weird but i still enjoy shopping with her...so we went shops to shops and went to stadium to buy slippers. We actually spend a long time in stadium because of the slippers...at last, i bought a pair of slipper and she bought a pair of slipper plus 2 socks...
then went to topshop, as usual she bought undies then we walk from shops to shops again...
So actually the whole time in pavillion, that 3 fellas only left me and her then they shop themselves, so clever. around 3 something we ciaoz from there and drop dum dum home then went to serdang's gasoline there to yum cha cuz baby wanna go to her cousin's house....oppsss see i am still calling her baby, guess i am still treating her like my girl....so okie we spent about an hour in there then fetch her home...afterthat i went home with chloe, i was so pissed about something then fell asleep for like 2 hours plus and chloe didn't wanna wake me up...make kath waited for me for like 2 hours plus for the dinner...haha...at last around 11 something, went to channel 6 to eat till around 1 something...
i was feeling tired when i reach home so i actually wanna sleep, then i know there is something i must do to make her happy because i know that she was feeling down as i never give her anything to her yet and i know she is expecting so high from me....so i got up at 3 am and do the so called journal for her...i actually slept for like 2 hours then get up and continue again...so at last i really make it.
okie went to pavillion again, this time is with kath, chloe...err dum dum and half way came Ryan. this time we really have something to do man...we got there about 3 something, we queued up for the J Co donuts for like half an hour then we went to starbucks to eat it...so aferthat we start looking present for pinky....i was really having a hard time searching stuff for her, didn't get to find the brand i wanted so i have no choice to drop by one u to get it...so we ciaoz at 7 something, drop dum dum home then go to one u...
I was really panic when i saw the shop in one u actually closed, i almost cry man!! I suddenly felt so useless man...so have no choice to look for another brand which is more expensive actually...so end up getting dis bracelet...and went to ss2 to gave it to her....on the way i was really pissed already because of that sohai, he actually scolded grandma, i really got so angry man...he wanted to use us as his surprise plan...fuck him off la....i am so angry man...he got no right to scold chloe man...seriously i was so pissed that i really wanna screw up his plan but thinking about her, i never do so...i don't want her to be sad, i want her to be happy on her birthday...if not i tell u, i really fight him there already...fuck him up man.
afterthat rush to the curve to celebrate Ryan's birthday, we actually make steph wait for 2 hours man that's why we r really pissed...but steph i really respect her man, she didn't get angry at all...so patient man...celebrated in italianese then afterthat me, Kath, Ryan and Chloe went to apartment to stay...drink chivas and play ps2...haha...then at 3am went out with Ryan to buy nasi lemak, Chloe was sleeping already and kath play ps2....
Next morning which is tuesday, woke up at 10 something and though of fetching chloe back to nilai then kath come up with plans again...so end up we go find steph in titiwangsa to have lunch then went to klcc for the petrosains speed...sat in klcc foodcourt for some time onli went home...drop grandma at one u to meet her friends because she said don't wanna trouble me so she follow her friends back to nilai...here goes a day then, my aunty they came home with trouble too but now solve already..
well this is stuff happening from last sat till this tuesday...so much man, no wonder i am feeling so busy and tired...haha.
the url for the pics for this few days is
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=15142
&l=cac44&id=733503078
The next morning, couldn't sleep well actually...i was awake at 8 am already and can't really get back to sleep...maybe i was too excited of seeing her i guess, well already like 2 weeks never see her that's why i am feeling happy...
so laid on the bed till around 9 something, got up and lepak for a while because is still early...Wy will onli come at 10.15am so i actually pray that the time pass faster...then went to get ready and all...blah blah blah, when i check the clock already 10.30am so really have to go man...spend too much time on my hair man...haha.
10.45am reached her house, pick her up and start our journey to dum dum's house...she is still the same, nothing much different, still kacau me and all but i was reall happy to see her man. Reach dum dum's house at 11.15am, blah blah blah and all...we ate and talk craps...and play with the cats...yuhh snowball is really cute man!!!
Afterthat we went to pavillion...first time being there, it was nice and classy. I love this place man...those girls said they wanna shop so we got in Zara at first then i went to see shirts, come out i only found her and the others don't run where already. So end up me and her walking only =.= that 3 fellas are really smart ar, actually wanna make my relationship with her better i guess. Not to said is weird but i still enjoy shopping with her...so we went shops to shops and went to stadium to buy slippers. We actually spend a long time in stadium because of the slippers...at last, i bought a pair of slipper and she bought a pair of slipper plus 2 socks...
then went to topshop, as usual she bought undies then we walk from shops to shops again...
So actually the whole time in pavillion, that 3 fellas only left me and her then they shop themselves, so clever. around 3 something we ciaoz from there and drop dum dum home then went to serdang's gasoline there to yum cha cuz baby wanna go to her cousin's house....oppsss see i am still calling her baby, guess i am still treating her like my girl....so okie we spent about an hour in there then fetch her home...afterthat i went home with chloe, i was so pissed about something then fell asleep for like 2 hours plus and chloe didn't wanna wake me up...make kath waited for me for like 2 hours plus for the dinner...haha...at last around 11 something, went to channel 6 to eat till around 1 something...
i was feeling tired when i reach home so i actually wanna sleep, then i know there is something i must do to make her happy because i know that she was feeling down as i never give her anything to her yet and i know she is expecting so high from me....so i got up at 3 am and do the so called journal for her...i actually slept for like 2 hours then get up and continue again...so at last i really make it.
okie went to pavillion again, this time is with kath, chloe...err dum dum and half way came Ryan. this time we really have something to do man...we got there about 3 something, we queued up for the J Co donuts for like half an hour then we went to starbucks to eat it...so aferthat we start looking present for pinky....i was really having a hard time searching stuff for her, didn't get to find the brand i wanted so i have no choice to drop by one u to get it...so we ciaoz at 7 something, drop dum dum home then go to one u...
I was really panic when i saw the shop in one u actually closed, i almost cry man!! I suddenly felt so useless man...so have no choice to look for another brand which is more expensive actually...so end up getting dis bracelet...and went to ss2 to gave it to her....on the way i was really pissed already because of that sohai, he actually scolded grandma, i really got so angry man...he wanted to use us as his surprise plan...fuck him off la....i am so angry man...he got no right to scold chloe man...seriously i was so pissed that i really wanna screw up his plan but thinking about her, i never do so...i don't want her to be sad, i want her to be happy on her birthday...if not i tell u, i really fight him there already...fuck him up man.
afterthat rush to the curve to celebrate Ryan's birthday, we actually make steph wait for 2 hours man that's why we r really pissed...but steph i really respect her man, she didn't get angry at all...so patient man...celebrated in italianese then afterthat me, Kath, Ryan and Chloe went to apartment to stay...drink chivas and play ps2...haha...then at 3am went out with Ryan to buy nasi lemak, Chloe was sleeping already and kath play ps2....
Next morning which is tuesday, woke up at 10 something and though of fetching chloe back to nilai then kath come up with plans again...so end up we go find steph in titiwangsa to have lunch then went to klcc for the petrosains speed...sat in klcc foodcourt for some time onli went home...drop grandma at one u to meet her friends because she said don't wanna trouble me so she follow her friends back to nilai...here goes a day then, my aunty they came home with trouble too but now solve already..
well this is stuff happening from last sat till this tuesday...so much man, no wonder i am feeling so busy and tired...haha.
the url for the pics for this few days is
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=15142
&l=cac44&id=733503078
Genting.
I have been so lazy this few days till i didn't even update my blog for like a week already. Hmm let me see, my last post was about waterfall...then i guess i haven't told u about the genting trip yet right.
Last thursday which is err 11 October, i went up to genting with Ryan to meet with kath and gang.
So we reach there about 3 plus and went to find kath and so on and on....because i don't play theme park so i went to play pool with Ryan till like 6 something. Got back to the hotel room and rest, with steph and yida then came wai leng and jack...end up we slept till 8 pm and went for dinner...i was suppose to go back home after dinner but then kena force by them so stayed. We went pizza hut for our dinner, we actually got stomachache afterthat...After pizza went to play in first world theme park, it was so fun actually especially the bumper car....we really got crazy man...
Me and kath...
wai leng and me...oppss steph is there also.
Ryan, Kath and my funny looking face.
Then next morning which is friday...we suppose to ciaoz at 10 but end up we ciaoz at 11 plus because of some people doesn't wanna wake up...haha.
Actually it was fast too, because of my driving, we reach kl for like only half an hour....
Drop then at Kath's house then went to meet my aunty....went home and sleep like crazy afterthat....haha.
Last thursday which is err 11 October, i went up to genting with Ryan to meet with kath and gang.
So we reach there about 3 plus and went to find kath and so on and on....because i don't play theme park so i went to play pool with Ryan till like 6 something. Got back to the hotel room and rest, with steph and yida then came wai leng and jack...end up we slept till 8 pm and went for dinner...i was suppose to go back home after dinner but then kena force by them so stayed. We went pizza hut for our dinner, we actually got stomachache afterthat...After pizza went to play in first world theme park, it was so fun actually especially the bumper car....we really got crazy man...
Me and kath...
wai leng and me...oppss steph is there also.
Ryan, Kath and my funny looking face.Then next morning which is friday...we suppose to ciaoz at 10 but end up we ciaoz at 11 plus because of some people doesn't wanna wake up...haha.
Actually it was fast too, because of my driving, we reach kl for like only half an hour....
Drop then at Kath's house then went to meet my aunty....went home and sleep like crazy afterthat....haha.
Wednesday, October 10, 2007
waterfall.
Actually i am extremely tired now but i still wanna update my blog...haha. Not enough sleep yesterday night i guess, chat with dum dum till 3am in msn then only went to sleep...this morning have to wake up at 10am, some more woke up late then fetch sw at lrt at 11 something...then we start our journey to Hulu Langat!!
On the way there, got this stupid fat ass actually wanted to race with me using his waja....so from midvally all the way to kajang there, i was racing with him...He sort of chase me at first so i got pissed and went fast...he did cut me once but then i chase back again...then he was at my back following so close to my car, fucking dumb la...then he wanna cut me some more, so i sengaja brake then he didn't make it...afterthat, because we are going different way, so at last i still win...kinda syok man, never race so geng before, well thanks to that fat ass...
so then we actually got to the right way but then lost inside the kampung instead...turn here and there, we actually lost inside there for one hour plus...well thanks to those small road sign there, can't even see it even we pass by...haha...but at last, we still manage to get to the waterfall...weee!!!omg, it was so cooling there and is kinda scary by the way...haha...sw and i got to the top there and take pics and play water...i took so many pics man....
On the way down, i saw this lizard!!!!fucking scare the hell out of me man!!!i can't move at all...then maybe it scare of me instead so it got away...we continue take pics and all...around 3 something then we ciaoz from there...actually it was alright la...but i wanna go to the templer's park one day, i heard there is much more nicer...haha.
drove back to kl and went home...is so farking tired so i just wanna make this post short k...sorry man, gotta sleep early too...driving up to genting tomorrow man...i don't think i wanna overnight there man...well just see how first....i guess today actually nothing bother my mind...maybe i am too tired...well but i enjoy so much today, happy because i get to take so many pictures....those pro pictures that i always wanted to take...hehe...ciaoz.
the url for the pictures of the waterfall are:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=14459
&l=75c57&id=733503078
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=14460
&l=93964&id=733503078
On the way there, got this stupid fat ass actually wanted to race with me using his waja....so from midvally all the way to kajang there, i was racing with him...He sort of chase me at first so i got pissed and went fast...he did cut me once but then i chase back again...then he was at my back following so close to my car, fucking dumb la...then he wanna cut me some more, so i sengaja brake then he didn't make it...afterthat, because we are going different way, so at last i still win...kinda syok man, never race so geng before, well thanks to that fat ass...
so then we actually got to the right way but then lost inside the kampung instead...turn here and there, we actually lost inside there for one hour plus...well thanks to those small road sign there, can't even see it even we pass by...haha...but at last, we still manage to get to the waterfall...weee!!!omg, it was so cooling there and is kinda scary by the way...haha...sw and i got to the top there and take pics and play water...i took so many pics man....
On the way down, i saw this lizard!!!!fucking scare the hell out of me man!!!i can't move at all...then maybe it scare of me instead so it got away...we continue take pics and all...around 3 something then we ciaoz from there...actually it was alright la...but i wanna go to the templer's park one day, i heard there is much more nicer...haha.
drove back to kl and went home...is so farking tired so i just wanna make this post short k...sorry man, gotta sleep early too...driving up to genting tomorrow man...i don't think i wanna overnight there man...well just see how first....i guess today actually nothing bother my mind...maybe i am too tired...well but i enjoy so much today, happy because i get to take so many pictures....those pro pictures that i always wanted to take...hehe...ciaoz.
the url for the pictures of the waterfall are:
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=14459
&l=75c57&id=733503078
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=14460
&l=93964&id=733503078
Tuesday, October 09, 2007
no one.
Today is just another day, morning kena kacau by my sis at 8.30am like tat cuz she ask me to fetch her to her office...alright no choice so i did then came back wanna go sleep again but saw grandma online so talk to her for like 15 minutes and facebook-ing a while then go sleep again...sleep like hell till around 11.30am, then kath rang me up and asking me whether i am going to take my car...haha, i almost overslept and forget about my baby.
So i got up and get ready, wait for kath to send me to the toyota service centre at pj there...Reach there and waited for a while, finally i got my baby back...i though it would have some serious problem with it but it just a small matter, no wonder they get to finish so fast. After got my car then went to eat with sw at nearby her college there then drop her at the lrt.
It was around 2.30pm and i need to pick kath to meet up with genji at ss2...we went to pick genji at her working place then went nearby wong kok and eat. It been a while since i met her last time, she looks still the same and i think she is much thinner now...so we talk talk talk tilll around 4pm then have to ciaoz already.
After that fetch kath home, it started to rain so heavily....it actually spoiled my plan to play basketball. so then i just went home and online for a while, then here i come bed, went to sleep...
woke up, dinner then bath and here i am again...online-ing here no fail man...
I was actually kinda pissed at the message where she sent to me in friendster...i hate the way she said it, i seriously do...so i just replied her with a angry way too. Why can't she just don't make me angry for a day? I m really pissed whenever i heard something about her, and the way she talk to me now is like shit...Genji was actually asking about her so i just said we are over already and first thing ji ask was "she got another guy right?" I was like damn, what kind of impression she give to people man...Yea people was saying that another guy is that farker, i don't give a damn man...is blardy obvious already, now i know why people said i am dumb enough to believe that she is not with him.
was kinda pissed at what people think of her also but i can't do much man...i mean nowadays i don't like to talk about her in front of my friends...they only said i still care about her and all, i am sick of it already...She actually sms-ed me just now, she was calling me dear but i don't like it...i told her we can only use dear as for couple...well she was kinda pissed i guess...so she just sigh...she said "love u" then i ask her whether she still love me...she said love u again but she ask me back the same question...i was actually stone for a while, suddenly my brain is like can't function anymore. So i chill and think, i don't get the idea why i still have to think when i already know i still love her but something makes me think about it so hard...
i stop and question myself, "honestly, do u still love her?" it took me about 5 minutes to reply her, it seem that i can't tell her that i still love her...First thing comes to my mind is she already have someone else right, why still love me? Is she also tell that farker that she loves him...i m confused...so end up i just said i think so, but reaction was kinda sad but i have no choice...i m seriously confused already....I don't like when she call me dear, i hate it cuz i know she probably call that farker dear too...that's why i really though she sent wrong message...
Well i can don't care about what other people said, last time i seriously try hard not to believe what people said but now is different. Is darn obvious already, as if the whole world is saying that i am dumb...After that incident, i really have to believe it already...Well what comes around goes around, i really don't wanna think anymore.
for your info, i am going to genting on thursday...next few days gonna be busy man, chloe is gonna stay over my house and all...need to visit tisya also. Plans still have to go, yet assignment still haven't do...sigh. "that" is still bothering me so much, really try hard not to think but it seems that it always appear in my dreams...Somehow i am not doing anything about it and since no one know now, but i don't plan to tell anyone either...let god be the one that decide okay...haha.
Easily feel tired nowadays, getting old already man, guess i am gonna sleep in another hour later...but still have something haven't do, blah blah blah. Gotta wake up early tomorrow cuz got plan for tomorrow...i am not gonna say it out today, so check out my blog tomorrow to find out k...haha...tat's all, ciaoz.
So i got up and get ready, wait for kath to send me to the toyota service centre at pj there...Reach there and waited for a while, finally i got my baby back...i though it would have some serious problem with it but it just a small matter, no wonder they get to finish so fast. After got my car then went to eat with sw at nearby her college there then drop her at the lrt.
It was around 2.30pm and i need to pick kath to meet up with genji at ss2...we went to pick genji at her working place then went nearby wong kok and eat. It been a while since i met her last time, she looks still the same and i think she is much thinner now...so we talk talk talk tilll around 4pm then have to ciaoz already.
After that fetch kath home, it started to rain so heavily....it actually spoiled my plan to play basketball. so then i just went home and online for a while, then here i come bed, went to sleep...
woke up, dinner then bath and here i am again...online-ing here no fail man...
I was actually kinda pissed at the message where she sent to me in friendster...i hate the way she said it, i seriously do...so i just replied her with a angry way too. Why can't she just don't make me angry for a day? I m really pissed whenever i heard something about her, and the way she talk to me now is like shit...Genji was actually asking about her so i just said we are over already and first thing ji ask was "she got another guy right?" I was like damn, what kind of impression she give to people man...Yea people was saying that another guy is that farker, i don't give a damn man...is blardy obvious already, now i know why people said i am dumb enough to believe that she is not with him.
was kinda pissed at what people think of her also but i can't do much man...i mean nowadays i don't like to talk about her in front of my friends...they only said i still care about her and all, i am sick of it already...She actually sms-ed me just now, she was calling me dear but i don't like it...i told her we can only use dear as for couple...well she was kinda pissed i guess...so she just sigh...she said "love u" then i ask her whether she still love me...she said love u again but she ask me back the same question...i was actually stone for a while, suddenly my brain is like can't function anymore. So i chill and think, i don't get the idea why i still have to think when i already know i still love her but something makes me think about it so hard...
i stop and question myself, "honestly, do u still love her?" it took me about 5 minutes to reply her, it seem that i can't tell her that i still love her...First thing comes to my mind is she already have someone else right, why still love me? Is she also tell that farker that she loves him...i m confused...so end up i just said i think so, but reaction was kinda sad but i have no choice...i m seriously confused already....I don't like when she call me dear, i hate it cuz i know she probably call that farker dear too...that's why i really though she sent wrong message...
Well i can don't care about what other people said, last time i seriously try hard not to believe what people said but now is different. Is darn obvious already, as if the whole world is saying that i am dumb...After that incident, i really have to believe it already...Well what comes around goes around, i really don't wanna think anymore.
for your info, i am going to genting on thursday...next few days gonna be busy man, chloe is gonna stay over my house and all...need to visit tisya also. Plans still have to go, yet assignment still haven't do...sigh. "that" is still bothering me so much, really try hard not to think but it seems that it always appear in my dreams...Somehow i am not doing anything about it and since no one know now, but i don't plan to tell anyone either...let god be the one that decide okay...haha.
Easily feel tired nowadays, getting old already man, guess i am gonna sleep in another hour later...but still have something haven't do, blah blah blah. Gotta wake up early tomorrow cuz got plan for tomorrow...i am not gonna say it out today, so check out my blog tomorrow to find out k...haha...tat's all, ciaoz.
Monday, October 08, 2007
anger.
yuhh!!!i m feeling so pissed now. I really have no idea why but i just feel that i don't want to talk to her anymore man...i felt so angry, yea i know i m not important anymore...i don't fucking give a damn anymore man, wanna go then go, don't want then i don't wanna say much already...all i know is chloe wanted to see her and celebrate for her, not because of this, i wouldn't be so angry now...i don't know man, i guess i really can't talk to her man...is giving me this feeling as if i m darn annoying....tiu if like tat, i don't wanna care about it anymore man...go la celebrate with your so called bf, i don't mind k...i only mind that your best friend will be sad...YERRRRRR I M SO PISSED MAN!!!she fucking spoil my mood...DAMN!!!
HAIZ...so many things bothering me now, can't stop thinking and is making me hard to breathe...i guess maybe i making problems for myself only, i shouldn't have start thinking about it at first....now is really hard to stop already...somehow i still can't see whether it is true or i m just thinking too much...i don't know man...i have assignments to do and plans to go but yet i can't concentrate, even watching movies also bother me..."this" is worst than her man, at least she don't fill up my mind that much anymore...but somehow still bothering me cuz seeing me get pissed is a sign already...
ARGH!!!fucking dog make me more pissed!!!what is wrong with me man...she is making me so angry and i don't know why....damn damn damn....i have been trying so hard to not think about her everyday already and now she is bothering me again...and some more "that" also...haizzzzz...
What so ever la...i don't wanna give a damn anymore...is useless and wasting my energy....feel like talking to someone that understand me but i guess no one actually understand me...at least there is someone i think i can talk to and will listen to me no matter what...makes me feel better.
Miss her, her, her...so many her i m missing, i don't even know who m i missing...haha...lost on count already man but I Don't Like Anyone Now K...i just miss only...haha XD...
tat's all to crap for now, will come up with more...ciaoz.
HAIZ...so many things bothering me now, can't stop thinking and is making me hard to breathe...i guess maybe i making problems for myself only, i shouldn't have start thinking about it at first....now is really hard to stop already...somehow i still can't see whether it is true or i m just thinking too much...i don't know man...i have assignments to do and plans to go but yet i can't concentrate, even watching movies also bother me..."this" is worst than her man, at least she don't fill up my mind that much anymore...but somehow still bothering me cuz seeing me get pissed is a sign already...
ARGH!!!fucking dog make me more pissed!!!what is wrong with me man...she is making me so angry and i don't know why....damn damn damn....i have been trying so hard to not think about her everyday already and now she is bothering me again...and some more "that" also...haizzzzz...
What so ever la...i don't wanna give a damn anymore...is useless and wasting my energy....feel like talking to someone that understand me but i guess no one actually understand me...at least there is someone i think i can talk to and will listen to me no matter what...makes me feel better.
Miss her, her, her...so many her i m missing, i don't even know who m i missing...haha...lost on count already man but I Don't Like Anyone Now K...i just miss only...haha XD...
tat's all to crap for now, will come up with more...ciaoz.
Sunday, October 07, 2007
new stuff.
Guess wat, i think bcuz i din sleep at my own hse tat's y having all sort of weird dreams....but ytd i dreamt of sumthin, is so bothering me till now...i seriously haf no idea y...it is actually impossible, sumthin like dis will not happen in real life man...but is so bothering me! It is true tat sometimes dream comes true?well if is really gonna come true, i guess i haf more problem than before.
i just wonder y i didn't realise it last time....i mean last time i do but after gettin into a relationship, is gone already. then now i just realise tat is actually still thr or i m thinking too much abt it....i dunno man, i m so confused already....last few days, i really successfully stop thinking much abt dis kind of stuff...but now another new prob for me.
Come to think of it, is seriously impossible man...i mean is hard man...those who noe will sure understand y m i saying dis...so complicated, y m i always having such prob in my life?so hard to solve summore....but somehow i feel kinda weird too, i really don't understand my feelings now...tat's da problem now, i noe myself too well man...when i m single, 100% i cannot control my feelings wan...i can like darn alotz ppl at da same time, or liking a wrong person, or like a girl for a week then another one another week...so dun ever ask me how many girls i LIKE before, i will tell u "I also lost on count already...i not sure man!"
haha...but if u ask me how many girls i love before, then i can tell u till now is only 2...so pls differentiate k...dis show tat i m not a playboy k...haha...yea onli dis 2 tat really hurt me the most, i not sure who is the most but i think they r equally same...i actually sacrifice so much for them n i dont feel regret abt it...stop liking them is really a big prob for me...but one of them is already my gd fren now,it took me one year to do dis wei...well as for another one, i m still overcoming...really trying hard...using all sort of way man but i still love her now....i hope it dun took me few year to get over her k....
my mum said ytd "ppl always said they love who who who the most but there is no one they love the most actually bcuz they must onli love themselves the most....dont said i cant live without u, thr r many ppl out thr for u, cuz of one fellow u wanna die is not worthy...." i think is so right....feel tat those who actually suicidal bcuz of love is really haiz...dont love themselves....so wat??don't love then don't love la...u must think tat they haf lost someone that is so gd like u...they dunno how to appreciate...nvm, out thr still got many ppl will soon realise abt it....no nid to die wan...
ppl who always said wanna die actually r useless...got alotz problem then wanna die?u think so easy huh?if is so easy then alotz ppl die already lo...y dont u think of sumthin to overcome ur prob then saying die die die....when u think of dying, pls think of those who actually wanna live longer but they dont have the chance to...u r very lucky already so dont complain much...i admit last time i m like dis but now i realise tat i shouldn't think like dis n always be positive.
hmm...tok so much of craps already, but still dis thing is bothering me so much...i dun wanna think abt it anymore man...seriously dunno how to face it man...dun care first la, let god be the one to decide it...to be true or not be true...haha...gonna be more bz next week...tat's all for now, hope everything goes well for me...
p.s, i saw a darn pretty girl today at dragon-i man...wuahaha...but i think i got darn alot target already so err...hehe.
i just wonder y i didn't realise it last time....i mean last time i do but after gettin into a relationship, is gone already. then now i just realise tat is actually still thr or i m thinking too much abt it....i dunno man, i m so confused already....last few days, i really successfully stop thinking much abt dis kind of stuff...but now another new prob for me.
Come to think of it, is seriously impossible man...i mean is hard man...those who noe will sure understand y m i saying dis...so complicated, y m i always having such prob in my life?so hard to solve summore....but somehow i feel kinda weird too, i really don't understand my feelings now...tat's da problem now, i noe myself too well man...when i m single, 100% i cannot control my feelings wan...i can like darn alotz ppl at da same time, or liking a wrong person, or like a girl for a week then another one another week...so dun ever ask me how many girls i LIKE before, i will tell u "I also lost on count already...i not sure man!"
haha...but if u ask me how many girls i love before, then i can tell u till now is only 2...so pls differentiate k...dis show tat i m not a playboy k...haha...yea onli dis 2 tat really hurt me the most, i not sure who is the most but i think they r equally same...i actually sacrifice so much for them n i dont feel regret abt it...stop liking them is really a big prob for me...but one of them is already my gd fren now,it took me one year to do dis wei...well as for another one, i m still overcoming...really trying hard...using all sort of way man but i still love her now....i hope it dun took me few year to get over her k....
my mum said ytd "ppl always said they love who who who the most but there is no one they love the most actually bcuz they must onli love themselves the most....dont said i cant live without u, thr r many ppl out thr for u, cuz of one fellow u wanna die is not worthy...." i think is so right....feel tat those who actually suicidal bcuz of love is really haiz...dont love themselves....so wat??don't love then don't love la...u must think tat they haf lost someone that is so gd like u...they dunno how to appreciate...nvm, out thr still got many ppl will soon realise abt it....no nid to die wan...
ppl who always said wanna die actually r useless...got alotz problem then wanna die?u think so easy huh?if is so easy then alotz ppl die already lo...y dont u think of sumthin to overcome ur prob then saying die die die....when u think of dying, pls think of those who actually wanna live longer but they dont have the chance to...u r very lucky already so dont complain much...i admit last time i m like dis but now i realise tat i shouldn't think like dis n always be positive.
hmm...tok so much of craps already, but still dis thing is bothering me so much...i dun wanna think abt it anymore man...seriously dunno how to face it man...dun care first la, let god be the one to decide it...to be true or not be true...haha...gonna be more bz next week...tat's all for now, hope everything goes well for me...
p.s, i saw a darn pretty girl today at dragon-i man...wuahaha...but i think i got darn alot target already so err...hehe.
4,5,6,7
me n ryan...act cool!
kath n me....she hot till crazy dy...lol
my gila-ing sis n me...her siao face...
the blue margarita tower tat almost kill us all...
steph n me....finally got time to update my blog man...last few days got too many activities already, tat's y sort of bz. Let me quick update for the last few days, thrusday i went batu caves wif sw...it was awesome cuz we took soo many pics, n it quite tiring la..err then friday, went to watch resident evil at ou wif kath, ryan, steph n yin....tat show was alrite n tat chick is so cool man...aftertat lepak around ou thr for a while...then yesterday, hmm i slept till 12 sumthin then nth to do actually so just facebook-ing thr n play some games...
Well around 6 sumthin, get ready n all then went to sis thr...haf dinner then around 9.30pm went the curve...kinda happening thr man, my sis's bf bday so they ajak me go santuary for clubbing....woo u noe i love to club rite but dis club is darn small n those chicks r not so suitable for me man...so we went in around 10 sumthin n it was so darn crowded, not much space for us to actually move around...later become worst, is so hot n we r dying already...so me, kath, ryan n steph went to laundry n haf a drink...we order dis drink call blue margarita tower, cuz it looks cool n actually reasonable price....drink drink drink, after for like 2 glass...we felt like dying already....it actually sour n lil sweet, but bcuz dis tower is too big, we haf no choice to force ourselves to finish it....
then at last, all of us r like wanna die dy...then around 2 sumthin, my sis came then we ciaoz...on da way to da car park, fuck man i actually stop by da side thr n vomit like shit!!all da blue shit comin out, walau i was nearly die,haha....but after vomit, felt much better...went 7eleven to get snack n went mamak bungkus food...went to da apartment n we started to play ps2 till like around err 6 la...go sleep like shit...haf to wake up at 9 summore, take my baby go to da car shop thr cuz got some sort problem wif the car....then at last din repair n tmr haf to send it to da toyota workshop instead...went back n sleep again until my sis come kcau me at 12 sumthin...then play ps2 again...actually wait for kath to come back from meeting oso....around 4 sumthin onli we go to ou n eat...yea n thr's our dinner...haha...
then i reach home, bath n all....now i m here...haha...
p.s, for the cave's pic....
here is da url
http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=13736
&l=f925b&id=733503078
check out urself k...
Wednesday, October 03, 2007
mentally ill
tiring i am, feeling so sleepy already...maybe bcuz i jus slept for err around 4 hours ytd, was rushing my assign till around 3am...wonder when m i gonna stop doing last minute assign man, probably gonna fail my assign if i continue to be like dis. Hopeless i am, i really haf no idea wat to do abt it man...i guess i haf to really wake up n start thinking abt my future soon.
At 7.30 am i woke up, i haf no choice man. Went to hand in my assign at 8 sumthin, then haf to rush to help uni coll already...So darn funny, joining those ppl for their orientations...it was so darn boring man...i m dumb enough to actually accompany wei yin man but i saw Tisya....haha. Well i actually told her i m goin already...since long time nvr meet her then i guess is alrite...Tat dum dum is still the same, always so blur...so funny....tot of checking out girls thr but yuhhh....haiz no hope la help, even my coll got much hot girls man...the most pretty i seen today probably r tisya n wei yin onli...hahah!One thing gd abt them is they got tons of clubs man!all sorts of funny n weird clubs oso got....it make me so regret again.
Well i really wish tat i m really studying thr...at least i haf tisya n wei yin, i will be more happy i guess. Staying in taylors is so suffering, main thing is bcuz of her...i really hope tat i dun c her anymore, i haf no idea y, i hate seeing her bcuz of him...thr's dis anger in my heart, i m a very bad person i admit...i wont forget thing easily, when i hate someone...all i noe is revenge...hate me then, i dun care...JUST DONT COME N FUCK ME UP OR I WILL PROMISE TO FUCK U MORE!!
Chill chill...dis farker is so spoiling my mood, i suppose to be happy cuz i met dum dum today...or i suppose to be happy bcuz i m goin for a trip next week...i m gonna enjoy as much as i can, better than wasting my time on certain ppl...I wanna change, i wanna be an EVIL person, i want ppl to scare of me, FIGHT wif me then...COME! Dont love me then, dont miss me...i m no longer that gd anymore...hate me i dont mind....if u already had someone else, pls dun come n tell me u love me...i hate tat...i dont like ppl tat cannot make up their mind....UNDERSTAND!
this few weeks, my posts r gonna be harmful n violence...pls dun mind abt it, just wanna let go all my anger...i wanna feel better, i dun wanna to keep feeling down n sad....or cried at nite alone like sohai...i dun wan to do tat anymore....no one cares even if i m sad or dwn....i m a FUCKING LONER...thx u for givin me the WORST time in my life...HAPPY now?? I will GET OVER soon....i really hope so...hmm btw whr's grandma?
I m feeling so pissed suddenly...today i woke up, i actually feel better already...i dun wanna make it worst now...so i m gonna relax n take a deep breath....smile, yea gd....think of something nice...then later u will be fine...haha fucking lame man...i guess i start doin *tat* again, i cant control it...maybe too stress i guess...well hope tat i can stop it sooner or later...alrite tok abt sumthin nice, i got so much plan for next week man...gd thing is i can enjoy n feel better but bad thing is gonna waste lotza money man...haha!
Omg, later got chelsea match...but they r so hopeless like me now...i guess they cant do well later la...tot of supporting arsenal instead but kinda tak sampai hati to leave chelsea la...aiks maybe can support both...actually still got Ac Milan la...err support 3...ok i wont leave chelsea! i support them since i m form 3 le, let me count how many years already ar...almost 5 yrs plus!!cannot joe cole is still thr, must support!
i think i abit mentally ill already...i haf no idea y m i like tat but is kinda suffering man...hope to find a better psychologist, my depression gettin worst...i cant anything abt it...haiz...well tat's all i can crap abt for now...if got any extra, i will update later...ciaoz.
At 7.30 am i woke up, i haf no choice man. Went to hand in my assign at 8 sumthin, then haf to rush to help uni coll already...So darn funny, joining those ppl for their orientations...it was so darn boring man...i m dumb enough to actually accompany wei yin man but i saw Tisya....haha. Well i actually told her i m goin already...since long time nvr meet her then i guess is alrite...Tat dum dum is still the same, always so blur...so funny....tot of checking out girls thr but yuhhh....haiz no hope la help, even my coll got much hot girls man...the most pretty i seen today probably r tisya n wei yin onli...hahah!One thing gd abt them is they got tons of clubs man!all sorts of funny n weird clubs oso got....it make me so regret again.
Well i really wish tat i m really studying thr...at least i haf tisya n wei yin, i will be more happy i guess. Staying in taylors is so suffering, main thing is bcuz of her...i really hope tat i dun c her anymore, i haf no idea y, i hate seeing her bcuz of him...thr's dis anger in my heart, i m a very bad person i admit...i wont forget thing easily, when i hate someone...all i noe is revenge...hate me then, i dun care...JUST DONT COME N FUCK ME UP OR I WILL PROMISE TO FUCK U MORE!!
Chill chill...dis farker is so spoiling my mood, i suppose to be happy cuz i met dum dum today...or i suppose to be happy bcuz i m goin for a trip next week...i m gonna enjoy as much as i can, better than wasting my time on certain ppl...I wanna change, i wanna be an EVIL person, i want ppl to scare of me, FIGHT wif me then...COME! Dont love me then, dont miss me...i m no longer that gd anymore...hate me i dont mind....if u already had someone else, pls dun come n tell me u love me...i hate tat...i dont like ppl tat cannot make up their mind....UNDERSTAND!
this few weeks, my posts r gonna be harmful n violence...pls dun mind abt it, just wanna let go all my anger...i wanna feel better, i dun wanna to keep feeling down n sad....or cried at nite alone like sohai...i dun wan to do tat anymore....no one cares even if i m sad or dwn....i m a FUCKING LONER...thx u for givin me the WORST time in my life...HAPPY now?? I will GET OVER soon....i really hope so...hmm btw whr's grandma?
I m feeling so pissed suddenly...today i woke up, i actually feel better already...i dun wanna make it worst now...so i m gonna relax n take a deep breath....smile, yea gd....think of something nice...then later u will be fine...haha fucking lame man...i guess i start doin *tat* again, i cant control it...maybe too stress i guess...well hope tat i can stop it sooner or later...alrite tok abt sumthin nice, i got so much plan for next week man...gd thing is i can enjoy n feel better but bad thing is gonna waste lotza money man...haha!
Omg, later got chelsea match...but they r so hopeless like me now...i guess they cant do well later la...tot of supporting arsenal instead but kinda tak sampai hati to leave chelsea la...aiks maybe can support both...actually still got Ac Milan la...err support 3...ok i wont leave chelsea! i support them since i m form 3 le, let me count how many years already ar...almost 5 yrs plus!!cannot joe cole is still thr, must support!
i think i abit mentally ill already...i haf no idea y m i like tat but is kinda suffering man...hope to find a better psychologist, my depression gettin worst...i cant anything abt it...haiz...well tat's all i can crap abt for now...if got any extra, i will update later...ciaoz.
Tuesday, October 02, 2007
haiz.
WAKE UP!!!!WHEN R U GONNA STOP BEING LIKE THIS???WAT'S WRONG WIF U??? i really hope someone would give me a slap on da face n scold me badly to wake me up....even myself cannot stand being like dis anymore, but i cannot control either....i m so useless, if my dad c me like dis, i bet he will be disappointed wif me so much...y??just bcuz of a girl??u wanna make urself like dis??i hate myself, hate it so much...i felt tat i m worst than the last time when my ex left me...m i tat weak??m i tat dumb??Y CANT JUST LET GO???I HATE U...STOP LYING TO ME...when m i gonna stop thinking abt dis?haizzz....is so farking bothering my life now...
MOVE ON AND GET OVER IT!!!!
MOVE ON AND GET OVER IT!!!!
Cinderella
you're becoming a dream to me
a fairytale fantasy
nothing can never compare
an image to my memory
girl i m asking could you be my queen?
a vision on a magazine
thats when ill be there
its something we both share
[because]
when the sun shine well shine together
you know ill be here forever
although its alot of rain outside
girl its gettin late and you can stay the night
but you can dip out anytime whenever
i can call a cab i aint tryna stress ya
im looking for the one with the glass slippa'
baby girl you can be my cinderella (ella ella eh eh eh)
you can be my cinderella (ella ella eh eh eh)
you can be my cinderella (ella ella eh eh eh)
you can be my cinderella (ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)
this is the Chris brown's part in the remix version of umbrella...i think i like the remix version better...much of a nice song.
a fairytale fantasy
nothing can never compare
an image to my memory
girl i m asking could you be my queen?
a vision on a magazine
thats when ill be there
its something we both share
[because]
when the sun shine well shine together
you know ill be here forever
although its alot of rain outside
girl its gettin late and you can stay the night
but you can dip out anytime whenever
i can call a cab i aint tryna stress ya
im looking for the one with the glass slippa'
baby girl you can be my cinderella (ella ella eh eh eh)
you can be my cinderella (ella ella eh eh eh)
you can be my cinderella (ella ella eh eh eh)
you can be my cinderella (ella ella eh eh eh eh eh eh)
this is the Chris brown's part in the remix version of umbrella...i think i like the remix version better...much of a nice song.
Monday, October 01, 2007
Hate that i love u
[Rihanna (Ne-Yo):]
That’s how much I love you (yeah)
That’s how much I need you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
And I can’t stand ya
Must everything you do
make me wanna smile
Can I not like it for awhile
No..
[Ne-Yo:]
but you won’t let me
You upset me girl
then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget
that I was upset
Can’t remember what you did
[Ne-Yo:]
But I hate it
[Rihanna:]
You know exactly what to do
So that I can’t stay mad at you
For too long, that’s wrong
[Ne-Yo:]
Girl, I hate it
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don’t wanna fuss and fight no more
So I despise that I adore you
[Rihanna (Ne-Yo):]
And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah)
I can’t stand how much I need you (I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy (ooh)
But I just can’t let you go
And I hate that I love you so..
[Ne-Yo:]
And you completely know the power that you have
The only one that makes me laugh
[Rihanna:]
Sad and it’s not fair how you take advantage of the fact that I
Love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain’t right
[Ne-Yo:]
And I hate how much I love you girl
I can’t stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just can’t let you go
And I hate that I love you so
[Both:]
One of these days maybe your magic won’t affect me
And your kiss won’t make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you’ll probably always have a spell on me..
[Rihanna:]
That’s how much I love you
How much I need you
That’s how much I need you
That’s how much I love you
That’s how much I need you
[Rihanna (Ne-Yo):]
And I hate that I love you sooo...
And I hate how much I love you boy (Hey)
I can’t stand how much I need you (I can’t stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah...ooh)
But I just can’t let you go (But I just can’t let you go, no)
And I hate that I love you so
[Both:]
And I hate that I love you so.. so..
That’s how much I love you (yeah)
That’s how much I need you (yeah, yeah, yeah)
And I can’t stand ya
Must everything you do
make me wanna smile
Can I not like it for awhile
No..
[Ne-Yo:]
but you won’t let me
You upset me girl
then you kiss my lips
All of a sudden I forget
that I was upset
Can’t remember what you did
[Ne-Yo:]
But I hate it
[Rihanna:]
You know exactly what to do
So that I can’t stay mad at you
For too long, that’s wrong
[Ne-Yo:]
Girl, I hate it
You know exactly how to touch
So that I don’t wanna fuss and fight no more
So I despise that I adore you
[Rihanna (Ne-Yo):]
And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah)
I can’t stand how much I need you (I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy (ooh)
But I just can’t let you go
And I hate that I love you so..
[Ne-Yo:]
And you completely know the power that you have
The only one that makes me laugh
[Rihanna:]
Sad and it’s not fair how you take advantage of the fact that I
Love you beyond the reason why
And it just ain’t right
[Ne-Yo:]
And I hate how much I love you girl
I can’t stand how much I need you
And I hate how much I love you girl
But I just can’t let you go
And I hate that I love you so
[Both:]
One of these days maybe your magic won’t affect me
And your kiss won’t make me weak
But no one in this world knows me the way you know me
So you’ll probably always have a spell on me..
[Rihanna:]
That’s how much I love you
How much I need you
That’s how much I need you
That’s how much I love you
That’s how much I need you
[Rihanna (Ne-Yo):]
And I hate that I love you sooo...
And I hate how much I love you boy (Hey)
I can’t stand how much I need you (I can’t stand how much I need you)
And I hate how much I love you boy (yeah...ooh)
But I just can’t let you go (But I just can’t let you go, no)
And I hate that I love you so
[Both:]
And I hate that I love you so.. so..
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