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Guess wat, i think bcuz i din sleep at my own hse tat's y having all sort of weird dreams....but ytd i dreamt of sumthin, is so bothering me till now...i seriously haf no idea y...it is actually impossible, sumthin like dis will not happen in real life man...but is so bothering me! It is true tat sometimes dream comes true?well if is really gonna come true, i guess i haf more problem than before.
i just wonder y i didn't realise it last time....i mean last time i do but after gettin into a relationship, is gone already. then now i just realise tat is actually still thr or i m thinking too much abt it....i dunno man, i m so confused already....last few days, i really successfully stop thinking much abt dis kind of stuff...but now another new prob for me.
Come to think of it, is seriously impossible man...i mean is hard man...those who noe will sure understand y m i saying dis...so complicated, y m i always having such prob in my life?so hard to solve summore....but somehow i feel kinda weird too, i really don't understand my feelings now...tat's da problem now, i noe myself too well man...when i m single, 100% i cannot control my feelings wan...i can like darn alotz ppl at da same time, or liking a wrong person, or like a girl for a week then another one another week...so dun ever ask me how many girls i LIKE before, i will tell u "I also lost on count already...i not sure man!"
haha...but if u ask me how many girls i love before, then i can tell u till now is only 2...so pls differentiate k...dis show tat i m not a playboy k...haha...yea onli dis 2 tat really hurt me the most, i not sure who is the most but i think they r equally same...i actually sacrifice so much for them n i dont feel regret abt it...stop liking them is really a big prob for me...but one of them is already my gd fren now,it took me one year to do dis wei...well as for another one, i m still overcoming...really trying hard...using all sort of way man but i still love her now....i hope it dun took me few year to get over her k....
my mum said ytd "ppl always said they love who who who the most but there is no one they love the most actually bcuz they must onli love themselves the most....dont said i cant live without u, thr r many ppl out thr for u, cuz of one fellow u wanna die is not worthy...." i think is so right....feel tat those who actually suicidal bcuz of love is really haiz...dont love themselves....so wat??don't love then don't love la...u must think tat they haf lost someone that is so gd like u...they dunno how to appreciate...nvm, out thr still got many ppl will soon realise abt it....no nid to die wan...
ppl who always said wanna die actually r useless...got alotz problem then wanna die?u think so easy huh?if is so easy then alotz ppl die already lo...y dont u think of sumthin to overcome ur prob then saying die die die....when u think of dying, pls think of those who actually wanna live longer but they dont have the chance to...u r very lucky already so dont complain much...i admit last time i m like dis but now i realise tat i shouldn't think like dis n always be positive.
hmm...tok so much of craps already, but still dis thing is bothering me so much...i dun wanna think abt it anymore man...seriously dunno how to face it man...dun care first la, let god be the one to decide it...to be true or not be true...haha...gonna be more bz next week...tat's all for now, hope everything goes well for me...

p.s, i saw a darn pretty girl today at dragon-i man...wuahaha...but i think i got darn alot target already so err...hehe.