Luck

Hola peeps.

I am back. like finally right.

sorry for the m.i.a. my schedules are really packed and that i am so darn lazy recently.

my last update bout my life was back in July. lol

Well, i should really keep you guys on track.

It's October.

again. time passed really fast.

it's gonna be end of year so soon.

for the past 3 months. ups and downs. i really can't recall much.

I know September wasn't really good at all.

but can't expect a smooth month after all right.

Had a bad sick on August that kept me so weak for one whole week.

Not to forget, relationship issue that almost got me into hell.

well, at least one thing happened every month.

Financial problem! the same darn shit. Hate it.

what to do. I am always famous in spending.

but then, now i do learn how to save. somehow it's just doesn't really work out.

i cut on the expenses of buying clothes and so many stuff.

and i do is just spend on food. guess i really eat a lot huh.

It doesn't matter anymore. I will continue on my saving to phuket.

so let's pray that October is gonna be a real good one.

to myself and also everyone out there.

we need to stay strong to keep going in life.

It's sunday tomorrow. it's so happen that i always blog on saturday or sunday.

another week gone. next week quiz and needa start in my assignment.

Hallo Brain. Where have you been? I need you to come back right now.

I am not sure whether i manage to even write. Haha.

This week still a so so one.

Sadness shit would be the last day of September.

which is Thursday.

I woke up like 6.30am in the morning to fetch baby to college.

The most DF shit is that it's fucking jam like everywhere.

i am going crazy. The road i used to use jam like fuck. so i have no choice to use another road which also jam like fuck.

I got so pissed. During the jam, one fucking motorcyclist bang my side mirror.

and like wtf, the cover actually dropped out.

I couldn't manage to pick it back cause it's like fucking so many cars. No, it's so much cars.

Mch. fucker didn't even stop and say sorry just go off like that.

Argh. and guess what, that shit cost me $75 bucks. Damn.

After that shit, i continue jamming my way.

Well, baby actually said she doesn't wanna go to college anymore.

cause it's like late for an hour. but not knowing why. i insist to keep going.

reached mv, turning down to bangsar.

I got so pissed with a blardy cab and i speed up.

holy shit. when i turn and break at the turning.

my worst nightmare came. out of sudden it happen so quickly.

My car actually turn round and round. I can't stop it.

It bang the side of the road.

Fuck. I got so fucking panic. and then it stops.

I got the shock of my life. I nearly smell death from that accident.

Baby actually saved us by pulling the handbrake. then the car stops.

I don't know what will happen if she doesn't do so.

If you know which road is it. Below that bridge actually a river and of cause land.

If my car doesn't stop and bang down. We can actually die.

Fuck.

I am so fucking sure is that, the road was so darn slippery.

cause it's just after rain. and that turning was so darn sharp.

My mistake was speeding up when the turning comes.

The road on that morning can actually kills. I can feel the tyre actually drift.

Fuck. I actually drift. I fucking stone after that.

Lucky shit is that my car doesn't damage much.

Burst two tyre and stretch at the front.

I stop at the side with my double signal flash.

Then this aunty, she didn't see my car but lucky she stops and when she turn out, this a myvi came and bang her car =.=

i actually caused others accident. They scolded me but i have no choice man cause i can't move my car.

One thing i would like to share here.

when my car spin. there were cars at the back.

those cars stop of cause.

but then when i drive my car to the side slowly.

They actually go off without bothering.

I was like wtf. What kind of people were that?

They saw that shit happen and nobody give a fuck by offering help.

They keep going as if nothing happen. Damn.

Again. No offense, most malaysian are like that.

Funny thing is the one that actually stop and help was DBKL.

yea, three of them drove truck guys. fixed my spare tyre and guide my way to the nearest petrol station.

not to forget, Zoie did so much help by being there when i needed help.

she drove us to the temple to KL.

We were lucky to be alive. I learnt my lesson well this time.

Speeding kills especially during rains.

I should really learn to drive safely.

I feel so bad. I almost got us kill. Not just me but us. Fuck.

Thanks god for blessing seriously. and also thanks baby for pulling the handbrake.

Man, i couldn't imagine people attending my funeral so soon.

Choi!!!

So peeps, please drive safely and putting on a seat belt actually helps so much.

I lost confident in my driving now. I feel so stress. Mentally affected by that accident.

Damn. I should fight that fear cause i feel so useless.

That night, i still managed to go to zouk.

after two months of m.i.a from club.

got scolded by friends for driving fast. lol

every Mohs so happen to wear black together.

but then, we got off really early like 1 something.

cause they said polices gonna come sapu.

mch. turn off totally la.

Man, that day was the shittest day ever.

i am so "black" until everything tak jadi.

Haha.

Okie. Enough of sadness shit.

Friday, went movie marathon with baby and xem.

the legend of fist and resident evil 3D.

okie, i know i am so darn outdated. lol

dinner at zanmai then.

back to oug home with baby.

guess what, we actually cooked supper =.=

We are fat ass =p

Whole body so darn pain especially my leg.

the impact of accident.

I don't wanna do that anymore. It's not fun at all.

Today, nothing much. stay home for this loving saturday night. Sigh. How bored.

Not sure about tomorrow. Kind of feeling that my weekends are just boring.

Life is so bored even with baby by my side. Haha. Just kidding.

She sleeps so much that i actually feel so lonely.

Hungry right now. lol

Soccer match. Van Der Vaart is so useful to the Spurs. Damn. Chelsea should grab him first.

Good buy indeed. Tomorrow big showdown: Chelsea vs Arsenal.

Go Blues.

Okie. I should go for my baby now. She m.i.a again, don't tell me she sleeps again.

Keep you guys update real soon.

Take care peeps.

*A good friend is the one that tell you the truth even if you don't like to heard them*

This girl

Step up 3 - This girl - Laza Morgan ♥

There's this girl (this girl)
The one and only wonder of this world (my world)
And it don't matter if the road gets rough
If me rich or poor
She stay down with me if me go to war

Love you cause you are
Every single star
In the constellation that's a light in my heart
Specially from Jah
Therefore you are, yes
Girl you got more presence than a hundred Santa Clauses
And I know (I know)
We'll stand together when the world falls down (falls down)
And I Know (I know)
That our forever gonna start right now (right now)

There's this girl (this girl)
The one and only wonder of this world (my world)
And it don't matter if the road gets rough
If me rich or poor
She stay down with me if me go to war

There's this girl (this girl)
The one and only wonder of this world (my world)
And it don't matter if the road gets rough
If me rich or poor
She stay down with me til me hit the floor

These are hardest times
Loves so hard to find
Blessed is the man who has a woman at his side
This that I'll do right
Never do me wrong
If ya ever missing me just listen to this song
And you know (you know)
We'll get together when the sun goes down (goes down)
And I know (I know)
Still be together when it comes back round (back round)

There's this girl (this girl)
The one and only wonder of this world (my world)
And it don't matter if the road gets rough
If me rich or poor
She stay down with me if me go to war

There's this girl (this girl)
The one and only wonder of this world (my world)
And it don't matter if the road gets rough
If me rich or poor
She stay down with me til me hit the floor

I say she stay down with me if me go to war
I say she stay down with me till me hit the floor

Love this song so much =)

It's true when you finds the right one, you will start to think about the future.

Love my baby girl so much ♥

P.s, sorry for not been updating my blog. I really hope i can update real soon about what's going on in my life. I need some mood and inspiration laaa. lol.

Insomnia

*Just gonna stand there and watch me burn, well that's alright because i like the way it's hurts*

listening to this track over and over again.

"Love the way you lie" by Eminem Feat Rihanna.

It's somehow just attracts me, not knowing why.

A satisfaction album from Eminem this time. Great job.

Suppose to be asleep by now.

Not knowing what happen, i get her pissed off again.

Sigh.

I ain't no pissed here, just sad =(

It's feels like my hard works just get crashed.

A stab at my heart, it's painful.

Thinking positive right here now.

Praying to have a good week here.

I am tired of living in fear.

I should complete my task by this week.

I don't wanna get it undone till the last minute.

Every fucking day i am thinking about it. I feel so worry. I don't know how.

A big Sigh.

Bless me god. I just want a happy life that's all. Just give me a good year after all the disasters i had gone through for the past two years.

*I just want us to be happy always. Please don't doubt me anymore, you are always at my top priority. Love you lots baby ♥ *

Why.

I don't know why.

I don't know what.

I don't know how.

I don't know when.

I just don't get it at all.

Am i dumb or what?

Sigh.

I seriously can't stand the childishness of mine.

Spamming and talking craps?

perhaps it's just waste of a time.

I always tend to make silly mistakes when i am sad. or i am angry.

Maybe i should really continue to work on my temper.

It has been bad this few days.

It's making me crazy.

I hate it especially i had to throw my temper on the one i love.

I really didn't mean to. A big Sigh.

Since monday, bad things just keep going my way.

Until today itself, i am still being the unlucky one.

I don't know what is wrong.

I don't know why baby acting like this as well?

was it something i did that upset her? or we just so happen to pms together huh?

I don't get it. She was okie with me now and in second later she gets really pissed.

0.0

Maybe it's my fault. Sigh.

I am trying my very best here. Can you just give me a chance?

I am tired of all those tears that left on every corner of the earth.

I just don't know why i can't control myself each time i get emo.

I feel like slapping myself seriously.

I am so dead today.

My eyes can't open any bigger.

I had been headache for the whole day.

My leg feels numb.

I feel restless. Energy level equals to negative 0.

and i almost fall asleep while i am driving.

I can't concentrate on my exam questions and not manage to do it properly.

My mind is just surrounded by her.

I just sense that something bad could happen real soon.

maybe i think too much.

but, sometimes something is just unexpected right.

*if talking to me make you even more angry, i am sorry. Maybe my communication have some problem. Sometimes do speak up, i don't know what are you thinking. I admit i am dumb cause i really don't know what i did wrong. I apologize to you again. I hate all this, it's like the worst shit i am going through. I really don't want this to happen to us. I want us to be happy. Give me a chance to fix things up, let me know what's the problem. It won't do us any good if we keep hanging on like this. I still care about you lots okie. It's my bad to raise my voice on you, i am sorry. I really didn't mean to. No matter what happen to us, i still love you the way i do, not any lesser. I am sorry that i have to post this up here cause i know you don't feel like talking to me now. I respect you, and i should give you some time to chill.*

My body really wanting to sleep right now.

but my mind is not willing to do so.

Sigh.

Please give me a good start for the month of July.

I don't want to have sour face following me on the first day of July.

and it's my mum's birthday. I must not moody.

Thank god for giving me a month full of happiness but also some sorrows.

I am glad you are always there to hear my pray when i needed you.

Please bless me in the month of July. Take my pains away and fill my life with happiness.

I promise i will appreciate every single thing in my life. Amen.

May peace be with everyone of you =)

*There is no love without forgiveness, and there is no forgiveness without love. Quoted from Atisya 2010*

Ricordi

9/6/2010

Not the presentation i am talking here again.

another day with sweet and nice activities.

outing with my baby =)

as i promised, i gonna treat my baby to nice meals.

the reason, cause i wanna celebrate her birthday with just only her.

another reason, cause i wear till so nice la that day. Hahaha.

Had our lunchie at Porto Romano, Mont Kiara.

Great Environment and nice food.

The Pasta. Yum. Nice one.

My favorite dish =)

It tastes like in heaven. lol.

The red wine sauce is the bomb man.

Before heading to Pavilion.

A picture with the lil Babi =)

After our lunchie, decided to head to Pavilion for movie.

we watched "killer".

I wouldn't mind to go for a second time.

It's a really nice movie and it's funny!

Poor me. I had to look at those sales and attractive stuff but not buying them.

argh!

Walk around teman baby to shop for her heels.

but at the end, she didn't get any of them =.=

Oh yea, She got herself something from Forever 21.

Loving baby's shirt look =)

Headed to Kampachi for dinner then.

Feeling all tired with so much of walking.

Went home after dinner.

i couldn't walk any longer.

i have been up since 5am in the morning and i reached home at like 12am?

somehow, i don't feel tired at all.

well, maybe spending time with baby doesn't make me feel tired.

loving it.

we should really have more of this kinda outing again.

happy day =)

Lastly, My Favorite picture of the day xD

The babi gemuk and the lil babi.

Hahaha.

The both look alike.

*Happiness is when i am able to spend my day with you*

Awaited

Assignments are all done.

left one somehow, argh!

my fear!

The Imt Presentation!

lol.

However, this is also a long awaited day for me.

cause i can wear nice nice =)

Hahaha.

Okie. Some pictures again.

9/6/2010

Our Group, Team 3A.

The market leader in the industry xD

We might look hopeless but we are at the top yoo! lol

We didn't do very well in the presentation thou. sigh.

Don't care! Glad it's all over. So now left the finals. Argh!

Some random pics =)

With the Christines. lol

Last but not least, The CEO himself.

A cool looking bastard xD

sorry for the perasan-ness. lol.

*Working hard to achieve every goal of mine*

Special

Another month is here.

June~

What a really broke month for me.

but i guess it's all worth =)

okie, we should let the pictures do the talking.

5/6/2010

The Babi Gemuk's Birthday =)

Dinner, Korean restaurant at Hartamas.

What's the name of the restaurant again? I think it's called "Da Sa Kwan", if i am not mistaken. lol.

As usual, not all the Mohs attend the session. Somehow most of them able to make it.

Thanks the Mohs for making this happen =)

really appreciate for making my plan works. Specially thanks to Em and also Zoie Moh.

*Hope you like the pressie my dear. and don't keep complain to me okie. sigh. I hope i did gave you a nice and awesome birthday this year. much much loves =)*

Time

Hola.

Another week gonna end soon. well is so darn quickly right.

i am glad that the assignment war is finally over. I have phobia toward it seriously. all the rushing and sleepless night. kill me seriously.

Today is my homing day. I think my aunties are gonna feel so surprised about this. lol

Maybe i should spend some time at home to relax a lil.

I was rushing my finance assignment till thursday. where i eventually finish it in the morning itself.

thanks to that stupid shit which i don't understand and my group mates don't wanna do that blardy part.

so ended up i did it and i am darn sure i screwed up cause i simply calculated it which i know is definitely wrong but who cares, i don't have time anymore.

Sleep the shit out of me after that. saving some energy for the party at night.

Oh yea, and i actually washed my car. lol

The Mohs went to 4play on thursday night. It was awesome.

the so called lady gaga vs rihanna theme party doesn't really that hips.

i don't even see anyone dressing like them. well maybe malaysian not so much into this kinda thingy.

well, the songs were rocks! Love it.

had a great night with the Mohs and i think i was a lil tipsy back then.

did all sort of stupid stuff again and caught in action pula. please don't mind about the pictures at fb. i know they looks terrible. lol

had dim sum after club. waited for Ryan Moh at there.

i feel so sad for him seriously. I couldn't imagine myself in his situation. damn. i probably gonna be like him, drunk every fucking night.

please god, don't do this to me so soon okie.

I feel so good today. except for dinner, i didn't go out at all. oh, i went temple with the mum, sis and aunt too.

hot like hell man. what kinda weather is this.

save money la please. i have been really really broke. spending over my capacity la.

i cannot imagine how to survive next month also. sadness.

can someone please contribute some money to me ar?

still thinking what to do tomorrow. i don't wanna stuck at home another day.

going for a haircut on sunday. really need some grooming before i look even like shit.

Wonder where's my baby sweetheart gone to? study till fainted i think.

not seeing her for today. miss her so much right now =(

i couldn't imagine myself not loving her. well, that's not gonna happen.

i could go thousand miles just for her.

love her supa darn lots.

I know she has been worrying about her finals, don't worry sweetie. i know you can do well in all the papers. be confident and everything is gonna be okie if you believe in yourself. I am here to give you luck and support okie =)

I am feeling kinda bored right now. sigh.

i have to start on my presentation stuff by tomorrow. No time for me to joke around for my studies.

Finals gonna starts on the 21st. and believe it or not. my exam timetable is a killer.

21st, 22nd, 24th and 30th. The first three paper is killing me. no gap in between. wtf.

I am so not gonna screw them, so i have to really start studying especially my finance.

cause i know nothing.

Finally bought the Jay Chou's new album. it was kinda cool. The songs were good.

I guess next month no more shopping too. how sad is this.

damn. i got so much to do from next week.

luckily my mind was working yesterday, got myself a really creative idea and all i need now is the determination and the material.

Praying that i gonna success in it please.

Come to think of it, not much time. is just one week down the road.

Good luck to myself xD

World cup starting soon. and i can't even watch it due to the stupid exam time.

argh. who cares. i gonna start study earlier.

Lakers please go to the finals okie. Support you all the way.

It's 29th. Another month ending soon. time passed fast.

June is gonna be a disaster for me. Finals and all. stress.

i seriously don't want it to come so quick.

Feeling a lil sleepy right now. just watched "the time traveler's wife".

hell. This movie is killing me. it's so fucking sad okie.

i couldn't imagine myself watching this in the cinema lo.

Imagine that you know you gonna die and leave the one you love.

oh shit.

i just realized my msg didn't send out. opps.

Okie.

I gonna get going with my stuff right now.

update soon. enjoy this long weekend peeps.

ciaoz.

*I am gonna love you with all that i got*