Heart

Okie i really have no idea what to crap today.

since she insist me to update so i will try to make a nice post here.

lol

Alright.

The match just over.

Chelsea vs Arsenal. 3-0

Poor thing for Arsenal, i don't feel good seeing them lost thou.

I was expecting for a draw match.

but turn out to be better =)

Hmmm.

If i am not mistaken, i think i updated on friday.

so let me recall what had happened this few days.

Sighness~

i think i got some short-term lost of memories.

i can't remember what i do on friday pula.

Oh ya, i went to club.

LOL

It was Dj Fatal trix aka Ryan's day.

cuz he was in the Dj competition thingy.

i was there to support him of cuz.

and at the same time ready to get drunk.

lol

It was kinda bored at first.

but later on better.

Club was fun, Liquor even better.

Drink drink drink.

so ended up, i was fucking knocked out.

well, i am not gonna expose what i had done that night cuz is not something to be proud of.

and is hopelessly memalukan.

One thing i can say is that i slept on the road? or suppose to call it tanah? =S

i don't know. just the tanah besides my car.

Someone just said that i love my car so much so i have to lie down beside it huh.

Okie okie.

i knew i was gonna be so drunk.

cuz i was sad before i went club.

when i said sad, i mean seriously fucking sad.

lol

thanks to someone basically.

and the fan jin-ness of myself.

blah blah blah~

the fucking next day, darn hangover wei.

almost died without waking up.

but i still manage to go for a late late lunch at 4pm.

wtf.

thanks to that fucker.

fucker that make pym sad all the time.

slap kao him man.

then until at night pergi minum tea at kuchai.

my new hang out place now.

go till can vomit already.

that fucker buat masalah again then ended up blah blah blah.

*sorry man, cuz is like a fucking long story so i just cut it short here*

One secret here.

i got some sickness.

and i gonna leave this world real soon.

so soon that you might not be seeing my post anymore.

lol

okie okie think positive!

hopefully i won't die okie.

I still need to be in this world to pamper someone =)

Today is one boring day.

Entertain my aunt and mum in the morning to one u.

then yum cha at kuchai again.

talk cock sing song~

balik rumah tidur macam pig then.

wake up makan.

then online.

fucking bored right?

argh!

Okie.

time for me to have some confession.

Based on my research on this few days.

i found some shitty stuff.

which i don't want it to be true.

arrr, can i slap myself thinking about that?

i am confused.

for some unknown reason.

zzzzzzzzz

whatever man.

i guess i think too much.

i am too free that's why.

too free to think of stupid nonsense.

Can i pull myself out?

i seriously wonder.

i don't know what i want.

but i am clear about everyone.

i know csl is long gone.

which will remain as my regret.

and about her?

arr, i just don't know how to explain it.

my ex's best friend? wtf. wtf. wtf.

but..........

there is something about her.

i tak tau la.

i don't want to expose so much here.

after got people perasan. lol

alright.

i guess enough of tcss.

need to head to bed soon.

god bless me.

bless everyone.

good day ahead please.

ciao.

*Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you that i can't keep loving you, but i just can't stop loving you.*

Miracles

Halo there.

You guys must be wondering why am i still awake at this hour right?

Hmm.

That's probably i am still waiting for someone to get home.

I am feeling a lil sleeping now.

*yawn*

hopefully i don't ter-sleep man.

Finally i am done with my finals.

i have been waiting for this for such a long time.

the whole month of revision is making me crazy.

well, i can't guarantee myself with good grades.

cuz i think i screw up most of the papers.

so hopeless.

So now, i am with my holidays.

a fucking long break till March next year.

for sure i am gonna work.

but now i need some rest.

need some entertainment.

till i get myself into the busy weeks ahead.

Next week, with mission to complete.

with stuff to handle.

with places to go.

*yawn*

i am like drowsing off already.

wtf.

almost fall asleep.

and now, i am thinking what should i do everyday.

i have been quite bored especially tonight.

not knowing what should i do.

i think i should just go work.

lol

at least i have spend my last few days well.

drinking and movie and food.

i can't wait for the better one.

can't wait for wei yin to be back.

3 days to go XD

alright.

i am fucking awake now.

due to someone.

is already 4am.

i am worry.

and i hate this feeling. Argh!

Sometimes i do wonder.

and i doubt.

why is this happening.

something that is so impossible.

i seriously can't imagine myself being in this kind of situation.

Wtf man.

is it so true that you don't need a reason to fall in love with someone?

but........

Hmm.

i am in my deep thought.

thinking about this matter.

This feelings. so weird and yet so real.

wtf.

but i know is impossible okie.

whatever is it, just let it be for this moment.

I miss you now.

and at the same time i am worry about you.

i know you might think this is one of the biggest joke.

you just don't know man.

what is coming to you.

what is going to happen in the future.

now i do believe that nothing is impossible.

lol

Alright.

i know i can't be sleeping now.

but i need to stop writing here.

cuz i have just run out of ideas of what to crap here.

Okie.

Take care peeps.

=)

" Sometimes we just need to believe that, everything happens for a reason"

=)

Look. I know we've been friends for a while now.
But, I just feel like I can confess to you.
It's gonna be hard but.
Alright here it goes...

Imagine that the pillow that you cried on was my chest,
and the tissue that you wiped your face with was my hand.
Girl, imagine: if you needed advise about some other guy, I'm the one that comes to mind.
Not tryna hear you tell nobody that I'm just a friend,
just trying to make sure I'm that body that you call your man,
and anytime you need a shoulder -- it's yours, night or day,
but what I'm tryna say is, I wanna be...

The last number you call late at night (said I wanna be),
The first one that you dial when you open your eyes.
Wanna be the one you run to,
wanna be the one that ain't gonna hurt you,
I wanna be yeah, I wanna be yeah..
Be the man making your girl jealous,
be the guy shuttin' down all the fellas..
whatever you need, girl, it's all on me:
soldier, your friend or your lover, girl,
I wanna be...

Would it be cool?
Would you mind if I called you my boo,
what if the next whip you was pushin' was the one I bought for you?
Can I be the one that meets your pops and take your mama shoppin', be the only one they like?
Have you thought about it -- wait -- really thought about it?
Maybe you should take some time
call your girls and talk about it, yeah.
'cause I done already made up my mind,
don't need no more time to know if I wanna be with you,
I wanna be...

Put me on your screen saver, all over your myspace and make me one of your top favorites,
that's where I wanna be...
The one you cryin' for (stand up for and fightin' for)
wanna be your good, bad, love, hate girl..

The last number you call late at night (said I wanna be),
The first one that you dial when you open your eyes.
Wanna be the one you run to,
wanna be the one that ain't gonna hurt you,
I wanna be yeah, I wanna be yeah..
Be the man making your girl jealous,
be the guy shuttin' down all the fellas..
whatever you need, girl, it's all on me:
soldier, your friend or your lover, girl,
I wanna be...

Cross my heart hoped to die, on everything that's good,
I'm gonna do you right, show you right, get this understood.
Cross my heart hoped to die, on everything that's good,
I'm gonna do you right, show you right, get this understood.

The last number you call late at night (said I wanna be),
The first one that you dial when you open your eyes.
Wanna be the one you run to,
wanna be the one that ain't gonna hurt you,
I wanna be yeah, I wanna be yeah..
Be the man making your girl jealous,
be the guy shuttin' down all the fellas..
whatever you need, girl, it's all on me:
soldier, your friend or your lover, girl,
I wanna be...

Girl I wanna be, I wanna be....
I wanna be, I wanna be...

Taken from the song "I wanna be" by Chris Brown

Dedicated to that someone special =)

Perspective

Argh!

my fb account is under maintenance pula.

i feel so miserable without looking at my fb.

lol

I am still feeling tired.

*yawn*

woke up at 7am for some reason.

then i think i fall asleep later on.

so ended up woke up at 10am.

I have been feeling tired recently.

maybe going out too often?

but i guess it's all worth =)

The progression of my revisions are so so.

half way hanging all over.

seems like i am not taking it seriously.

too much stuff on mind.

can't really concentrate sometimes.

Okie this week gonna be the last week.

gotta work hard already.

My motivation! lol

My mind still stuck with prawns i guess.

thanks to pym seriously.

We went to steamboat buffet at sunway on saturday.

i think we took about 100 prawns.

and lots of crabs as well.

the humans at the next table keep looking at the 4 of us.

Lol

hopeless betul.

prawns just turn me off now.

haha.

Drink tea on saturday night.

from 1am till 6am.

lmao.

the time totally terbalik already.

I think i gonna die faster and some people gonna be so happy about it.

Chelsea got lucky yesterday.

both teams were playing well i Assume.

but whatever is it, Chelsea still won the match.

It's just the beginning man.

long way to go.

Guess what.

i have been hearing things about you.

not some good things of cuz.

so not my type of people huh.

i guess you are not worth.

and wasting my time.

therefore, i am officially gonna let go of you.

Time to say goodbye.

i know it takes times.

but i promise you will be out of my mind for sure.

Letting go is not hard at all.

lol

My life has been good.

happier i assume.

and one thing, my temper.

i think my temper just disappear somewhere.

he doesn't even come out now.

well, of cuz it is a good things.

now i know my temper will only show up to certain people.

haha.

Think positive.

i am changing the way i judge.

my perspective.

it has been going well.

seeing improvement.

unlike those random people.

*shake head*

can't wait for exam to be over.

lots of stuff to do.

lots of places to go.

lots of works to handle.

and lots of money to spend.

lol

okie okie.

is time for me to go study now.

instead of rubbish-ing here.

lol

ciao.

*my intention is about her, not you please"

You

2nd November.

Happy Birthday to my cousin, Jaime.

and not to forget...

Happy Birthday to you.

someone that i gave my heart to.

here to wish you, all the best and take care.

Dedicate a song to you.

"Vanilla Twilight - Owl City"

*I wish i am there for you*

Silence

The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake and miss you.
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me.
I'd send a postcard to you dear,
'Cause I wish you were here.

I watch the night turn light blue.
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find repose in new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.

*Owl City - Vanilla Twilight*