Fondness.

Bad day~
Hurt my toe when i close my wardrobe door in the afternoon.
It badly hurt and is darn pain.

I wasn't feeling so well after all. Couldn't get up in the morning, feeling really sick.
slept until 1pm plus, got up and online.
Feeling so bored and hungry. Only to remember i didn't take my dinner yesterday.
I must have addicted to driving, so i must at least drive out to make myself happier.
Rang up sw, ask her to have err so called lunch. Is already 3pm at that time when we reach the cafe.

At ss2, the cafe is suck as usual. Everytime they have to make me angry.
The service there is sucks to the max, we have no choice so to that place.
Btw that cafe is wong kok. Food sucks, i guess i won't head back there next time.
After that went home and facebook again.

Still feeling unwell. Cousin called me to ask me to do him a favor, Buy flowers.
so tomorrow i have to go to the florist. Sigh.
Dinner, bath and again online.
Feeling so unwell. Keep sneezing.
i guess i am gonna get sick soon.

Exam is 2 weeks down the road. I am still being so hopeless.
I really have no idea what am i thinking.
Sigh, guess i am gonna retake again.
I really hate myself.

When i was driving just now, i think so much.
She just couldn't get out my mind. I hate it.
I am so suffering. Is this what a punishment?
Punishment for playing those girls' heart last time?
I still remember. I recalled back just now, the girl which i hurt so much.
She loves me but i never did. I was a bad bf after all.
I changed after i met J. A good bf but too good after all.
Soon after that i rejected this girl, i hurt her so much.
She is the one that make me felt guilty.

Later i become even better. That's when my friends said i am becoming more stupid. =/
I am the best bf that people ever seen.
What she want, i can get. What she don't like, i won't do. When she angry, is my fault.
Who make her angry, go fight with them. What she said, i will do.
Well actually this is an act of dumbness.
I am too good, and they never appreciate. That is why the word "dumb" came in.

Looking back at my life, i realize that i am really stupid. haha.
the thing that changed my life so much is love.
I used to be a top student when i am in form 2.
After fallen in love, my results are like shit. Then i am becoming worst after that.
Love influence my life so much. well maybe this is my biggest weakness.
That is why look at me now, i am like a piece of shit because of love.

I guess i wanna be like who i am last time.
I don't wanna be so good anymore, a evil and bad person will suit me more.
I have learnt my lesson. That is why i hate girls that play guys' heart.
The worst is girls cheat on their bf. I hate that man.
I guess i really have to find a normal gf after all. those too fancy are no good. They will only hurt me more.

Trying to get her out of my mind, i guess she is killing me everyday.
What she wants from me man? What a complex person.
She just can't make up her mind or being selfish.
Yer i don't know man. Sooner or later, i will really die because of her.
Damn Damn Damn.
I have absorb so much from different people now. but i don't know what to do.
Sigh. Guess i really have to get some good rest tonight. before i get sick tomorrow.

That's all for today.
Ciaoz.