Enjoyment.

Hee hee~~~
i am so semangat now.
even though i slept at 7am this morning and woke up at 12pm.
yea that's when Kate woke me up. =.=
well had a lil nap in the afternoon also.
but still feeling alright now.

as i mention in my last post.
i went Skybar and also Maison yesterday.
reach skybar about 10.30pm.
but, those people haven't even come out of their house yet!
me and wei yin like 2 nuts there waiting for them to come.
in the end, they came at 11.30pm.
sighness.
bad time management huh.
chill there for a while with wei yin before they come.
i ordered this ultimate mojito.
well, i t taste alright.
but for wei yin's bloody mary, hahahaha.
almost kill her. she said taste like chili padi.
i am so agree with her when i have slip, i was like "omg! is like drinking chili sauce!"

then Kath said wanna come Skybar as well but she doesn't know the way.
so we meet her outside KLCC and lead her to traders hotel.
so i suppose paying 7 bucks for my parking but at last paid 14 bucks because of her. =/
then went chill again at Skybar.
those guys were playing cards and we took some pics.
about 12.30am, dumdum said wanna head to Maison already.
well because she have to head home early.

reach Maison about 1am.
my god, it was so darn pack man.
can't even breath in there.
saw quite alotz of familiar faces.
met up with boon hui, he was with chin yuan and mun cheng.
then this chin yuan keep ask me to drink.
he keep said "long time no see, come drink. give face and all."
sighness.
so alright took like 3 glass.
then went in with dumdum and wei yin.
and with the gang of guys.
they were looking for table from downstairs to upstairs and down again.
guess who i saw.
i saw jack. yea her boyfriend.
well she was not there.
then later saw jon.
after that, bump into Joseph tan.
he came crazy with us, dance and all.
later ask me to drink again.
then the gang of guys there, i also took few shot.

not to forget, dumdum went home about 2am.
so me and wei yin, joseph and some fellow went dance at the dance floor.
after so many of drinking, felt kinda err blur, but still conscious.
dance dance dance~~
saw this chick not bad but don't know ciaoz where after that.
dance till 3am.
feeling so not enough.
we just dance like about half and hour?
not syok enough wei. some more not much hot chicks.
sighness.

oh ya, after dumdum ciaoz.
we actually went to mamak yum cha a while only go back and dance.
no wonder so lil time.
took only few pictures.
i can't drive after that so have to ask boon hui to drive.
scare police wei.
went to apartment and stay, boon hui and wei yin staying there too.
we play ps2 then about 5am, went to eat at mamak.
some sort of breakfast u see. haha
then went home ps again and sleep at 7am.
that boon hui never sleep at all. i salute him man.

went to pyramid for that stupid air ticket again.
then eat at kim gary.
drop wei yin and boon hui home.
ciaoz home and online.
then went to take a nap.
i was kinda happy yesterday, maybe because i saw dumdum.
i was expecting to bump into "k" and "y" at maison but well never did.

have to wake up early tomorrow.
going Pavilion for movie, wanna watch Hitman.
then at night, going Skybar again.
is Kath's birthday so is alright.

going Malacca next week.
with family.
just for a day.
hopefully my penang trip will be successful.
can't wait to go for a trip with my crazy friends.

word of the day = enjoy.

alright that's all for today.
ciaoz people.

Jay @ relaxing

Rush.

Wooo~~
i am rushing out now.
but i am still longing to write a post. XD
i have decided to go club.

going skybar first then only head to club.
i not sure which club, waiting for dumdum to decide.
is been so long since i club.
so excited now.
=.=

alright i am late already.
wei yin sure will be waiting now.
so ciaoz.
update more tomorrow.
oh yea, one more thing.
batu, if u r reading this, i will msg u ok.
so don't come talk to me on msn.
i won't be here.

Jay@ exciting.

Trust.

Tank - Heartbreaker

Babygirl, tell me how again i'm supposed to trust you now
After everything you admitted to me
And I'm sitting here tryna find a way to forget somehow
Cuz I'm feeling like you cut me too deep
Girl I blame myself cuz I told you ; lay it on the line
Never thought that you would lay it that way
Never thought you had so much to say
Never thought that I'd see the day
Where we almost cross te line between love and hate

Are you sure you told me everything (everything now)
Even though it hurts (I'm missing it)
I'm tryna take it like a man, and halfway understand
Being hurt wasn't part of the plan

[Chorus:]
It was a heartbreaker
Hearin' things I didn't wanna hear from her
Now I'm thinking 'bout the things I did for her
Glad I never ever had no kids with her, this heartbreaker
Cuz I damn near swallowed my tongue (when she said it to me)
My heart started pounding like a drum (when she said it to me)
Thought the truth was something I could take
But it wasn't supposed to feel like a heartbreak

Now the fact of the matter is, I thought that I'd be cool
(After everything you admitted to me)
It's takin' everything of me, not to put my hands on you

Cuz I'm feelin' like you cut me too deep
Girl I blame myself cuz I told you 2 lay it on the line
Never thought that you would lay it that way
Never thought you had so much to say
Never thought that I'd see the day
When we'd almost cross the line betweeen love and hate

Are you sure you told me everything (don't need no surprises)
Even though it hurts, I'm missing it (I'm hurtin', I'm tryna hide it)
I'm tryna take it like a man, and halfway understand
Being hurt wasn't part of the plan

[Chorus]

I've had my share of broken hearts, but girl you took it too far
Cuz What you did to me was so unpredictable
Yeah you told me, but I wish i didn't know

Now Why you wanna go and break me down (down, way down)
It's like I'm lost, never to be found
And it aint like I'm six feet under ground (ground)
You didn't have to tell me cuz
I damn near swallowed my tongue (when she said it to me)
My heart started pounding like a drum (when she said it to me)
Thought the truth was something I could take
But it wasn't supposed to feel like a heartbreak

[Chorus]

Heartbreaker.

*fuck fuck fuck*
i have been so so piss and moody for today and also yesterday.
i really have no idea what happen.
i get more moody whenever after i talk to her.
sighness.
*what is wrong with me wei?*

depression again?
no pls.

i am already darn stress about the speeding ticket.
is just the first time man.
why is everyone keep questioning me about it??!!
just leave me alone ok!

*blardyshitmahaidarnlanfanwei*
*whycantpeoplejustleavemealonefuckoffok*

i did something very stupid today.
i went and dye my hair.
well i tot that it would be nice after seeing that box hair dye.
so i bought it, gasby hair dye classic mocha.
turn out.
the result of the dye.
is actually darn nice.
well that's what i think.
but i know the aunt sure gonna screw me like hell.
so i have no choice, go but the black dye.
to make it darker u see.
but turn out now, don't see much color.
i am so so so regret ar!!!!
i want that color back!!!
sighness~~

life sucks~~~

went to cut my hair yesterday.
still alright.
came home, the aunt some more said my hair so long, ask me go cut.
i was like zha dou.
didn't wanna tell her i actually cut already.

i bought something new.
finally get rid of my white.
now this is warm sliver.
so darn nice.

my pangkor trip.
when are they gonna confirm with me.
all this people is just, haiz.

can someone just tell me what the hell is wrong with me???
i wanna be happy u farker.
just don't come bother my life.
u sucks.

doing nothing tomorrow.
still thinking whether or not go for clubbing on thursday.
why am i still have to think?
i don't know.
i sucks.

word of the day = sucks.

Jay @ piss-ing

maturity.

tiring even though i slept for a while in the afternoon.
went to kepong for dinner just now, with the mum, the aunts and the sis.
had this yummy asam fish head.
i am going soon. to teman kath to have her dinner.
what a good friend u see.

didn't sleep much yesterday night.
i fell asleep at 11pm.
then awake at 2 something.
had a lil chat on the phone, wanna go back to sleep but couldn't.
then started to think a lot.
is not that i am being bother by stuff that's why i couldn't sleep.
is just that i just can't sleep.


remember me asking whether i should continue or just let go?
i guess i got the answer already.
i think god gave me the answer yesterday night.
not an obvious one but still i know it.
is the matters of whether me gonna do it or not.
is alright, still have time, just don't get upset about it.

guess what, she told me the truth FINALLY.
it bring no surprise to me either.
i already knew it, well maybe she thinks i am dumb.
when she told me, i wasn't feeling stone.
i felt NOTHING.
to my surprise, i wasn't having any feelings.
haha.
so what??
it means i don't love her that much anymore or i am just to numb to feel anything anymore?
well i am not sure about it.

this gave me an idea of who she really is.
i mean what kind of person she is.
only one word to describe it = disappointment

alright, talk about it.
i couldn't sleep so i started to think.

guess what come through my mind.

first, she.
then, "L".
then, "JE".
then, "K".
then, 'Y".

well, no idea why that "L" just filled up my mind so much.
i always don't wanna think about her.
when i think about her, she just coming back so quickly to my mind.
she is like my failure.
because i know i couldn't get her.
sighness.
i can't explain my feelings to her.

as for "JE".
a girl that i gave up.
the reason would be funny.
she is a nice girl but i am just not worthy for her.
i admit i am a jerk.
i give up on her because i couldn't stand the way she dress.
and she is chinese speaking, not so wealthy, not so smart.
get what kind of person i am now?
i always expect too much, too realistic and a jerk.
well, i always felt guilty when i think about her.

"K" and "Y".
unpredictable feelings i have for them.
i don't know whether i really like them or what.
but i know "K" is attached already.
still not so sure about them.
i haven't even try anything on them yet so just take it slow.

i get what kind of person i am now.
not a good guy of cause.
i am being too realistic man.

imagine one day i am darn poor.
i will cannot survive.
because i know i look down on those low standard people.
in my mind, i always think.
"I am rich, so what?"
" i am unlike those people, i come from private school. i mix with rich friends."
" all my friends use branded stuff."
"sorry man, i am different kind of people."
"he is not better than me cause i can give her everything she wants. i got the money."
"i am rich so i am better than him."

please tell me what kind of thinking i have man.
grr, this have to be change.
i can't go on like this man.
this is what they called "lan ci".
i admit i am.
sighness.

guess i really have to learn to be mature.
get over everything.
i would die without money.
i am independent enough.
alright stop here now.
got to go already.
ciaoz people.
will update more if i have something to say.

Jay @ thinking

Early.

1. To whom did you last give the
finger?
. err, haha.
some stupid driver.

2 . If you had 1000 dollars, what would
you buy?
. too many to list down.
but probably not enough to get the things i really want.

3. What was the last beverage you
spilled on yourself?
. err it should be water.

4. Are you different now than you were
6 months ago?
. definitely man.
so much different till i can't even recognize myself anymore.

5. Have you kissed someone of the
opposite sex in the last three days?
. last three days? umm let me think.
i think so.

6. What was the last photograph you
took?
. i think is my dog, sable.

7. Where were you last night around
9.30 p. m.?
. i was eating chicken at the dining hall.

8. What do you think of guys that wear
eyeliner?
. well for some guys is alright.
but not for those, err u know.

9. How many hours sleep did you get
last night?
. only 7 hours. =(

10. Who was the last person to whom you
spoke on the phone for over an hour?
. erm, that girl.

11. 50 Cent shows up at your door. What
do you do?
. i will bring him out to hang out with me.

12. How was the last egg you ate
prepared?
. sunny side up.

13. Where did you last wear sunglasses?
. yesterday when i was driving.

14 . Ever worn your underwear
backwards?
. haha.
nope, never try that before.

15. Who was the last person to smoke a
cigarette in your presence?
. urh should be Ashley i guess.

16. Does it bother you when people put
;; before every sentence and ;; after?
. no.
but i never come through someone like this before.

17 . What animal did you last pet or
hold?
. my baby sable.

18. What was the last law you broke?
. haha.
run through a red light.

19. What are you wearing?
. tee and shorts.

20. What did you think of your last
kiss?
. no comment.

21. What was the last newspaper you
read or skimmed?
. the star.

22. What was the last word(s) written
on your hand?
. no word.

23. What was the last hair product you
used?
. shampoo.

24. What was the last text message you
received?
. "wei...Monday got cut hair lo."

25. What was the last medication you
took?
. can't remember.
i think is the antibiotic.

26. Who was the last person to make you
really laugh?
. urm.
kath and zera i guess.

27. To what song did you last sing
along?
. i am not worthy by Jay Chou.

28. What was the last musical
instrument played in your presence?
. piano.

29. What was the last superstitious
thing you did?
. touching wood.
haha.

30. What's the last good book you read?
. Harry Potter and the deathly hallows.

my morning survey.
no idea why post it up here.
kinda have the mood to blog so might update more later.
gotta go breakfast now.
ciaoz.

Jay @ surveying

Tough.

is been a while since my last update.
i have been so lazy to update my blog since i started my holidays.
Sighness. =/
so what did i do on Wednesday?
erm i think i stay at home. omg, can't even remember man.
oh yea! i went to eat Bak Kut Teh with sw in the morning.
haha.
err then play football with my dog, pet brother and maid in the evening.
nothing much u see.

move on to Thursday. Which is yesterday.
i went out to watch movies with sw, sherene and my pet brother.
at midvalley, watched Beowulf.
a 3D graphic movie. was impressive by the graphic cause it look so real.
but kinda disappointed with the story and some tiny lil things.
walk around at garden before head home.
came home then play with my dog.
this time cooler. we play football at first then he bit the ball and spoil it.
so we have no choice to take the big ball. which is the normal football size.
took along the basketball too.
and i found out my dog do play basketball. lol
so end up playing basketball with my dog and the kid.

feeling so tired after that.
then i was kinda moody yesterday night.
u know about this something.
so i didn't on line after that and went to read my harry potter.
read till about 1 something then went to sleep.
can't figure out why am i so moody man.
is just a small thing and i am feeling so odd.
sighness.
i just wanna be happy during my holidays man.

this morning was awake by this stupid gardener which came at 9.30am. =.=
stupid 2 dogs bark then those stupid machine making noise.
i can't force myself to sleep anymore man.
so i got up and went online.
after that, the aunt said go Tesco to buy stuff.
we went to the curve there and ate sakae sushi.
it was alright and not that much expensive.
then head to tesco to get our stuff.
came home and i am here blogging now.

seldom update my blog during the afternoon.
kinda have the mood so just do it before tonight feeling lazy again.
oh yea, guess what.
England can't go to the Euro 2008 final man.
what a pity.
but they have been performing so bad lately.
nevermind, didn't expect much from them since i am targeting Brazil, Italy and Spain.
talk about spain, so many good players in there and also Fabregas.
Wuahahaha.

kinda feeling sleepy now. *yawn*
but also feel like playing games.
guess what, i finish my heroes already.
err i mean till episode 7 cause episode 8 haven't come out yet.
gosh is getting so so exciting now.
i can't wait to finish watching the whole season man.

was suppose to watch prison break yesterday.
only to found out that i never download the first episode yet. =/
so i can't start the other chapters yet.

i bought jay chou's new album already.
actually i got the songs already but well is a must for me to buy though.
some sort of collection u see.

gonna get love sick soon.
no idea why man.
i guess i have to really sit down and think about it one day.
yea think about whether i am liking them or i am just having fun.
and also whether i should just continue to love her or i should just let go.
also whether she really like me or she is just playing.
plus whether she really still love me or she is just bullshitting.
because~
because~
because~

I WANNA STOP BEING CONFUSED!!!
I WANNA STOP BEING EMO!!!
I WANNA STOP BEING STUPID!!!
I WANNA STOP WASTING TIME!!!
I WANNA STOP LETTING ALL THIS LOVE ISSUE TO DESTROY MY LIFE!!!

so u guys get me now??

suffering isn't it??

life is always hard.
that is no such thing as easy.
it wouldn't be called as life,
if things just go your way everytime.


last word for me = mature.

ciaoz people.

Jay @ realizing

Intention.

Woohhoooooo~~
i am done with it~~
yeah yeah~~~
*dance* *shake*
wuahahahaha~~
and i got 3 months holidays!!!
Weeeee~~~

ok take 1 month to lepak.
then 2 months to work.
fair enough??
that's the best plan ever, hopefully nothing stop it.
hmm let me think~
alright here the list of what i will do for my lepak-ing plan.

1. trip trip trip~~
if possible go as far as i could. i wanna relax man.
2. photography session~~
gonna show off my pro photography. heeheehee *evil laugh*
3. design~~
do something creative with my adobe illustrator.
4. shows~~
watch my heroes, prison break and so on.
5. Novels~~
gonna get more novels to read and start reading my harry potter.
6. doggy training~~
train my new dog to be smart and obedient.
7. sports~~
basketball, badminton and so on so on.
8. party~~
party like a rock star.
9. sleep~
sleep like a pig if i am lazy.
10. eat~~
find more nice food to eat.
11. movies~~
watch the latest and nice movies.
12. music~
download songs like crazy and dance to it.
go sing k.
13. tv~~
football, NBA, Mtv and so on so on.
14. hang out~~
just go lepak at those shopping complex.
15. yum cha~~
drink tea everywhere.
16. Games~~
Ps2 and computer games. wanna get addicted.
17. speed for more~~
racing with random people.
18. jungle trekking~~
explore the nature.
19. girl see-ing~~
check on hot chicks!!!
20. shopping~~
buy all i want!!!
21. window shopping~~
see all i want!!! but not buying it. *sob*
22. Fashion show~~
try out new styles.
23. find ways to be more cool~~
wanna be more handsome, change look.
24. facebook~~
continue to explore and add more application.
25. blogging~~
update my blog everyday.
26. film directing tryout~~
try to do some film directing.
27. flirt~~
to make me happy.
28. missing her her her~~
is my usual must do.
29. jump around~~
nothing better to do.
30. err err, stuck~~
i have no more idea so just err.

not bad wei. manage to list down 30 stuff here.
*sofuckingproudofitmandarnkaogdwei
well today paper was err no comment.
got one of this question screw up, argh~ dun wanna talk about it man.
half way through the paper, i was actually gave up dy.
sighness.
from what i think, i guess i will fail.
don't wanna think about it first since i am already on holidays.

i saw them today, would be my last time seeing them since starting holidays already.
yea the both look alike girl.
still find that "k" is more pretty.
hopefully will see them in err u know clubbing places.
saw her as well. duh~
she left early for the paper. *hmph*
didn't talk to her.
i think she is cold to death already. haha.
went home with a happy mood.
somehow feeling so tired man.

guess i am gonna head to bed now.
kinda tired already.
tomorrow have wake up early plus my house will be no water from 9am to 1pm.
need to be a driver tomorrow and see that 2 annoying kids.
*grrrr*
anyway that's all.
ciaoz people.

Jay @ relieve

Philosophy.

*blur*
i am going crazy already!!!
i have been doing my accounts for like 5 hours??
and now i am stuck with this question 5.
*wtfisthismandarnfuckinghardtodoweishitmahai.
i still haven't really look at the question 2 yet.
i blardy need 80 marks to pass wei.
how is that possible???
i am gonna make it!!!!!
yuhhhhhhhh!!!!
i will never never fail accounts in my life!!!!

didn't update my blog yesterday.
was darn fucking lazy plus revising my err damn accounting.
*mtfkifidunthenmachibaimanscrewlankaoit
pls pls let me pass. *guilty*
i don't care, i must fucking study hard, don't want to sleep tonight!
slap myself for being last minute *ouch~*

random pic.
my accounting revision work, my samsung mp3 is my saviour.

yea the mp3 actually keep me from those cracking fucking noise.
yuhhhh.
let me list it.
first, we got this 2 annoying kids that fucking naughty.
second, we got this fat nanny that keep shouting and scolding.
third, we got this crazy maid that always make noise.
fourth, we got this "big" baby that talks alotz and it so loud.
fifth, we got this fat and loud voice woman helping to shout at those kids.
sixth, we got this 2 dogs which bark for no reason.
seventh, we got this house which near to the err u know "places where those people which sakit gigi and shouting out loud with pain so that the whole area know about it."

well kinda pity me right??
lucky i burst my ears with my mp3.
if not i will be dead long ago.

like this fucking morning, those people are so darn noisy man.
i was so fuck up and woke up at 9am because i can't sleep anymore.
sighness.
yerrrrrr. i wanna give that kid one nice slap man.
*fuckingannoyingshitkidzhibaimahaitiuarghh.
feeling kinda tired now.
just now went to dinner at puchong there.
ate crabs, err it was alright.
darn sleepy but haven't finish revising yet.
i am still planning whether to sleep now and wake up at 5am or sleep at 5am and study now.
i guess i will sleep now cuz i really tired.

no time for so much of love thinking today.
was really concentrate on my accounting.
but still did facebook.
really longing for tomorrow night cuz i will be free man.
i can do whatever i want and watch my shows!
hooray!!
alright alright, come back jay.
still have to study tonight, think about this tomorrow k.
i guess that's all.
good luck to myself and those taking exam tomorrow.
god pls bless me. *praying*
ciaoz people.

Jay @ hoping

Paltry.

*grrrrr*
i have been listening to 我不配 this song. over and over again.
everytime listen sure darn emo.
this few days really darn emo man.
emo then think about her.
she just couldn't get off my mind for one day.
Sighness.
those memories just flow back into my mind.
everything we did, every moment we had, sad or happiness.
i really miss.
maybe jay chou's songs really make me darn emo.
but there's only one time which i never emo when i hear jay chou's songs.
that would be last year. cuz i was happily in love so.....
now is different.
Sighness.

when i am emo, i don't really feel like blogging at all.
btw this morning i went to play bball.
with sw and few friends.
ate McD breakfast, so happy.
went home around 1pm, so tired then just sleep.
then got up and facebook.
did another worksheet question too.
just pray i can pass my account. pls.
after that i am free man.
Yoooooo.

guess what.
i found my new love.
show u her pic.
gosh!she is just so pretty.
i am so so in love with her.
crazy about her already.

tomorrow have to wake up early.
gonna fetch the aunt to do something then gonna drop by the vet.
yea to pick snowie back and sable to check up.
so that's all.
wait till my holidays then will update more stuff.
ciaoz people.

Jay @ agonize

Hidden.

Just saw jay chou's mv.
i love this song and also the girl in the mv.
she is so adorable. *in love*
somehow no idea why, i sent the mv to her at friendster.
when i saw that mv, it reminds me of her telling me that she is suffering, saying that we can't do many things in the public.
Sighness.
this mv somehow so sad, it hurts.

never do much today.
i did study my management but it just doesn't go in my brain at all.
so at last, i just gave up.
concentrate on my accounting instead.
waiting for the time to pass faster.
i don't want feel tension of all this studies man.
just like living in fear everyday.

planning for a trip next month.
is a compulsory for me before my depression get worst.
i am gonna crazy watch shows after the finals.
and also crazy read novels, plus crazy play sports.
crazy doing designing, crazy doing photography, or even start crazy directing films.
wanna enjoy doing things that i love.
have to get off my stress.

i am missing her so much now.
maybe being emo make me miss her more.
recently have been thinking about those memories of me and her.
Sighness.
this is just not right.
alright i guess i wanna go facebook a while and continue my accounting.
gonna post the mv. so enjoy it.
ciaoz people.

Jay @ Reminisce

Memories.

my goodness.
there is this one can of coke actually burst and it inside my closet some more.
i have to clean it and take out all the boxes.
Sighness.
found something in one of the box.
i couldn't remember keeping them in the box at all.
guess what, the love shape paper that she wrote to me last time.
all the sweet words.
make me miss her more.
miss those memories i had with her.
how i wish i can turn back time and be at that time where we both are so in love with each other.
feeling so sad actually.
looking at each love shape, make me blardy emo.
*grrrrrrr*

guess i am not in the mood to continue anymore.
that's all for today.
ciaoz.

Jay @ heartbroken

Bizarre.

opps i almost forget to update my blog.
*guilty*
i was busy doing my accounting. err actually still doing it.
hopefully i can score well in it yoohh.
i can't even remember what to write man. i am so old now.
errrrrrrrr~
I am going crazy soon.

start off my day with waking up at 9.30am.
didn't wanna leave my bed so badly.
no choice but got up and get ready.
then went to fetch the mum to ampang.
after that went to eat "pan mee" at bukit bintang there. *yum yum*
went home about 1pm.
online for some time then head to bed!

*zZzzZzzzZzzzZ*
slept till 5 plus only woke up.
raining plus house no electric so just sleep.
fetch the aunt at 6 something.
got home, eat dinner and online again.
about 9 plus, send my sister back home.
then start facebook-ing and accounting till now.

*sob*
neck pain man.
don't know what happen to it.
Sighness.
i am so so indolent to start my management.
no choice have to start tomorrow.
wondering what time am i going to bed later.
slept so much this afternoon, guess i can't sleep early.

no fail that i still thinking about her, yea her, her.
confused of who right? me neither.
just added her best friend today. even sent them comment.
but kinda weird man.
well i just wanna be friend man.
let's pray hard for miracle. * dreaming*
did miss her.
been crazy facebook-ing with her.
yea human pet.
i own her and she owns me.
kinda funny that even i miss her, i didn't wanna call her nor msg her.
it would be good if i can call her, "my boo".

Arsenal won yesterday.
i knew it. they are the best.
i wanna get Fabregas jersey!
haha.
woo lakers vs spurs tomorrow.
what a tough one.
i am still waiting for my parker jersey man.
that mojo really slow.

blardy semangat now.
*jump jump*
a monkey will always be a monkey.
tomorrow must stay home. force force.
haha.
guess i gonna stop here now.
ciaoz people.

Jay @ yearning

Buoyant.

Hmm i just finish an accounting question, which is budgeting.
i just learn it today. lol
quite a good achievement, guess i am talented in accounting.
wuahaha. *evil smile*
i have to start my management soon.
it gonna be tough man. Sighness.

the paper today was alright.
i am able to finish it on time and did quite alright i guess.
but one thing, i wrote my unisa student id wrongly!
i actually wrote an id that doesn't related at all, cuz i saw some figure at the student card so i though it was the one.
omg, how can i forget about my unisa student id number.
pray that it doesn't matters much.

this paper actually make my ass so painful.
the time is so long and so boring to do things like this.
luckily i never fall asleep throughout the paper.
half way doing it, i actually day dreaming.
thinking about all the nonsense.
funny how it goes, i still able to concentrate.

i saw her today.
not the her i am saying, but the other her.
i mean ky.
she was at the front, i can only see her back.
her best friend and her are so look alike man.
i can't even differentiate both of them at first.
i was smiling while doing my paper.
i guess i am too happy to see her.
after the paper, she even take the same lift as me.
gosh i am feeling so shy. *blushing*
didn't even dare to look at her.

i saw her as well, when i first reach the hall.
she would be piss at me if she saw this post, cuz she will be wondering who the other her is.
haha. let's hope she don't see it.
funny faces she show me. just as cute as she always.
there are times which i can't concentrate during the paper, her bag was placed next to my table.
u know those familiar smell already killing me.
those smell that i usually love distract me so much. it makes me miss her smell.
i felt that i am kinda crazy while doing the paper.
i was like scolding myself from thinking and day dreaming, then feeling happy and smile.
acting like a nuts man.

i went to find sw after the paper.
i need her friend to teach me accounting.
spend there bout 3 hours plus to learn about budgeting and the question 5.
i am going crazy soon man but don't really find it hard.
there is no way i will fail my accounting. i never did in my life and i won't make it happen.
got home feeling so tired.
not usual with waking up early and sleeping early that's why.
facebook a while then went to sleep.
around 7pm, got up and had my dinner.
then watch tv for like an hour, bath and do accounts.
then now facebook-ing. stupid friendster having problem, can't send comment to people man.

have to head to bed early as well.
tomorrow have to go to ampang with my mum.
early in the morning at 10 something.
have to start on my management by tomorrow.
i am so worry already.
just found out that my next semester starts at next year 8 of March.
i will be having like a 3 months holidays wei.
maybe spend one month lepak-ing then 2 months to work.
a trip is a must man!!
hmm i guess that's all.
happy studying. =)
ciaoz people.

Jay @ hardworking

Crack-brained.

*yawn*
i am feeling so sleepy again.
have to sleep early too.
Sighness.
tomorrow is the Mcb paper.
i am feeling so so nervous.
I have no idea why man.
i guess because i didn't do much revision.

this morning woke up at 11 plus.
got up and went to msn people.
was asking jen and ann about the letter and resume.
then read a lil about the report and the letters.
after that eat lunch and kena attract by the tv show.
so watch the show for a while.
then is like 4pm already.
go back online, chat with dum dum.
continue to check out the letters and report.
Sighness.
then the aunt said wanna go one utama.
wanna have dinner there and get some stuff as well.
so alright went there about 6 something.
blardy line up to pay those stuff at jusco supermarket there.
so darn lot of people man.
after that, went to dinner then ciaoz home.

online and facebook-ing.
stupid kath keep buy my pet away.
Roar.
check out some football results too.
then now feeling darn sleepy already.
tomorrow have to wake up early to do some revision.
test at 9am man.
after test have to go find sw, have to learn some accounting.
gotta pray that i can do well for my test tomorrow.
i am so so worry man.
Sighness.

today my mind just filled up with letters and report.
didn't have much time to think about her man.
but i did miss her. =)
i guess i have to stop here.
gotta go sleep soon.
ciaoz people.
good luck for me.
also to all the people who are sitting for the finals.

Jay @ Anxious

Perplexity.

I am so so tired. feeling so restless.
this morning woke up at 9am.
yer stupid dental appointment so darn early.
really darn not enough sleep man.
got my teeth clean for like only 5 minutes.
the doctor said my teeth are clean and nice so only need to go for check up once a year.
Hooray~

got home about 12pm.
wanted to sleep so badly, but then...
the aunt said wanna take the dog to the vet.
the aunts doesn't like the name i gave the dog so they change his name to snowie.
sounds so gay. i mean like girl name.
Sighness.
is alright, i don't care.
Now snowie is at the vet there, have to stay for few days.
then i fetch the aunt to my mum's house about 3pm.
went home but i never sleep.
go online for a while then end up watching heroes episode 2.
then don't know what happened, i got up and clean my desk.
started to get my accounting notes and searching for the Mcb stuff.
finally a human after all. lol
yea i suddenly get crazy then wanna study.
then the fucking printer can't print the questions for my accounting.
i was really pissed. so i went for the Mcb first.

didn't know is already 6pm.
hurry went to get ready because already promise the mum and the aunt for dinner together.
then reach the mum's house, she said wanna go the garden for the Taiwanese food.
so alright went to the garden.
I was really shocked.
i really can't believe that mid valley got so lil people.
the car park were like so empty.
first time in my life, i actually use 1 minute to get a parking space at midvalley.

reason why is because there is sort of protesting happening in KL.
i guess people are afraid to go out so they just end up stay at home.
well is kinda scary and many of them fear that the history might repeat again.
that is why today the traffic was so bad at the kerinchi link there.
the polices were having road block.
end up making it so jam because we can only use one lane.
i was so darn pissed. it make me jam twice there.
Sighness.
i can't stand living here anymore man.
this country is just making me so sick.
well not to mention those people.

let's go back to the food.
the Taiwanese food was alright.
there is this chili which is so darn hot man. it burnt my lips.
after food, went to walk around.
saw Ashley at Robinson. she is working there.
had a lil chat with her then went to the supermarket.
before leaving, i had ice cream.
the italian ice cream, i can't err remember the name.
i had rum and raisin, it was yummy!

got home about 10 something.
took a shower and now here i am.
lucky i have nothing on for tomorrow.
guess i really have to stay home and do revision.
is a must already, if not i am really dead.
feeling so sleepy man. *yawn*
still wanna manage my human pet for a while.
yea facebook-ing is part of my life.

saw this 2 girls in the garden.
rich chicks. looks not bad.
i just love rich chicks.
this is me, i am realistic. haha
u have to look at the advantages man.
see u can save much more cash.
u don't need to pay so much for her, u don't need to get her expensive stuff because she already have it, u don't need to worry much about her spending, u don't need to pay those heavy phone bills and u can have many gifts form her.
Sighness.
i am a jerk right, but i won't use their money.
most important, rich chicks usually fashionable.
that is what i like.

hmm is already 11/11.
hoping for something nice to happen.
guess i am gonna be disappointed again.
is alright, this year is just a bad year for me. i understand.
don't wanna talk about her today.
think about her inside my heart is already good enough.
as long as i love her, nothing matters anymore.

annoying sable is here to kacau me again.
sighness.
i really don't know wth she wants man.
tired tired tired.
that's all for today.
ciaoz people.

Jay @ half asleep

Crestfallen.

Sighness.
Just got back from the tv room.
didn't even finish watching that movie.
was watching "meet joe black".
now only have the time to actually online.

this morning woke up at 11 am.
i was like "damn!!the movie is at 12pm!"
hurry head to get ready and left my house at 11.30am.
no idea why have to go times square instead of so many other places.
well because of nearer for sw so no choice.
i don't like times square man.
no offense but people there darn yer i really can't stand.
watched 30 days of night.
it was a cool movie. about zombies again.
"Roar, i smell your blood!!!"
haha, i like that wei.

then went to eat McD.
woo i drank coke. so darn satisfied.
after that walk all the way to sg wang.
today saw kinda lotz of pretty chicks.
surprise that those pretty chicks show up at places like that.
but there is this girl really darn pretty. lol
went home around 4 something.
then on my way home, something happened.

see i was driving at the back of this BMW.
well is a girl driving it. a hot chick ok.
so we were waiting at the traffic light.
err what is that call, the mirror above the driver seat where u can open it.
so she sort of open it then i saw at the mirror.
i was like " holy shit!" i actually can't take my eyes off it man. haha.
well u have to guess what i saw man. the mirror was showing her, errrr.....
i didn't wanna said it here what i saw but i admit i am a jerk okay.
then i keep follow at the back of her until we go separate way.
haha. i felt kinda err bad. but somehow enjoy it. such a jerk of me.

then reach home, i played with my dogs.
yea both of them.
Freas was really active and sable was like so noisy.
i name that dog, "freas".
after that, went to eat dinner with my aunt.
got home about 8pm.
went for a shower and did a bulletin at friendster.
then watch tv till just now.
Sighness.

tomorrow going for dental appointment.
at 10.30am some more.
just don't understand why my aunt have to make it so early.
well i can get back home and sleep after that.
i love today because i love the date.
9/11. but it gonna end soon.
was praying to have something nice to happen for me but end up don't have.
can't believe is already November.
hopefully i can make a trip on December. so who wanna join?

i didn't even start studying yet.
Sighness.
end of the world for me.
keep thinking and thinking don't know for what.
i am really tired of living like this.
I know i miss her but i just don't wanna admit.
i know i have to control myself.
i don't want to get myself in a shit condition again.

looking at the clock now.
is already 11.58pm.
still wishing for something good to happen before it end.
another 1 minute, guess i really don't have the chance.
first time in my life, i really feel like giving up.
is already 12am. i really have to look at yesterday as another day.
Sighness.
i just felt sad. i have no idea why.
Is alright, i will be fine.

really pissed at my computer.
fucking connection or don't know what problem with it.
so fucking slow plus it sucks.
well i guess i have to pray harder for err the next date which is 11/11.
this sunday. hopefully is a good day.
that's all for now.
ain't in the mood right now.
ciaoz people.

Jay @ inconsolable