Imprudent.

Bad headache just now.
Feeling better now, my throat still painful neither my ear.
Steal ice cream and eat just now. lol. I was really longing for it so badly.
Get to eat rice today and i ate 2 bowl of rice.
Gosh i am getting so skinny now. I really have no idea what happen.
everyone is saying that i am getting skinner and skinner, as if i am gonna die soon.
I am kinda worry about it. My aunt said gonna bring me for medical check-up.
Well we will see what is happening to me after the check up.

Went to movie this afternoon.
watch "brothers". A show with no ending. Sighness.
Wanting to watch 30 days of night. I guess gonna be after exam.
Oh yea my gila-ing cousin bought me Harry Potter.yea finally.
I guess i gonna put it aside first cuz finals coming.
I didn't even know what to study man.
Sighness. I am feeling so hopeless again.
Hopefully i don't repeat the whole semester again.

Suddenly miss the high school life so much.
all the fun and nonsense. I will never forget man.
Skipping class to play bball, skipping school for online game, sleeping and eating in the class, cheating during the exam.
This is what i called FUN.
Oh yea not to forget all the girls that i somehow related to.
wonderful memories in a stupid school. lol

I am getting emo again. yea Jay chou's songs.
Make me miss her. Sighness.
I shouldn't be doing this man.
I really can't find any reason to believe her.
even if is true, so what?
She is loving 2 people at the same time.
Then what did i get?
A good question that my friend came up to me,
she said "if she still loves u, then why she doesn't want to get back with u?"
It make sense. I really don't know man.
some friends said that she just wanna keep me by her side. U know i am those "too" good guy.
some people said she is using me. I never believe that.
Just wondering why is all my friend keep adding her up in facebook arh?

Telling her this problem is no use at all.
i don't know whether she don't understand or she is just running away.
all she would said is "haih...i don't know...haih...i sucks.."
Guess i really know her too well. That is why i don't really share my problem with her cuz i already know what her reaction gonna be.
well is better to let one people suffer then let 2 people suffer right?

I guess i am really a very good person.
people always bully me plus i always think for other people than myself.
If i got girlfriend even worst. All i think is for her only, never for myself anymore.
Is this an act of stupidity or being too good?
omfg pls don't tell me this is my personality man. if can't i change, how am i gonna be successful in the future?
I really have to hope that i went for check up, they said i have a tumor in my brain man.
yea i am running away.
as what grandma said, my dream comes true if i really die one day. lol

Sighness.
Gonna stay home tomorrow i guess. Yea study.
i hope i will.
hopefully nothing kacau me or get my attention away from my err books.
will update tomorrow, hopefully come up with something new cuz i think alot eveyday.
ciaoz people.

Jay @ confusing