Astounding.

Omfg. I didn't study today.
I knew it. I just knew it.
distraction from facebook, blog, hereos and prison break enough to kill me.
I just can't bring myself to face the damn books.
Sighness.
I guess tomorrow still be the same.
hopefully on wednesday, i can study. =/

Fucking facebook is cacat now. Maybe because of the my room application.
my fucking computer is so pissing me off now.
not only is darn slow, also suddenly jam. *%&$#@
fucking download the anti spy ware already still the same.
damn, i think i have to fucking restart the computer later.
oh no. i have to wait till all my dramas finish download first.

gosh heroes season 2 is out. I am downloading it now.
i am so longing to see it man.
not only that, prison break season 3 too.
heard from my cousin that the gossip girl is not bad too.
err maybe after finals will gila watch dramas. lol
lost won't be coming out till next year.
Sighness. I just love those shows man.

Out of the blue moon, i watch television just now.
was switching channel to channel.
well only the few, mtv, channel v and E!
the night programme are usually just boring.
saw Rihanna "unfaithful" mtv.
is a nice song but somehow i just don't like it. Cuz of the err lyrics and if u look at the mv then u will know.
i should dedicate this song to her last time. lol

Lying on the bed this afternoon.
thinking about the girls that i "can't get".
first was "E" then "L".
i never tell E as i like her for 6 months.
but now nothing matters anymore. She is out of my mind already.
for "L", is somehow different. i like her just for a while.
but she is the girl that i really want. seriously man.
well english educated, rich, smart, friendly, loyal, pretty, nice body shape, understanding and so loving.
my goodness, tell me where to find girls like this.
i know i can never get her. i just know it.
sometimes i really wish i am him. he is so lucky to be her boyfriend.
seeing them so sweet and loving, i can only back off.

girls that once my girlfriend, all of them never meet the standard of my dream girl.
not to say that they are bad but they are just not right.
sometimes i really wonder why am i expecting so high. or to say so picky.
i am still searching for the girl that loves me more than i love her.
but till now, i can't even find one.
It always the same, me loving her more.
Sighness.

Girls now are getting more and more horrible.
not saying about their looks but just their personality.
those money diggers and bitches are everywhere.
bad education system or bad parental teaching i guess.
or to say is those advance media and lifestyle.
Sighness.

never think about her today.
i see her online in the afternoon so i don't know. i just never think about her.
she has been study hard, unlike me.
she came up with some funny fill in the blank message yesterday.
make me think the hell out of me.
those question is not hard but challenging.
i was on the way to airport and having a headache so i can't think of much.

Jen was saying that my msn personal message is so emo.
i was telling her that i always emo.
"kismet.fondness.euphoria.temperament."
does this sounds emo to u?
Sighness.
i am forcing myself to stay at home to study.
but i can't study.
hopeless guy. should go bang my head on the wall.
now i know why i lose to that farker. because i don't study.
he got good grades but i don't have.
this is the reason why i can't get her back u see.

i am a bad guy.
i know some girls love bad guys.
come and have a sweet talk with me. hahahaha.
desperately wanting to have a girl.
is time to let go, jay.

that's all.
ciaoz.

Jay @ complaining