Pieces.

here it goes.

another day gone.

a tiring day today.

wanting to be so emo and such a hero that i went to sleep at 3am yesterday night.

haa~

so end up, i am the one that suffer.

well, i am used to it already.

this kind of lifestyle will only make me suffer more.

but what to do, hard to change.

so DSM tutorial was a disaster.

=.=

i don't know what on earth is he saying.

he is like talking to only a group.

regret never choose Ms Sheela class.

but damn, i have no choice now.

so DSM lecture after that.

actually it was kinda interesting but due to the sleepless night.

i felt asleep in the lecture.

after lecture, went piggy's home.

slept from 11.30am till 4.30pm.

darn obvious is like sleeping monster right?

for dinner, i went midvalley to meet up my friend.

gosh.

she said she is like seeing a ghost.

she said i became thinner and face so teruk (cannot see).

sigh~

perhaps one day i just gonna thin to death.

i am picking up the pieces of my broken heart.

thinking that whether life is meaningless.

but only to realize that i myself make my life meaningless.

well, i am kinda emo today.

but i handle it well.

at least i never cry today.

i am glad.

that i laugh today.

which is better than yesterday.

hopefully tomorrow is better than today.

thanks for the friends that being there for me.

and some even sick of bothering me.

haha~

i deserve it.

My cousins, my sister and me was having this conversation over the msn.

which is always crapping so much.

but i found something which my cousin said useful.

Jaime : "u never heard one chinese word said can pick up can let go meh?"

Miyuki : but i need time to let go, guys are all the same.

Mojo: U all don't be so childish la

             say to yourself "just fuck it"

Jaime: u guys are still young la.

               boys/girls will come when the time comes

               career is more important as it can control and own it

               now u all still young, just enjoy and play, no need to put "heart" one.

this is just a part of the conversation.

but still i found it true.

especially the career part.

when only i can have a mature thinking?

sigh~

why is this song here?

made me super emo wei.

i am listening "to make her love me by rascal flatts"

a song that i always listen when i had a crush on this last time.

that was a past.

now, i am slowly climbing up from this hole.

which is so deep and dark.

that i actually need someone to guide me through.

i am tired of hiding inside.

turning round and round, can't even find a way out.

i am trying my best.

trying my best to see the light above.

waiting to see the world outside which i ignored.

i am not gonna give up even if i fail again.

no matter what, i must get out.

damn, i feel like crying now.

but i control.

all this songs just killing me.

please, jay.

stop being no mood.

be happy.

smile =)

sigh~

is already 2am.

i wonder why is she not here yet.

 a girl that so funny talking to.

maybe she is not gonna online today?

don't know why she keep said that i am geng.

haha~

and oh yea.

she actually told me what kanasai means.

=D

alright.

guess that's all.

ciaoz.

i am glad that i am ending this post with a smiling face.

words of the day = picking up the pieces of my broken heart, wishing that someone could lend me a hand.

Jay @ control