Lost.

i am here again.

listen to so darn many emo songs.

gosh.

this is killing me.

i just don't have the mood.

i ain't doing anything at all.

sitting in front of my computer.

staring and thinking.

what the fuck is wrong with me?

even though her messages do make me laugh.

maybe because she reply so slow.

so i sort of bored with it.

but i am glad that the whole day, u did make me happy.

keep calling me "geng yau".

i don't know why.

=)

today class at 8am.

the BIS tutorial was killing me man.

he talks way too much.

which makes me wanna sleep badly.

what the hell is wrong with all this tutors wei?

then MKA.

it was alright.

went pavilion with piggy then.

ate japanese food, "kampachi".

up to standard, i mean my standard.

haha~

then walk around looking for stuff.

yes, i always shop for clothes.

someone is so jealous of me =p

is alright.

probably one day gonna go shop with u ok?

then fought with piggy. yes again.

i am so sick of it.

can we just don't fight for one day?

is it my problem that this happen?

sigh~

damn, it just can't go on like this.

i have to find a solution man.

damn, don't let me fall back to the beginning again.

i am just climb a lil now.

still got long way to go.

sigh~

i am dying to let go.

i am serious.

don't let me stay in this kind of life pls.

could someone just get me out of this?

just fuck it.

i am fed up with it already.

just stop doing that to me, catherine leow.

stop pretending that i still got a chance.

stop lying to me.

just pity me.

if u really don't need me, stop pulling back.

u got someone else.

then just go on with it.

i am really suffering by your uncertainty.

everytime when i wanna talk to u about this.

u avoided me.

how long u wanna hold on like this?

how long u wanna avoid?

how many guys u wanna keep?

u never make a decision in your life.

all you know is saying that your life sucks and mess up your life again and again.

not knowing that you are wrong but repeat the mistake again.

what u want me to do?

i tried to change u but u ain't changing.

scold u now but after a month, u are doing the same darn thing again.

are u not understand or what?

i bet u sure said that i don't understand your situation and all but how am i gonna know when u don't even wanna tell?

u said u had your decision.

i don't know how many times i heard this but still the same.

i hate it, your attitude especially.

i know everyone pamper u but pls, respect us ok.

i really don't know how to help u anymore.

again and again i have to scold u but u are the same.

sigh~

i am not saying anything anymore.

i am pissed.

so just let it be k.

whatever u wanna become.

i know i am not the guy u love so u probably won't care about what i said  here.

maybe i should ask your jo to talk to u about it.

damn, i am pissed.

can't fucking continue writing anymore.

that's all for now.

ciaoz.

words of the day = i wonder what kind of person are u.

Jay @ pissed