sorry

i was suppose to keep doing my assignment.

well, market research and financial management due tomorrow.

almost finishing the market research but kinda hopeless for financial management.

and again, i ended up here.

emo again.

i wasn't happy.

i mean since this morning, i just feel sad.

i am not happy at all.

about everything.

so now, chivas is accompanying me.

well, liquor has been my motivator since you left.

drinking liquor is sort of my hobby now.

i just feel better. i can't explain why.

okie.

just come to realize.

i just thrown 1500 bucks into the sea.

not because of defective goods.

but a defective person.

frankly speaking, you disappointed me so much.

i felt like i had made the best mistake in the world.

lol

i know you too well, seriously.

i just don't understand why you have to keep lying.

just because i am dumb?

or just because lying to me is your hobby.

you said you changed.

yea, you changed for him.

but not for me.

and i wanna clarify again, i don't like you at all.

please don't be perasan, i already have someone in my heart.

just that, i feel that you don't even know how to treat your best friend well.

i am seriously sick of your doing.

it turning me off.

well, i guess you don't need me now.

having someone that treated you so good huh.

haha.

still having your old saying huh.

i am seriously sick of it.

you don't deserve to be a friend to anybody at all.

so just stick with your guy forever okie.

it is true that "once a cheater, always a cheater".

not everyone can change huh.

alright fuck that off.

when i was driving home today.

with the emo songs on.

i know you are there.

you have been there since a year ago.

there in my heart.

i just realized i had made the biggest mistake.

i am sorry.

sorry to myself.

for not appreciating.

and going for an defective goods instead.

no one is gonna understand that feeling ever.

i regretted.

and is too late to apologize.

you changed me,

but you are already gone.

i am sorry.

*cinta dalam hatiku*