Decision

I was standing in front of the fridge just now.

choosing what i wanna drink.

then i think i got selective problem (maybe influenced by zoie)

choosing between coke and tiger.

hmm.

both are also bad for health.

well. since both are so bad, then at last i choose tiger over coke.

lol.

i am feeling tired now.

due to driving? or maybe restless night.

is not like i can't fall asleep, just that i sleep kinda late.

well, i miss my yi li and xiao li.

i was thinking that whether i will get the chance to see them again.

sigh.

this is life i guess.

this two fella would be the only thing that i can't let go of.

i am feeling kinda down.

the reason behind it will be no reason.

out of sudden, i am just feeling sad.

i miss my friends.

and i miss you of cuz.

one thing, i am glad that is not too late for me to wake up now.

if not i am not sure how many friends i gonna lose.

Take this chance here, i wanna apologize to most of my friends.

I am sorry. Sorry for everything.

and also thanks for supporting me here.

supporting me even i am having all this problem.

you guys are still here for me.

seriously, thank god for giving me so many good friends.

damn.

i can't bring myself to concentrate at the notes.

what is wrong with me?

where's those determination?

to prove that i can do better

and to prove that i can go on with my life.

most of all, to prove that i am not hopeless.

wake up!

i seriously need some motivation.

argh!

corrupted piece of shit.

i get really sensitive towards the word "dirty".

well, there is a meaning behind this word.

lol.

i gave my heart and turn my back against the world.

though you were my close friend.

but you leave me no option.

i am ready to walk out from this mess.

i had enough.

enough of hiding in your shadow.

when you don't appreciate at all.

don't even want to change.

you are hopeless.

seriously, no offense.

bear in mind, what comes around goes around.

i don't mind you make the whole world against me.

saying bad things about me or what so ever.

go ahead, i don't fucking care.

won't wanna waste my time on a young minded fella.

guys, sex and branded.

well, no offense.

because i want you to hate me.

hate me as much as i hate you now.

looks like someone gonna get pissed reading this.

sometimes i do wonder why there is such person in this world.

i mean.

there is no words to describe them.

okie whatever.

tired of those girls nowadays.

*shake head*

I went to watch "Jennifer's body" today.

Megan Fox is a bomb man.

she is so darn hot.

but the show is just an average rating type.

a great day.

get to hang out with them.

and had fun thou.

at least something different okie.

tomorrow will be the last day of October.

can't wait for November.

bad luck go away.

or else i seriously need to go temple already.

2nd November, reminds me of you.

sigh.

looks like i got so many decisions to make.

hmm.

perhaps i should go to confession?

and counseling?

i need to get to study already.

MUST!

Looks like someone is falling in love.

please tell me it is not true.

okie.

that's all.

ciaoz.

*Pursuit of happiness*