Irresponsible.

sigh~
been having such busy weeks.

last week, move house.
assignment due.
all this things already fill up my whole week.
didn't even go out.
miss watching movie especially, well for some reason.

only to teman my gila-ing cousin.
aiks.
go shop with her, that's kills me lotz.

this week, start with bad stuff happening.
sigh~
never expect it to end so early actually.
probably the worst case in my life.

should be sad or be happy about it?
i got no feelings anymore.
i just lost a backup.
fuck man.

a new month.
living my life without her.
haha.
is better that she hates me.
or else i feel really bad.
so guilty that i feel so emo everyday.

stress~
i am all to blame.
now the boat tenggelam already.
my friends sure gonna laugh at me.
cause they already warn me.

why?
that piggy is just unpredictable.
so fucking daring.

i hurt her too much larh.
those uncountable lies.
sigh~
i felt so not human after all.
didn't even explain to her, just runaway like that.
so irresponsible.
yea man, that's the word.
useless is what i am.

i seriously don't know how to face her if i bump into her on the street.
what the fuck is wrong with me?
i can't do anything.
i can't save it anymore.

well, is this gonna be the end of my suffering?
or just the beginning of it?
although is not love but still takes time to forget.
plus i just ditch her like this.
gotta be hard to forget.

i seriously feel so bad.
sigh~
and i really don't know what that piggy wants.
just complicated.

i hate myself.
a no balls guy.
fucking timid and useless.
how am i gonna success?

haiz~
i am so lost.
is this a punishment for being greedy?
or being playboy?

well, i think i gotta act like one.
so that i won't feel bad.
and i won't feel regret.

i am gonna retire from love.
take a rest.
is okie.
there are more to come.
lost one, come 10.

this year very good in love luck.
is alright.
tak kan piggy gonna halau all the girls away right.
well, just wait and see.

btw, huanrock where the hell are u?
like disappear already.
must come talk to me more.
nowadays emo larh.
share share problem wad.
haha~

and zera, hope to heard from u soon.

that's all for now.
ciaoz.

word of the day = irresponsible

I will feel better if you hates me, i am sorry.

Jay @ emo-ing