Exhausted.

sighness.
i am suppose to be happy with my new computer now.
but looks like is the other way round.

i am glad to be back online and updating my blog.
but sometimes things just don't go the way i want to.
like things i saw, things i did.
how i feel and all sort of shit.
definitely it will affect my day.

i wish i am in a club now, well again.
u know, i just miss clubbing so much.
but maybe this month is not the right time i guess.

i am so lazy to actually update you about what happen last few days.
well, maybe i can't even remember them.
just as usual, went to class and all.
having a bad week as i said before.
nothing much interesting.

last 2 days was really tiring.
drove too much i guess, well even today too.
tired physically and also mentally.

i really trying to be positive in everything.
but sometimes is hard man.
even try control stuff i am not suppose be doing.
is hard man.
maybe that's the reason i felt tired.

i do feel that i am so sick with everything.
sick with life and love especially.
i seriously don't wanna go into the love topic again.
it always make my life complicated.

well, maybe i should just find a third one.
am i right, my friends?
make sure is a perfect one.

trying not to be emo.
but u always make me to.
maybe i should just learn to appreciate what i have now,
instead of waiting hopelessly about something i can't have it.

but.....
i can't even have an idea about what i want.
i think i am the one that hopeless.

people said they understand me.
i wonder, are you sure?
i don't even understand myself sometimes.

i should just look at the future.
relax and not think so much about love.
it always kills me.

i should not let myself know who i love nor who i like.
haha.
sounds stupid right?
is a way to forget perhaps?

yea, still the same thing.
i should just find another one instead.
this 2 are up to no good.

i, myself comes first.
not any of you.
u get me?
so stop bully me and treat me like a fool?
just fuck off ok.

well, i am pissed actually.
a lil emo too.
cuz i sense something, u know some bad stuff.
didn't wanna mention here.
is better to keep it to myself.

i don't want another march 10 to happen again.
sighness.
that was just another nightmare.

i have sin too much.
must go for confession already.
maybe god didn't even wanna help me neither.
i am just hopeless.

maybe i am just not important to u anymore.
i am being dumb again.
why is always you that make me fall?
i must really wake up and see the real you.

that's all i wanna talk about today i guess.
kinda emo now =(
u know, haiz.
ciaoz.

word of the day = emo

Why don't just appreciate what you have now than wishing for something that you can't have it?

Jay @ sigh-ing