Unfair.

hey there.
i have been really busy recently.
even fucking stress.

sighness.
this is just not the way to live.
i hate this.

btw, zera is back in mal now.
hang out with her yesterday, even make her angry.
sorry k.
i guess i wont be seeing u anymore.
when i am back from japan, u are already gone.
sob~
only can meet u for one time.

i am so tired with life.

she hurts me the second times yesterday.
i really don't understand why.
this is just so unfair.
what's so good about him huh?
why is the good one have to sacrifice always?
why i have to suffer everytime?
is it because i am too dumb?
i really have no idea.

yesterday i only realize that i always think for other people than for myself.
do i consider myself good or dumb?
that's why i never happy in my life.
i never think for myself, all i care is other people.
fuck it man.

dammit!!!
i am like one crazy people.
this morning woke up, i am like one ass man.
don't know wtf is wrong with me also.
i am like blur and so moody.
like the fucking whole world is dead.
i don't feel like talking to anyone.
i think i better go die.

i think i sleep till die la.
this world is so unfair.
so UNFAIR.

i am mad.
fucking mad.
i don't want anything, just let me leave this world ok?

i don't want anyone ok.
i stay single ok.
or be a gay ok.

girls are complicated.
love is hurt.
i don't want to take it seriously anymore.
be liar and playboy ok.
i think i should do that.

if i still crazy like that, i think i should visit the mental hospital.
tanjung rambutan better.
far from here wad.
everyday just laugh for no reason.
act like a fool, i guess i will be more happy.

i am so so so so so so fucking stress.
fucking headache now.
fucking moody.
fuck larh.
fuck only larh.
simply fuck ok.

i cannot take it anymore.
i need to go bar or club already.
i wanna get drunk.
so that i will be happy.
okie.
that's all.

oh yea.
thanks for the care u guys give me.
i know u guys are a bunch of good friends.
sorry for not appreciate, and not listening those advices u guys gave.
but don't worry ok.
i will handle it myself.
i am glad of having u people.

ciaoz.

word of the day = fuck.

Jay @ stress to the max