Fooling.

hey!
i am back.
it has been really fast man.
just a blink of eyes, i am already back from Japan.

Well, i do enjoy myself so much in Japan.
free from those stress is my main point.
just miss those snow.
i love snow man.

with a gang of crazy people in my tour.
so much happiness.
especially meeting someone special like her.
i wonder when can i see her again.

See, i am still the Jay Kok right?
still flirting all around and acting like a playboy.

frankly speaking, i admit i am one.
i don't mind having many girls.
well, of course, it have to be hot chicks.

i realize i have done many sins.

start from this year, i am really a trash.
i am a liar, cheater, an asshole.

what's makes me like this?

myself.
i can only blame myself for being selfish and stubborn.

i do felt guilty sometimes.
but i have no choice.
sighness.

if i can have her, i would give up every other girls i have now.
life is always unfair.

i feel that everything is unfair to me.
i am just too dumb.
i sacrifice myself too much for others.
they don't even appreciate.
they don't even respect me.

what am i to u huh?
i guess being rich is just not good.

Jay Kok, u farker.
can u stop being so soft hearted.
can u fucking wake up and realize wtf u are doing.
can u do yourself a favor to stop being such stressful everyday?

Wtf is wrong with u?
i am so disappointed in u.
in myself.

sighness.
Lies.
i hate lies.
but i lie.

doesn't make any different right.

i wonder when can she stop hurting me?
because i farking love her, that's why it always hurts me.
sighness.
give up on me then.
go on and love him as u found something good about him.
i am not worth.
i guess i am just not good enough.

guess i gonna have to do something about it.
i am sick of hearing things that i don't wanna hear.

Life sucks ever since love comes in.
just let me be what i wanna be.
throw away those love, and be evil.
play with them like a toy.
being good will only hurt myself.
sorry man, i don't want to suffer anymore.

sooner or later.
i will hate love.

i am not understanding anymore.
being understanding will only become a victim.

i hate myself.
i really do.

if people who always wanna die, they are just not brave enough.
stop avoiding it ok.

alright, stop being emo.
u sucks ok.

talk about something nice, will u?

ok, guess what?
i didn't buy much in Japan.
i bought a snoopy soft toy and a snoopy towel.
haha.
few key chains and a memory card.

those branded there are not worthy to buy.
eat a lot as i know.
non stop eating from morning till night.

had my first experience as i ski.
cold weather makes me happy.
especially those snow.

happy to see her everyday.
happy to wear many layers of clothes. lol
happy taking pictures.

alright, let me clarify first.
i don't like her ok.
i am just kinda interested in her.
plus she got bf already.
sighness.

wanna look at those pictures then check out my facebook ok.

oh yea.
not to forget.
valentine's day.

this valentine's, i am fucking broke.
those presents are already killing my wallet and me.

i don't even know whether is it worthy or not.
sighness.
it was a good one though.
2 presents, first time in my life.
i was expecting 3 actually. haha.

i meet huanrock yesterday.
to my surprise, he is not that tall.
haha.

suppose to be working today, but couldn't get my ass off.
so i ffk the metro job.
working for jusco one tomorrow.

and i am going for Jay Chou's concert.
on the 23th.
can't wait man.

that's all for today.
ciaoz.

word of the day = playboy jay

Jay @ evil