Moving mountains

It's like whatever I do
Ooh
Ooh, ooh, ooh, ooh, oh

Now, now she loved me, shawty I loved her.
Used to jump up in the Maybach and roll out.
Used to care, she used to share...
The love that she used to give me can't be found.
I lost my way, she said she'd stay.
And lately I've been sleeping with a ghost!
My stock is down and out, I used to be worth my weight in gold.
That was before the great depression kicked in and rocked us.
And that was before the hurricane, came in and stopped us.
I told you to leave, but you lied to me...
When you said that, baby no worries I promise to get us back.

[Chorus:]
I know sorries, just wouldn't do it.
Her heart is obliterated, I'm tryna' travel through,
But it's like moving mountains...
It's like moving mountains... hey.
But I keep climbing and hoping things would change...
And the sky turns grey, and the water from the rain washes progress away.
It's like moving mountains...
It's like moving mountains...

Why you just leave me?
Just leave me be...
Just leave me, just leave me be...
Why you just leave me?
Just leave me be...
Why you just leave me?
Just leave me be... oh!

She, she don't touch me, I don't touch her.
We ain't really never say a word.
I really want to give her everything she deserves.
But the bad take away the good...
She thinks that I'm full of it... arguments, always pissed, man I'm tired...
Every kiss, that I missed, girl you know I'm trying!
You never believe when I say, and I never believe it when you say...
I love you, and I shouldn't complain about it,
I should take it like a man and walk up out it.
Cause we will never be the same ey oh!
I've been standing in gas, and you have been the flames

[Chorus:]
I know sorries, just wouldn't do it!
Her heart is obliterated, I'm trying to get through...
Got to move this mountain... yeah.
It's like moving mountains... hey.
But I keep climbing and hoping things would change...
And the sky turns grey, and the water from the rain washes progress away.
It's like moving mountains...
It's like moving mountains...

Well baby why you just leave me?
Just leave me be, just leave me...
Just leave me be...
Why you just leave me?
Just leave me be...
Why you just leave me?
Just leave me be... oh!

[Chorus:]
I know sorries, just wouldn't do it
Her heart is obliterated, I'm tryna' travel through,
But it's like moving mountains...
It's like moving mountains... hey.
But I keep climbing and hoping things would change...
And the sky turns grey, and the water from the rain washes progress away.
It's like moving mountains...
It's like moving mountains...

Well baby why you just leave me?
Just leave me be, just leave me, just leave me be...
Why you just leave me? Just leave me be...
Why you just leave me? Just leave me be...

Aftermath.

the aftermath.

the feeling of losing.

yet the feeling of sadness.

so do i.

with the feeling of anger.

with no reason.

foreseen what gonna happen.

but never bother changing.

is this a courage?

or love?

love is blind.

the person in front of you will be the perfect one when love exist.

but the truth is......

there is nothing we can do about it.

how do u change someone?

do u really thinks that if that person really love you, they will change for u?

or the other way, u can change them?

we made mistakes.

everyone did.

no one is perfect.

we forgo our past.

cherish what we have now.

but why do people feel regret?

is there a need for us to feel regret?

we feel sad when we failed our test.

we feel sad when we lost someone.

we feel sad when we can't get what we want.

but should we feel sad about it?

is this consider regret?

alright.

enough with the regret.

sigh~

people say that sometime we should just let go.

or we should just live our life happily.

but do u think is easy to do so?

people with no confidence will think that it is so hard.

but is not like that.

we are not born to suffer.

we are the one that bring out the pain to ourselves.

why?

not because we are dumb.

sometimes is really hard to control.

talking about control.

i really no idea how the hell i am gonna control my temper.

people get angry, is a natural thing.

but how do we control them?

why is there people with so much patience?

and why so are just so bad temper?

we can't really explain them didn't we?

sigh~

one thing that i always say to myself is that i should be think positively.

as in, why so suffer? to get angry or get sad about what had happen?

what can't just take it easy?

and forgo it.

i know one thing bad about me is i keep stuff in my heart.

i don't know why.

as in, i always wanna revenge.

that is not good.

whether that u are Muslim, Buddha, catholic.

they tend to ask u to forgive people.

don't ever hate someone.

i can't u know.

to actually forget what had happened.

i always think back what had happened and i tend to get angry about it.

sometimes i felt so stupid about it.

and thinking that why can't i just take it easy.

forget it and move one with life.

just treat it as a mistake.

but at least u learn from the mistakes.

which is somehow a good thing right?

but why?

i can't do that.

is my weakness.

i tried.

and i felt happy with my life.

but i am back to normal now.

sigh~

what am i suppose to do?

i feel the hate in me.

but think about it, why do i need to hate someone.

gosh.

learn to forgive then u will feel more happy.

damn.

i just feel so down today.

already try to be happy.

but still failed to do so.

i wanna change.

i don't want to be like this anymore.

shit do happens.

well,life is like that.

take it or leave it right.

oh yea.

catherine leow, please change your attitude.

i am actually sick of it.

i don't know who are u already.

u make me feel so........

i just don't know how to say it.

please change yourself before advising people what to do.

i am actually sick of scolding u.

please behave.

one day i will runaway from u i promise.

i mean if u are still like this.

that's all.

ciaoz.

please do leave comment.

Jay @ down

dumb.

would  be surprise that i actually update my blog at such time.

well, things just happened.

sigh~

i wonder how long i have neglect my blog.

i lost on count man.

about 2 weeks i guess.

well, that is not important after all.

is 5.40am.

yet i am awake.

actually i just came back from clubbing.

yea poppy.

this is the whole darn time that i actually feel sucks going club.

not only because of the crowds.

but also shit do happen.

i hate to say it.

but it just happen.

alright.

came home end up emo.

how the hell this happen man.

i tot i changed.

well, i tot she changed too.

gosh.

how many i should waste my tears for someone like this.

saying that people are dumb doing this.

but i am also one of them.

i tot i let go a lot.

but i was wrong.

over estimated i guess.

sigh~

no one to blame but myself.

not her fault.

just me.

cuz i am still that dumb.

i guess i should cry because i am dumb.

not because of her.

i can't believe i am typing this actually.

because i am dumb.

and yet again i am typing this.

i tot life like this was a past.

but is still farking here.

is fucking still here.

it doesn't go away.

argh.

i felt angry for myself.

i should have throw temper toward anyone but i never did.

is this what i change instead?

i should felt shame for being a failure again.

now only i realize that i am still the same.

change what?

nothing.

fuck it ok.

just fuck it.

life sucks.

when am i gonna truly wake up?

when?

not enough keh?

for losing a girl already.

what do i want?

what?

liking a girl that doesn't appreciate again?

damn.

this is no me.

no longer  me ok.

well, after all.

i am just ter-perasan.

haha~

i should laugh at myself.

for what?

for being a lame ass.

so lame.

fuck u.

control what?

fuck.

i did control my fucking tears.

but it still flow.

what am i suppose to do?

make my eyes blind?

ok fuck it.

i should be peace of mind.

stay calm.

what am i thinking?

please remind yourself that,

You are still that dumb!

farker!

use brain.

ciaoz.

Consequences

Well i know is late now.

i should be a pig already but i just can't sleep yet.

have to wake up early tomorrow.

what to do, i am a night person.

sigh~

i guess i am emo again.

i am not surprise at all thou.

someone just keep bothering me.

starting classes this week.

i have no class on monday.

so going for lecture tomorrow.

gonna be in the same class with piggy.

hopefully is a good thing.

guess i am gonna be more responsible after all.

new semester, new mission please.

i don't wanna be like last time anymore.

perhaps i should be more strict to myself.

set rules, make plans and organize everything.

well, so i am gonna say that this week is the last time i being emo.

it means that when tutorial starts, i am not gonna be emo.

most important, no love problem to affect my studies anymore.

then, this week i probably gonna be emo.

cuz is the last time.

come to think of it, i am such a coward.

i always never dare to make the first move.

and regret after that.

sigh~

am i that useless?

Jay, just take it or leave it.

if u think that is not to late to get back what u lost, just do what you need to do.

if u think getting back won't do you good, just let it go.

it will only make u suffer.

use this week to think.

i know is hard.

well, nothing is not tough.

there must be a solution.

don't runaway from the problem, face it.

what you lose?

if u keep being like this, it will do you no good.

i know u will keep thinking and missing.

but think of the other way.

what if u get back, will it also affect your life?

think of the best one.

and again, there are many people in the world, why stick to one?

if god make it this way, maybe u will have a better one in the future right.

well, if god thinks that this is the one then u will get a solution.

the problem is only that, Jay is not daring.

one characteristic will the solution.

but the matter is whether you can overcome it or not.

see, one nature about human is we will only appreciate when we don't have it anymore.

funny isn't it?

i find it so true.

i have slowly learn to think like an adult.

sometimes i find huanrock's words kinda useful.

he really gave me an idea to be a better person.

gonna be 3am.

my mind is full of this someone.

i find it a joke.

that i actually care now.

that i actually feel sad about it.

i miss you.

i do hope that you will think about me still.

due date is this sunday.

3rd August.

i got another 6 days to think.

think of what to do.

this is a mission that must be complete.

and remind myself again.

this week is the last time i being emo.

guess i should head to bed now.

before i think too much and sleep darn late.

update when anything happen.

promise gonna update when due date arrive.

ciaoz.

"letting go is hard to do"

word of the day = coward

Jay @ stoned

Closer

Well, been 2 weeks huh.

i have no idea what have i been doing recently.

is just like so busy.

don't even have the time to actually do something.

so, work already gone a week.

then rest for like 2 or 3 days.

didn't even hang out actually.

damn, how sad is my life man.

then on friday, went yum cha with joe.

saturday pula busy at for nothing.

oh yea, watch tvb show.

sunday pula, went to genting.

with mum, aunt, MG and piggy.

kinda nice trip.

but bad thing do happen.

i dropped my wallet at the so called snow world.

dammit, obviously i am panic.

actually i am more worry about my prada wallet instead of the cash inside.

haha.

i found back my wallet but the cash gone.

i wonder who is the fucker man.

but lucky not much cash thou.

sigh~

it kinda spoiled my mood.

back on monday then.

tiring trip.

actually went a lil clubbing with piggy.

that place really sucks man.

haven't fully recharge yet man.

then today pula went watch movie with piggy, vfang, ben and jo.

watched "the dark knight".

i love this show.

well, Heath Ledger is really a good actor.

i was really impressed by the joker role.

he act it so real.

but too bad, so wasted he wasn't here anymore.

honestly, i love batman since i was small.

haha

what a joke right.

i think he is the coolest hero.

XD

and damn.

his car is so darn cool.

opps, not to forget.

i watched hellboy last week.

it was not bad too.

kinda funny thou.

argh, need more time to actually catch all those nice movies.

i just don't know why i am just so busy.

tired~

i feel so lonely.

haha.

i am thinking too much again.

trying to live my life without her.

is funny right?

didn't know she actually do affect my life.

guess i am really too soft-hearted.

fall in love easily perhaps.

but now, i am glad i handle it well.

trying not to be emo or moody.

trying to let go.

and single is good!

is good to keep myself busy thou.

so that i can think less.

=)

i am tired now.

need to service my car tomorrow.

so gotta ciaoz now.

"why so serious?"

word of the day = let go

Jay @ sleeping