Consequences

Well i know is late now.

i should be a pig already but i just can't sleep yet.

have to wake up early tomorrow.

what to do, i am a night person.

sigh~

i guess i am emo again.

i am not surprise at all thou.

someone just keep bothering me.

starting classes this week.

i have no class on monday.

so going for lecture tomorrow.

gonna be in the same class with piggy.

hopefully is a good thing.

guess i am gonna be more responsible after all.

new semester, new mission please.

i don't wanna be like last time anymore.

perhaps i should be more strict to myself.

set rules, make plans and organize everything.

well, so i am gonna say that this week is the last time i being emo.

it means that when tutorial starts, i am not gonna be emo.

most important, no love problem to affect my studies anymore.

then, this week i probably gonna be emo.

cuz is the last time.

come to think of it, i am such a coward.

i always never dare to make the first move.

and regret after that.

sigh~

am i that useless?

Jay, just take it or leave it.

if u think that is not to late to get back what u lost, just do what you need to do.

if u think getting back won't do you good, just let it go.

it will only make u suffer.

use this week to think.

i know is hard.

well, nothing is not tough.

there must be a solution.

don't runaway from the problem, face it.

what you lose?

if u keep being like this, it will do you no good.

i know u will keep thinking and missing.

but think of the other way.

what if u get back, will it also affect your life?

think of the best one.

and again, there are many people in the world, why stick to one?

if god make it this way, maybe u will have a better one in the future right.

well, if god thinks that this is the one then u will get a solution.

the problem is only that, Jay is not daring.

one characteristic will the solution.

but the matter is whether you can overcome it or not.

see, one nature about human is we will only appreciate when we don't have it anymore.

funny isn't it?

i find it so true.

i have slowly learn to think like an adult.

sometimes i find huanrock's words kinda useful.

he really gave me an idea to be a better person.

gonna be 3am.

my mind is full of this someone.

i find it a joke.

that i actually care now.

that i actually feel sad about it.

i miss you.

i do hope that you will think about me still.

due date is this sunday.

3rd August.

i got another 6 days to think.

think of what to do.

this is a mission that must be complete.

and remind myself again.

this week is the last time i being emo.

guess i should head to bed now.

before i think too much and sleep darn late.

update when anything happen.

promise gonna update when due date arrive.

ciaoz.

"letting go is hard to do"

word of the day = coward

Jay @ stoned