so here i am.
not so much in a good condition.
well, not hang over of cuz.
i am not that lousy. lol
just sort of mental influences.
haa~
sure would be getting what am i talking here right?
come on, life is just so unpredictable right.
the last time i update was on friday.
just 2 days from there, so many things changed.
look at how "miracle" life is.
sigh~
i am sort of depression.
yea again and yes again.
told u guys that i will be in a bad situation after june right.
well, it has to be true.
every year after june, life just getting sucks.
maybe this is what i am suppose to go through huh?
yesterday was a bad day.
things just happened.
not like i can handle them nicely.
so i guess i screw up.
i fought with piggy,
for some reasons.
i didn't blame her, i was the one that bought things up.
i don't know why.
seems like i purposely did it.
why?
cuz i knew what she did long ago.
but i didn't ask her till yesterday.
i wanna see how long she can keep lying to me.
i am not dumb pls.
u think i am dumb enough to believe her.
like what she said, i don't wanna quarrel.
i am not pissed bcuz she got a bf.
i am pissed that she lied to me.
every fucking time she said i don't wanna share anything with her, said we are so close and all.
alah, bullshit ok.
she is the one that never share.
what's the fucking point then?
i admit that there's one thing i never share with her.
but i am not like her.
from my point of view, i just feel that she lied to me way too much.
fine, fine.
i really don't wanna quarrel with her.
i just feel hurt some how.
i can't face that it was so malu to actually fought with her at poppy.
sigh~
well, i was stress.
so yesterday, i really no idea who am i already.
i was totally mad.
first time ever i dance like that.
i wanna let go, throw away all the fucking things that bother me.
i feel good that at least during that period, i was stress-free.
and another thing.
i got the feeling that she was at poppy too.
well, is true.
she was there, but we just don't have the faith to bump into each other.
sigh~
she is one of the reason i being stress too.
i couldn't believe it that she actually made an impact in my life.
thanks ar.
thanks for those girls that made me sad and pissed, also hurt me so much.
just fuck it ok.
fuck it away.
i don't wanna fucking bother.
FUCK IT alright.
starting to work tomorrow till 13th.
gonna be darn tiring.
hopefully gonna be a good week.
won't be here then.
anything find me at midvalley.
that's all for now.
kinda mental problem already.
" Is not easy to be a human."
Jay @ depression
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