Insomnia

*Just gonna stand there and watch me burn, well that's alright because i like the way it's hurts*

listening to this track over and over again.

"Love the way you lie" by Eminem Feat Rihanna.

It's somehow just attracts me, not knowing why.

A satisfaction album from Eminem this time. Great job.

Suppose to be asleep by now.

Not knowing what happen, i get her pissed off again.

Sigh.

I ain't no pissed here, just sad =(

It's feels like my hard works just get crashed.

A stab at my heart, it's painful.

Thinking positive right here now.

Praying to have a good week here.

I am tired of living in fear.

I should complete my task by this week.

I don't wanna get it undone till the last minute.

Every fucking day i am thinking about it. I feel so worry. I don't know how.

A big Sigh.

Bless me god. I just want a happy life that's all. Just give me a good year after all the disasters i had gone through for the past two years.

*I just want us to be happy always. Please don't doubt me anymore, you are always at my top priority. Love you lots baby ♥ *

Why.

I don't know why.

I don't know what.

I don't know how.

I don't know when.

I just don't get it at all.

Am i dumb or what?

Sigh.

I seriously can't stand the childishness of mine.

Spamming and talking craps?

perhaps it's just waste of a time.

I always tend to make silly mistakes when i am sad. or i am angry.

Maybe i should really continue to work on my temper.

It has been bad this few days.

It's making me crazy.

I hate it especially i had to throw my temper on the one i love.

I really didn't mean to. A big Sigh.

Since monday, bad things just keep going my way.

Until today itself, i am still being the unlucky one.

I don't know what is wrong.

I don't know why baby acting like this as well?

was it something i did that upset her? or we just so happen to pms together huh?

I don't get it. She was okie with me now and in second later she gets really pissed.

0.0

Maybe it's my fault. Sigh.

I am trying my very best here. Can you just give me a chance?

I am tired of all those tears that left on every corner of the earth.

I just don't know why i can't control myself each time i get emo.

I feel like slapping myself seriously.

I am so dead today.

My eyes can't open any bigger.

I had been headache for the whole day.

My leg feels numb.

I feel restless. Energy level equals to negative 0.

and i almost fall asleep while i am driving.

I can't concentrate on my exam questions and not manage to do it properly.

My mind is just surrounded by her.

I just sense that something bad could happen real soon.

maybe i think too much.

but, sometimes something is just unexpected right.

*if talking to me make you even more angry, i am sorry. Maybe my communication have some problem. Sometimes do speak up, i don't know what are you thinking. I admit i am dumb cause i really don't know what i did wrong. I apologize to you again. I hate all this, it's like the worst shit i am going through. I really don't want this to happen to us. I want us to be happy. Give me a chance to fix things up, let me know what's the problem. It won't do us any good if we keep hanging on like this. I still care about you lots okie. It's my bad to raise my voice on you, i am sorry. I really didn't mean to. No matter what happen to us, i still love you the way i do, not any lesser. I am sorry that i have to post this up here cause i know you don't feel like talking to me now. I respect you, and i should give you some time to chill.*

My body really wanting to sleep right now.

but my mind is not willing to do so.

Sigh.

Please give me a good start for the month of July.

I don't want to have sour face following me on the first day of July.

and it's my mum's birthday. I must not moody.

Thank god for giving me a month full of happiness but also some sorrows.

I am glad you are always there to hear my pray when i needed you.

Please bless me in the month of July. Take my pains away and fill my life with happiness.

I promise i will appreciate every single thing in my life. Amen.

May peace be with everyone of you =)

*There is no love without forgiveness, and there is no forgiveness without love. Quoted from Atisya 2010*

Ricordi

9/6/2010

Not the presentation i am talking here again.

another day with sweet and nice activities.

outing with my baby =)

as i promised, i gonna treat my baby to nice meals.

the reason, cause i wanna celebrate her birthday with just only her.

another reason, cause i wear till so nice la that day. Hahaha.

Had our lunchie at Porto Romano, Mont Kiara.

Great Environment and nice food.

The Pasta. Yum. Nice one.

My favorite dish =)

It tastes like in heaven. lol.

The red wine sauce is the bomb man.

Before heading to Pavilion.

A picture with the lil Babi =)

After our lunchie, decided to head to Pavilion for movie.

we watched "killer".

I wouldn't mind to go for a second time.

It's a really nice movie and it's funny!

Poor me. I had to look at those sales and attractive stuff but not buying them.

argh!

Walk around teman baby to shop for her heels.

but at the end, she didn't get any of them =.=

Oh yea, She got herself something from Forever 21.

Loving baby's shirt look =)

Headed to Kampachi for dinner then.

Feeling all tired with so much of walking.

Went home after dinner.

i couldn't walk any longer.

i have been up since 5am in the morning and i reached home at like 12am?

somehow, i don't feel tired at all.

well, maybe spending time with baby doesn't make me feel tired.

loving it.

we should really have more of this kinda outing again.

happy day =)

Lastly, My Favorite picture of the day xD

The babi gemuk and the lil babi.

Hahaha.

The both look alike.

*Happiness is when i am able to spend my day with you*

Awaited

Assignments are all done.

left one somehow, argh!

my fear!

The Imt Presentation!

lol.

However, this is also a long awaited day for me.

cause i can wear nice nice =)

Hahaha.

Okie. Some pictures again.

9/6/2010

Our Group, Team 3A.

The market leader in the industry xD

We might look hopeless but we are at the top yoo! lol

We didn't do very well in the presentation thou. sigh.

Don't care! Glad it's all over. So now left the finals. Argh!

Some random pics =)

With the Christines. lol

Last but not least, The CEO himself.

A cool looking bastard xD

sorry for the perasan-ness. lol.

*Working hard to achieve every goal of mine*

Special

Another month is here.

June~

What a really broke month for me.

but i guess it's all worth =)

okie, we should let the pictures do the talking.

5/6/2010

The Babi Gemuk's Birthday =)

Dinner, Korean restaurant at Hartamas.

What's the name of the restaurant again? I think it's called "Da Sa Kwan", if i am not mistaken. lol.

As usual, not all the Mohs attend the session. Somehow most of them able to make it.

Thanks the Mohs for making this happen =)

really appreciate for making my plan works. Specially thanks to Em and also Zoie Moh.

*Hope you like the pressie my dear. and don't keep complain to me okie. sigh. I hope i did gave you a nice and awesome birthday this year. much much loves =)*