Habit

I think i got the habit of eating supper.

but is the same thing for every night.

cheese with 2 piece of bread. even it doesn't satisfy my tummy much but i just like it.

lol

i did stuck at home today. went out for lunch with wei yin as she forced me to do so.

did some hopeless stuff with her. not to mention here.

watched one of the dvd. "the ugly truth".

it laugh the hell out of me. it freaking funny actually.

didn't really have the mood for a nap.

the weather today is seriously killing me. freaking hot wei.

i gonna freaking melt so soon. lol

pick my aunt from the airport. speed like hell.

tiring now.

can't wait for tomorrow man. well, even it is 7th.

a bad date to me always.

somehow i believe that spending the day with you would keep me away from those bad luck.

i make sure i gonna enjoy and be happy tomorrow.

opps. is already 12. so is today. lol.

nothing much. just to crap so shit as i am freaking bored.

*you make my day today. i miss you so much.*

Adore

I am a lil boring now.

soon i gonna die of boredom.

lol

i got a feeling.

i am feeling a lil hungry.

=.=

what am i made of man? i ate so much today. and i am feeling hungry now. wtf.

argh. i am so lazy to look for food.

Is only 11.30pm right now. I won't be sleeping early tonight. so i still need to look for food. lol.

okie okie.

what did i do today?

hopelessly went for lunch with COO and DJ @mv.

crap so much. stupid jokes.

i actually feel so hopeless. doing nothing for the whole day.

i wanna watch movie laaaaa. anyone free to layan me not?

i got sherlock holmes, avatar, The Imaginarium of Doctor Parnassus and surprisingly Muallaf in my list.

i don't think i have so much time to watch all of them. Dvd again. lol.

speaking about Dvd, if i am not mistaken, i still got some movies to catch up with.

Maybe i should watch them tomorrow since i got nothing on.

should be meeting jen, but i ffk her cuz is so darn early. lol.

need to go to the airport tomorrow. picking my aunt. speeding again. wohoo.

and prepare to die cuz i sure gonna kena from her. alamak.

Perhaps i gonna work next week. hopefully man.

if not i gonna stone at home and turn into stone one day. lol.

my intern plan just crashed. cuz i am just so hopeless.

time to work on my new year resolution please.

haha. enough of all the shit.

i should finish up my novel by this week. i don't want it to be an display item. lol.

okie. i got a feeling.

*I miss my dear sweetheart angel so much that i wish i can see her right now and tell her that i actually love her so much till i can't let go of her.*

Haha.

*Iloveyoumorethananythingelseintheworld*

True

*Ryan Cabrera - True*

I won't talk
I won't breathe
I won't move till you finally see
that you belong with me

you might think
I don't look
but deep inside in the corner of my mind
I'm attatched to you

I'm weak
it's true
cause I'm afraid to know the answer
do you want me too?
cause my heart keeps falling faster

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
i'ts time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true

you don't know
what you do
everytime you walk into the room
I'm afraid to move

I'm weak
it's true
I'm just scared to know the ending
do you see me too?
do you even know you met me!

[Chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
its time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true

I know when I go
I'll be on my way to you
the way that's true

[chorus]
I've waited all my life to cross this line
to the only thing thats true
so I will not hide
its time to try anything to be with you
all my life I've waited
this is true

*******************************************************************

Came across this song when i was driving home just now. forget to mention, i actually went library again. Lol.

three day in a row. great.

a song from my emo thumbdrive.

i always love this song.

and now, at this moment, i feel this is so my song, so what i think.

i am sad but i don't wanna be emo.

ciaoz.

Change.

Okie.

time for another post.

i was so freaking bored. what you expect right? is sunday. sunday is always gonna be a relaxing day.

i did mine. i woke up kinda late like 1pm. had my lunch and do nothing then.

finally i got my ass off and search for job.

thank god. i seriously have no idea wtf i gonna look for. just simply browsing through.

i got some suitable one. but i need to think about that first.

and now, i should be fixing my resume. but i am so lazy.

then, looking for article in "how to write a smart resume". that sounds lame. as if some of them already works.

however, i did get some points from there. Lol.

i was again, a lil emo.

i hate to say this but i can't help it.

i am so bored and tired with those emo post i had here. i bet most of my friends felt the same way too. Lol

i wonder how many times i told myself to stop writing emo post but it just won't happen.

it like endless. time to seriously think about this.

i am no longer that young anymore. sounds like an old man here. lol

i should think a lil about what is gonna happen even though we all gonna die in 2012.

Haha. nah, i was just kidding. don't take it seriously.

too much of movies i guess, it makes you go nuts.

I got some good advices today.

hello. is blardy 2010. is new year. wtf are you doing here?

stoning, getting drunk and emo-ing? go get a life please. Lol

i was just trying to wake myself up. sleeping too long and dream to much.

time for a change and time to try my fucking best.

instead of just talking talking and talking. and ended doing nothing at all.

this is not gonna be me anymore. time to move on and stop looking at the past.

2009 is a bad year, so what? Then make 2010 a better. why wanna mourning here?

we keep good and happy memories and throw those bad ones away. Why keep mentioning when is already a past?

Time to change. just like Obama's slogan, "Change, we can believe in".

Time for some new year resolution perhaps?

yea, i gonna have one long list about it. and Xem, i waiting to see yours. we can compare how hopeless is our contents gonna be.

I don't usually have this habit of having new year resolution.

maybe i am old now. Lol. and i got more mature.

okie. maybe this shit could just motivate me a lil bit.

Let's have a look at the list. Haha.

1. Study harder and stop being lazy. (I can't afford to be in another semester.)

2. be a positive thinker. (So that i can emo less.)

3. drink less and drunk less. (Time to be health conscious.)

4. set a goal in life. (then i could live my life with a direction.)

5. Try even if is impossible. (Nothing is impossible, am i right?)

6. More exercise and sports please. (I want to be fit. XD)

7. Save more spend less. (Less financial problem then.)

8. learn to love myself better and enjoy life. (more happiness i guess.)

9. better time management, procrastinate less. (no more doubting.)

10. control my temper. (this is a must.)

11. swear less? (Lol. i will try)

12. Be patient. (angry less.)

13. think less, worry less.

14. Take up challenges. (I love challenges.)

15. Stop hesitate, just do it. (what are you waiting for?)

16. Mo more last minute works. (I am tired it.)

17. A better lifestyle?

18. help those who are hopeless. Haha. (that's why i am the CEO of MOH.)

19. spend more time with my family. (Family is the gold.)

Lastly.

20. Make up my mind in everything and be sure about what i want in life. (good point, so that people won't always said that i don't even know what i want.)

Long enough? Haha.

Xem, we can exchange now. Lol.

i wonder can i actually make those changes above. hmm, let see then.

time for a different. A better Jay Kok.

Okie okie. i have been stuck in my room for like 4 hours already.

i need to get some fresh air.

who wanna play sport with me now? haha.

feeling a lil hungry pula =.=

stupid weather make me feel a lil headache.

hate it.

i think i gotta stop here.

i don't miss you today, i am just thinking about you. Lol.

okie. Happy new year peeps.

We believe in change =)

*one more thing. another new year resolution perhaps? You. I am gonna get you no matter how many obstacles i gonna go through. No matter what happen, i won't give up at all.*

Hope

Here it comes 2010.

what a relief.

goodbye 2009, my fucking sadness year.

second day of 2010.

so darn boring man.

i am in old town now. waiting for my doggie. with my aunties.

house connection sucks.

my new year eve was alright.

didn't went for countdown at those blardy crowded places.

instead, i had a so called house party with family and friends.

it was great. the bbq was cool. the food is so blardy black. lol

thanks to that kelvin.

ended up i didn't really eat anything. busy bbq-ing the food pula.

crazy aunties keep drinking, so do me.

i am not sure how many bottle of wine we took.

drink drank and drunk. i am always drunk.

the session ended at about 1 something.

i went to find wei yin after that. yum cha at mamak.

i was kinda sad. sad on the new year day. damn.

does it bring bad luck to my whole year?

but, i get to spend my new year with her. i didn't wanna let go of her.

hmm. is getting complicated. but i love her.

my new year day was alright.

woke up at 12 plus.

i couldn't get up at all. due to sleeping at 5am that night.

so ended up, i ffk my family for the lunch.

and rest a lil at home.

ashley called, ask to go library.

drink again. lol

so i went, and drink like shit.

we order like 10 pints. and free 10 pints.

Hoegarden. i just love it.

fuck, ended up fucking drunk.

and is only 7pm in the evening. lol

dinner with my family.

drive home with fucking drunkenness.

pick my family and eat with drunkenness.

lol.

i guess i gonna used to it already.

living with drunkenness.

sadness betul.

maybe gonna go library study again. lol

i am tired of being drunk.

aiks.

i really need to go to work already.

i am so fucking hopeless.

no mood at all.

shit. how can i be like that?

hmm. i miss you already.

will update more soon.

ciao.

*you worth more than anything in the world to me.*