sorry

i was suppose to keep doing my assignment.

well, market research and financial management due tomorrow.

almost finishing the market research but kinda hopeless for financial management.

and again, i ended up here.

emo again.

i wasn't happy.

i mean since this morning, i just feel sad.

i am not happy at all.

about everything.

so now, chivas is accompanying me.

well, liquor has been my motivator since you left.

drinking liquor is sort of my hobby now.

i just feel better. i can't explain why.

okie.

just come to realize.

i just thrown 1500 bucks into the sea.

not because of defective goods.

but a defective person.

frankly speaking, you disappointed me so much.

i felt like i had made the best mistake in the world.

lol

i know you too well, seriously.

i just don't understand why you have to keep lying.

just because i am dumb?

or just because lying to me is your hobby.

you said you changed.

yea, you changed for him.

but not for me.

and i wanna clarify again, i don't like you at all.

please don't be perasan, i already have someone in my heart.

just that, i feel that you don't even know how to treat your best friend well.

i am seriously sick of your doing.

it turning me off.

well, i guess you don't need me now.

having someone that treated you so good huh.

haha.

still having your old saying huh.

i am seriously sick of it.

you don't deserve to be a friend to anybody at all.

so just stick with your guy forever okie.

it is true that "once a cheater, always a cheater".

not everyone can change huh.

alright fuck that off.

when i was driving home today.

with the emo songs on.

i know you are there.

you have been there since a year ago.

there in my heart.

i just realized i had made the biggest mistake.

i am sorry.

sorry to myself.

for not appreciating.

and going for an defective goods instead.

no one is gonna understand that feeling ever.

i regretted.

and is too late to apologize.

you changed me,

but you are already gone.

i am sorry.

*cinta dalam hatiku*

Never.

hey there.

what a relief for now.

lol

is already 1.23am and i am still not heading to the bed yet.

and wtf, today is saturday and i am staying home.

looking at old pictures, recalling those memories.

omg, is so darn emo right.

someone please help me.

trying to do my FP presentation stuff.

but end up updating blog here.

i am feeling tired.

but just don't feel like sleeping yet.

wasn't on purpose to look at those old pics.

i ter-press the pictures folder and there it goes.

went in to one folder that i shouldn't.

that feeling is coming back, it killing me.

well, after so long, i guess you are not gone yet.

still wondering around huh.

okie. i really trying hard.

but sometimes something is just not easy to let go.

i pretend that i am okie, i pretend that i am moving on.

and yet ...............

i accept the fact that nothing's ever built to last.

sigh.

sem break for a week.

but so much i need to do.

assignments, presentation and also some entertainment before i go nerd.

october approaching real soon.

for me, i never like october.

first thing, i am sure i gonna be fucking broke.

second thing, i am sure i gonna be fucking busy.

third, it gonna be one hell of stress month.

argh.

this year worst.

thanks to that piggy 21st.

well, no offense.

i love november, for some reason.

lol

thank god.

my bed has finally arrive.

no more back pain.

and more good night sleep.

clubbing please.

i miss getting drunk.

actually i miss calling you when i am drunk.

haha.

move on man.

stop day dreaming okie kok.

well, i guess is time for me to have some sweet dreams.

and dream comes true please.

this prove that i am really into fantasy side huh.

hmm.

good night people.

and yea, congrats to the gunners.

ciaoz.

*It's hard to deal with all the pain of losing you everywhere i go*

fcuk.

you know what,

Fuck you adebayor.

you are just another brainless arrogant ass.

why not you go join a mafia gang instead?

you are not professional at all.

so don't play football.

fuck you.

and fuck man city.

fuck you.

*curse*............................

Wtf.

Wtf......

money can't buy victory okie.

so fuck off.

*pissed*

just being emo a lil.

recalled back one year ago.

wtf.

i hate going back to the past.

wtf.wtf.wtf.

a wtf day.

Yo.

Yo peeps, i am back. (finally)

was darn busy with my studies and life.

didn't get the chance to update my blog and stuff.

and now, i finally done upgrading it. *proud*

lol

just a short post here.

gotta head to bed already.

so much to do for tomorrow.

awww.

thinking about it.

just remember i am suppose to do my finance works.

tomorrow perhaps?

hopefully i won't stick to my comp and crazy planet-ing the whole day.

that game just got me kill man.

i am so addicted to it.

alright.

i gotta sleep now.

ciaoz.

*Happy birthday aunty Peggy =)