Do you?

Do You by Ne-Yo

Maybe this decision was a mistake.
You probably don't care what I have to say.
But it's been heavy on my mind for months now.
Guess I'm trying to clear some mental space.
I would love to talk to you in person.
But I understand why that can't be.
I'll leave you alone for good I promise.
If you answer this one question for me.

I just wonder,
Do you ever,
Think of me,
Anymore, do you?

First off let me say congratulations.
Heard that you just had a baby girl.
If she looks anything like her mother,
She's the prettiest thing in the world.
Swear that I'm not tryin' to start no trouble.
Tell your fiance he can relax.
I'll leave you alone for good I promise,
There's a question I just gotta ask.

I just wonder,
Do you ever,
Think of me,
Anymore, do you?

I know what we have is dead and gone.
[Do You lyrics on http://www.metrolyrics.com]

Too many times I made you cry.
And I don't mean to interrupt your life.
I just wonder do I ever cross your mind?

I just wonder,
Do you ever,
Think of me,
Anymore, do you?

I just wonder
Do you ever
Think of me
Anymore
Do you?

I just wonder
Do you ever
Think of me
Anymore
Do you?

I just wonder
Do you ever
Think of me
Anymore
Do you?

Yeah, yeah, yeah

tired.

I m tired of my life...I m tired of being ur no one...I m tired of askin who ur fren is...I m tired of askin wat's wrong wif u...I m tired of being scold by u...I m tired of being jealous...I m tired of being angry...I m tired of being sad...I m tired of being just "ur fren" to others...I m tired of tellin myself not to be so sensitif...I m tired of seeing u flirt wif other guys...I m tired of tellin u how much u change...I m tired of askin myself to trust u...I m tired of feeling that is my fault...I m tired of bothering wat happen to u...I m tired of askin u to share ur problems wif me...I m tired of keeping an eye on u when u r wif other guys...I m tired of u being rude to me sumtimes...I m tired of listening to ur complains...I m tired of tellin myself tat u appreciate my love...I m tired of askin myself whether i have change...I m tired of controlling my temper wif u...I m tired of being patient to u...I m tired of giving u too much freedom...I m tired of gettin into a fight wif u...I m tired of wat other ppl said abt me...I m tired of being confused...I m tired of love...I m tired of worrying abt u...I m tired of thinking tat u will dump me for another guy...I m tired of seeing myself in dis situation...I m tired of me can't control my feelings...I m tired of me being a playboy...I m tired of me love to flirt around...I m tired of my studies...I m tired of my personality...I m tired of being lonely...I m tired tat u dun understand me sumtimes...I m tired tat i cannot do wat i want to do...I m tired of being regret...I m tired of being self-fish...I m tired of being broke...I m tired of ppl checking on me...I m tired of being no transport...I m tired of thinking tat u cheat on me...I m tired of thinking that u dun love me anymore...I m tired of being confused of my feelings...I m tired of ppl saying tat i m weird...I m tired of being fear tat girls love me bcuz of my money...I m tired of no time to haf sex...I m tired of my computer is farking slow...I m tired of being shy...I m tired of everyone...I m tired of everything...I m tired of hating myself...I m tired of this world...I m tired of being weak in maths...I m tired of saying all da bad words...I m tired of being not to smoke when i m stress...I m tired of being stress...I m tired of being moody...I m tired of u askin me to leave u alone...I m tired of u being moody...I m tired of u when u r PMS-ing...I m tired of u being angry...I m tired of u saying haix...I m tired of u saying nth...I m tired of u nvr care abt me sumtimes...I m tired of u nvr care abt my feelings...I m tired of being mean to u...I m tired of looking for someone else to tok to when u r not thr for me...I m tired of keeping things to myself...I m tired of me not tellin u how i feel...I m tired being too gd to everyone...I m tired of being nice to bully...I m tired of being an asshole sumtimes...I m tired of ur parents dun like me...I m tired of waiting for ur reply...I m tired of u keep sms-ing ur guy fren instead of me...I m tired of u tellin me tat u r broke...I m tired of u tellin me tat u r fat...Da farking most of all, I m tired of living in da darkness!!!!tired of ppl thinking tat i m ur slave bcuz of da way i act...tired of being ur no one...tired of u introduce me as ur fren to ppl...tired of being think tat i m dumb...tired of ppl pity me...tired of ppl dunno anything...i m farking hurt tat ppl thinks tat i m ur slave...i m ur farking bf, do u noe how i feel...i m tired of u nvr care of how i feel abt dis...do u noe tat how farking i feel, i feel like givin up...tired of ppl askin me whether i m jealous...i m serious...i m farking tired of dis man...i m like being treat like an ass...being angry when u r wif sum other guys...i had enuf of dis man...i seriously farking feel like givin up on u...i m tired u noe...i m lost, i dunno who m i to u anymore...farking everyday i m worrying...farking everyday i m pissed...i m stress to dead man...i realli dun feel like living anymore...that's it i m fark up!!!!!!!!!

Crash.

da mirror broken n da side mirror dunno fly whr ady...some area oso cacat ady...

a view of da driver side...tyre burst...


my driver side punya door, mirror broken, everything cacat....side mirror hanging....

da front part...

haiz...teruk...

da passenger side...

haiz...my car is so teruk now...c my car oso sakit hati...but still wondering how da hell it happen...da whole process doesn't make sense at all...well i oso wondering how da hell i survive...i seriously tot tat i m goin to die ady...but i didn't...now my whole body is so painful...here bengkak thr bengkak, here blue black thr blue black....haiz...when i woke up, i can onli think of my baby girl...i noe i always wanted to die but on tat day i dun feel like dying first cuz i didn't want to lose her so early...i still want to spend more time wif her...she was da first one i called...i afraid i dun haf da chance to tok to her anymore...but i was darn lucky, even everyone said tat i m darn lucky...there's no bleeding or seriuos injuries...till now i keep wondering y i din't hurt so much...da car overturn but i survive...haiz...i just dun wanna think abt it now...at da mean time, i just dun wanna drive first...maybe another 2 weeks or 3 weeks later...haiz...so sad...but i realise tat my baby is da most important thing is my life...i noe i realli love her a lotz...there are some pics of my car...c how bad it hurt...

wat a fark up life i haf...i wish i could die away from dis blardy world...y cant god let me die ytd???it was a terrible accident but i survive...haiz...i just dun wanna think abt it anymore...i dunno wat's wrong wif me...there's so much anger in my heart...i m angry all da time..i m stress everyday...i dunno how...haiz...life is like tat...
i was so pissed just now...so piss tat i dun even want to c nor tok to anymore...is not tat i cannot trust her...i do...i just dun feel comfortable wif dis...i m dumb or stupid...is realli fark up...so fark up tat i dun wanna do anything...i noe, i can sense...i hate going through dis man...so fark up...i m so angry...i realli feel like dying...argh!!!no one will ever understand i noe...no one will ever understand wat i goin through...i hate dis life...i realli does...so motherfucker...dammit...i cannot stand dis man...is fark up...everyday is fark up...just hope tat i can die soon...no nid to care abt everything...

bored man...

omg!!!i m so freaking bored wei!!2 days holiday enuf to kill me man...i rather go to college...dun wanna stay home...hate staying at home now...haiz so stress man. i realli hope tat i can go to college from mon till sun so tat i no nid to stay home n suffer...blardy annoying me wei...hate being control...y must i haf to follow everything u said???y can't i do watevar i like???stop taking my happiness from me...i realli cant stand it anymore...just leave me alone,will u???
dun wanna tok abt it ady...make me so angry n sad. haiz...no class today but i still went to college to pick my baby...cuz want to go bangsar alexis n eat wif wei yin...today can say broke ady cuz baby buy stuff. da food was expensive, dis is memang wan larh then baby bought necklace n shirts...she realli darn geng wan man...go whr oso can buy sumyhin for herself...haha.went bangsar village 2...it was darn cool wei...i love being thr...all da branded but mostly for girls stuff...got zara thr...but onli for girls...y cant they make a zara for guys thr???if yes then syok man...wuahaha...if go thr sure broke...if go wif my baby lagi broke...haha...
haiz...life sux...no money many problem...let me kena toto then i will leave dis hse...i m not being bad sumtimes is realli hard to stand...dunno y baby always being stress...she said her life is boring...i just dun understand y...at least her life is better than me i guess...sumtimes i realli dunno wat she thinking abt...dunno wat she wants...sumtimes she is being mean too...i dun like tat but i realli dunno how to tell her...she said i changed, maybe i m cuz i noe i m no longer tat patient anymore...i noe how to get angry when she said sumthing i dun like to hear...i feel stress when she nag too much...dis is me for now...i dun wan to be like tat...i will change i guess but i hope she change too.
tired??i not sure oso...feel like sleeping but cant sleep..sure think alotz later...feel like playing games but lazy...dunno wat i want...was ok just now but after baby told me stuff...i feel kinda sad...aiks...i guess tat's all for today...ciaoz.