Discomfort

Sigh~

what a week.

stress and so much pressure.

with just everything.

i have been so busy till i actually neglect my blog.

well, i have so much to say actually but just don't have the time to do so.

how sad is it wei.

so i kinda lost my memory about what happened last week.

nothing much, just study and watch football.

tired with this kind of life.

pimples also a lot =.=

well, just another 2 more days then i am so called free.

think and think again, felt that the month of june kinda bad for me.

i not sure why but just got a feeling about it.

aiks, maybe i am just thinking too much.

exam this week.

so far so good but kinda scare for the econs this friday.

sigh~

haven't even finish studying wei.

can't wait till next week.

this week had been a sad week  =(

things just happened.

family didn't even understand what i do.

they always tot i go lepak.

said i over broad my freedom.

i was like, "wth?"

they didn't even know anything but just assume.

i hate it.

is not like i go club everyday or what.

sigh~

they just don't understand me.

they always take away happiness from me.

don't even know what i want, force me to do what i don't like.

i am so tired of pretending, tired of all this.

i wonder when can i get away from this.

maybe one day i will not stand it and stand up for myself.

this thing just so bother me this week.

make so sad~

sigh~

another thing would be someone else.

well, not piggy ok.

sigh~

i don't know what can i say about it.

is somehow just don't go right.

maybe is my fault.

well, it is my fault.

i can't blame anyone if really gone.

well, i was kinda speechless just now.

i saw this girl that i somehow interested to know.

she is in my college, taking feb intake of UNISA.

sigh~

somehow she is taken.

i think that she is cute.

but my god!

her bf is .......

sigh~

i am speechless really.

at least find someone better ok.

i am much better than him man!

just wondering why do pretty girls go with not good looking guys?

what is this world becoming?

due to exam week, i somehow temporarily throw away all the love stuff.

never think about it or emo about it.

but then someone make me sad thou.

after exam, maybe.

well, we will see.

*actually i am sick of all those girls.

enough of all this.

look at my football results.

kinda sad that netherlands went out.

they were so good in this euro 2008.

sigh~

lucky my spain still there.

haha~

they are good, so good.

especially my Fabregas.

recently i am so so admire him.

total mad man.

buy pepsi cuz of him.

haha~

not to forget, the NBA playoff.

well, Lakers lost to Celtics.

is alright, try harder next season.

Kobe is still the best.

okie, for your info.

i have set my blog to the public which that everyone can read it.

so Zera, don't be shock about it.

haha~

well, i have to head to study now.

will get to u guys after my exam.

ciaoz.

random pic.

This is Fabregas~

=)

word of the day = sadness

Jay @ tired

Nike football

Empty.

J. K. is in da house!

haha~

1 week never update already huh.

sigh~

last week was kinda busy.

with  accounting and hang outs.

been doing my accounting.

i don't wanna fail again man.

a new month.

nothing different, just more cash.

XD

first week of the month already spend the cash to buy baju.

lol.

no cure man *shake head*

so last week, still alright.

on sat pula, make me geram.

what happen was.....

we plan so nicely for the day.

woke up so blardy early at 8 am.

head to pick piggy then to midvalley to get her stuff.

then head to sunway.

for the summer splash thingy.

reach there already a bad news.

dumdum said she can't make it.

so just left 3 of us.

me, grandma and piggy.

cuz Ben they all haven't reach.

is alright.

we lined up.

a darn long queue.

we just stood there for like 2 hours ok.

then stupid stuff happened.

people started to cut line.

then so many those blardy no brain people.

all rush to the entrance.

no offense k, but those malay especially, my goodness.

they really have no brain at all.

i was so fucked up of cuz.

as u guys know that my temper is not good.

i keep fuck and scold there.

i really can't stand it wei.

for goodness sick, i queued there for like 2 hours. 

and now people just get in like that.

the worst is their management.

they don't even know how to manage an event properly.

walau.

this is one fucked up country man.

i am so serious.

look at singapore, already a good example.

look at how they manage an event, look at how efficient are they.

do u think this kind of thing will happen in singapore, no man.

look back at malaysia.

my god, really darn malu to compare.

sigh~

i will die faster to lives in this kind of country.

that day, i teruk said all this thing at that blardy place.

i don't care man.

i was really pissed.

i swear i won't go this shit event again.

i straight torn the tickets there and just throw on the floor.

funny is that, grandma said that i can't throw on the floor.

i told her, "here is malaysia wad, people do that one, so i don't care."

after that i just walk off from that place.

darn pissed man.

fucking hungry man.

then we went to eat in Wendy's.

not bad larh.

lepak at pyramid then.

decided to go my apartment for swimming.

darn funny right.

so we end up at my apartment swimming pool.

then i just found out something.

wuahaha.

if piggy saw this, she probably gonna beat me.

haha~

cuz i wanna tell u people that she doesn't know how to swim.

XD

u should see her action, darn funny man.

hahaha~

after swim, went to my apartment to bath and all.

order pizza, eat, talk, watch movie.

blah blah blah.

until 8 something fetch grandma to her uncle's house.

then pick vfang as well.

rush home to change.

ready to go clubbing~

yup poppy again.

my favorite place.

then reach there about 11.

entrance problem again.

not me and ben, but others.

haha~

but still had a wonderful night.

dance so much that night.

so outstanding~

haha

a tiring day.

head home at 4 then go sleep already.

next day woke up at 10 to fetch piggy home.

then head to temple with the mum and sis.

about 2, go back piggy's house to teman piggy.

cuz she home alone.

blah blah blah.

went dinner with her.

then at night go home.

so tired.

sleep so early.

on monday, stay home.

at 3pm, go pick piggy from college.

head to her house.

stay over there.

yesterday also stay over there.

due to football matches.

as u know, euro 2008 started already.

since england not in.

then my first would be spain, germany then italy.

the dutch is not bad too.

Spain the best larh.

cuz got Fabregas.

he is so cute.

and also villa.

yesterday they beat Russia 4-1 man.

haha~

but italy not so on form.

hmm, just watch one match so far.

due to exam u see.

sigh~

tomorrow meeting kath.

so long never see her man.

haha~

i think that's all for now.

i have to head to study now.

sleep so much today, so semangat.

random pic.

Fabregas & Villa~

=)

word of the day = Spain

Jay @ semangat

What's a man to do

Ohhh ohhhh
Ohhhhh ohhh
Ohhhhh yeaa

Listen
I'd be a liar if I told you
That I didn't see it coming
Be more of a liar if I said
Hey I didn't want it to be something
You deserve much better
For the love that you have shared
I know you won't believe it
But girl I swear
That I got love for you
Big love for you
Even when I'm tripping
The fact remains that
You will always be my baby
My baby

But take the truth
Baby take the truth
I can't hide my feelings
Especially when the whole world can see

That my heart is in two different places
I got you in my life and I wanna do right
But it's hard to let it go
When my love has two different faces
And I can't pretise cause they both look right
Someone tell me what's a man to do
When he's loving two
And he don't wanna lie
But he can't tell the truth

What's a man to do
When he's loving two
But he can't keep his heart
In two different places
In two different places

I know you feel it cause you stay
There is much more to this story
But I'd be a fool to say
I trust her and I'm always gonna love her
You know that you don't wanna hear

I been living on the edge baby
So I guess yea baby
She ain't nothing but she is real
But why take her through it
When I still got love for you
Big love for you
Even when I'm tripping
The fact remains that
You will always be my baby
My baby

But take the truth
Baby take the truth
I can't hide my feelings
Especially when the whole world can see

That my heart is in two different places
I got you in my life and I wanna do right
But it's hard to let it go
When my love has two different faces
And I can't pretise cause they both look right
Someone tell me what's a man to do
When he's loving two
And he don't wanna lie
But he can't tell the truth

What's a man to do
When he's loving two
But he can't keep his heart
In two different places
Not in two different places

I wanna tell you it's over
That I ain't thinking of her
I wanna really mean it
That I want you to see it
That I'm really trying to leave her behind
And I'm trying not to make you cry
I wanna tell you that
I ain't playing games and I'm dedicated to receive a change
But when I look in the mirror
It's the same old me

That my heart is in two different places
I got you in my life and I wanna do right
But it's hard to let it go
When my love has two different faces
And I can't pretise cause they both look right
Someone tell me what's a man to do
When he's loving two
And he don't wanna lie
But he can't tell the truth

What's a man to do
When he's loving two
But he can't keep his heart
In two different places
Not in two different places
Not in two different places

by Usher

from the latest album, here i stand~

Unfair

Quak Quak Quak~

i feel so sleepy now.

sighness.

i just got a hair cut today.

nothing much different, i am so bored with my hairstyle dy man.

but what to do.

think about my aunt...damn~

i have to stick to this blardy hairstyle first then.

emo this week.

kinda emo.

i have no idea why.

maybe because of the assignment or i am thinking too much again.

i have became so lazy.

update my blog every week only.

haha~

sorry man, this month is kinda tough for me.

so i didn't want to.

from my memory, i could only remember that we went out to celebrate grandma's birthday on last saturday at pavilion.

i am super old now. XD

it was good, well as in we have fun.

i am glad that everyone is happy.

especially grandma!

u people should have see her face when we surprised her.

it was funny~

haha.

last week too, i stay in piggy's house for 4 days.

well, if i am not mistaken.

haha.

blah blah blah.

watched indiana jones, it was awesome!

but i still wanna watch what happen in vegas =(

i guess by the time someone able to watch with me is when the show is out of cinema.

sigh~

and narnia, not to forget the superhero movie.

i just love to watch movie, so don't think i am mad.

this week, is so boring.

not actually, with 2 of my assignment due, i am suppose to be busy rite.

yea was darn busy till wednesday.

haha~

feel kinda sad that no more assignment to do.

i guess i really addicted to assignments?

hell no, i must be out of my mind.

not to forget again, last week was champion league final.

well, i just wanna post it here even though is still hurt for me.

my team lost, how unlucky is it.

i saw them played hard and worked hard.

but the luck is not on their side, so what to do.

i felt so sad for them, i know they want this trophy badly.

so do i, as a chelsea fan, i really hope they can win.

but is alright, they are gonna be better the next season.

i trust in them, even how bad they perform, they are still the best for me.

as everyone know, the club sacked the manager.

is kinda funny right.

but i hope the next manager gonna be a good one.

still hopeful about mourinho coming back.

sigh.

next month finals.

blardy hell.

and the euro 2008 some more.

how am i gonna watch man.

plus those match is at midnight.

sad~

supporting spain, italy or perhaps germany.

well, as u know england is not in.

bet that i can't even watch about 5 matches.

again, this week kinda bad mood.

fought with piggy and so on.

maybe just the blardy ass that pissed me off.

sighness~

i never hate someone so much before man.

he probably the first one.

i wonder when can he get out of piggy's life.

ish, i don't wanna talk about it already.

probably gonna spoil my mood.

damn fast rite.

second last day of may.

gosh, and i am 21 already.

so unpredictable.

my whole month of birthday gonna finish soon.

and i didn't even have a second round yet!

sob~

how sad is it wei.

hopefully i am gonna have a good month ahead.

of cuz financial must be good.

still waiting for my present ler.

haha~

tomorrow gonna stay in piggy's house.

hmm, never expect that we can be this close after what happened.

is this a good thing or a bad thing?

go figure out man.

i knew so many thing but i just don't wanna mention it.

sigh~

i am not that dumb man.

haha~

i can play really big.

well, i mean really tough.

gonna study hard soon.

before finals come and kill me again.

kinda stress already.

and yes, blardy love stuff.

just don't come bother my life yet.

wait till i got holidays then i will think about it k.

sigh~

wonder when can i get rid of this problem from my life.

guess what, recently i found a number of good movies and songs.

probably gonna list them down here.

Songs~

* Always be my baby - David Cook

  (yes, the american idol winner.)

* Heartbreaker - Will.i.am feat Cheryl Cole

  (i am probably a heartbreaker too.)

* I'm yours - Jason Mraz

  (consider a relax song for me.)

* Bye bye - Mariah Carey

  (I just love this song!)

* Empty - the Click Five

  (somehow just catch my attention.)

* Better in time - Leona Lewis

  (A nice love song?)

* Yesterday - Leona Lewis

  (isn't her songs just lovely as she is?

* Forever - Chris Brown

  (good techno + R&B mix)

* American boy - Estelle feat Kanye West

  (love the beat.)

* Love in this club, part 2 - Usher feat Beyonce & Lil' Wayne

  (I just love Usher's songs feat Beyonce some more, sure love.)

Movies~

* Indiana Jones And The Kingdom Of Crystal Skull

  (Nice & kinda funny show, love that guy. err, can't remember his name. That transformer guy.)

* Speed Racer

  (What can i say more? i love to speed that's why.)

* Iron man

  (I love Marvel movies, isn't that explain all?)

* What happen in Vegas

  (Although i haven't watch but i know is funny & nice.)

* The Chronicles of Narnia: Prince Caspian

  (How can i miss this when i already watch the first Narnia movie.)

* Superhero Movie

  (From the director of epic movie & meet the spartans, sure is gonna be funny rite? Duh!)

That's all about it.

will try to update more often rite.

keke~

another random pic.

Isn't this pic look funny?

but i just love it. lol

alright, ciaoz peeps.

word of the day = uncountable

Jay @ sleeping