Bliss

Finally i have the time to actually update my blog everyday.

Hmmm.

I was pissed and unhappy now.

Thanks to the match just now.

argh!!!

is alright. just a lost. we are still at the top right xD

I think i gonna get sick so soon.

been sneezing just now.

maybe i am just too tired?

okie.

i seriously have to stop drinking for some time.

i am so blardy unhealthy now.

after the beer that day, my sickness come again.

Hell man.

I felt so darn unwell today.

took some medicine and it is better now.

1 month!!!

1 blardy month!!!

how the hell i gonna do that.

1 blardy month i am not gonna drink!

i can't imagine myself drinking coke at the club.

awww. that is so sad.

i have no choice thou.

Nothing much actually.

i had a great dinner with wei yin and ashley.

and stupid yum cha session.

had a lil stress back then.

but it was all fine now.

money actually settle much of the stuff.

lol

at least i get some time to rest today.

it has been a while since i can actually stay at home and sleep.

hopefully next week, i can be a good boy.

stay at home and cut on the hang out time.

have to make myself healthy before the day come =)

lol

I have no plan for tomorrow.

entertain my family perhaps?

my ipoh relatives are here.

hmm.

i was thinking about going to pc fair....

but tomorrow is the blardy last day.

i can't imagine myself there thou.

I felt a lil lonely today.

cuz she is so far away.

hmm.

and gone missing few hours back.

How can i stop thinking about you?

let see how many days i can hold myself.

haha.

missing you lots =)

i think i should head to bed already.

if not, my face seriously gonna be like shit.

healthy life okie!

i feel so old.

haha.

ciao.

good day ahead.

*I found you in my heart*

Restless

Guess what.

I seriously can't stand it.

so at last, i drank beer with wei yin just now.

lol.

hopeless betul.

I won't die okie.

i am so tired now.

have to wake up so darn early tomorrow.

like 9am?

send my doggy to bath at the clinic.

i need more time to sleep please.

i do hope to go Pc fair but not sure yet.

sure darn a lot of people.

i am kinda sick of it.

Hmm.

my cheese cake was kinda a success.

besides the smell that zoie mention.

every other thing is still alright.

okie. at least it is eatable.

haha.

It looks a lil ugly from here but it taste alright.

=)

but someone said is nice. and like it when it is melted.

hmm. how cute she is xD

Okie.

today i was full of mission to complete.

woke up so early and head to do some many stuff.

then went to petaling street.

yea, to cut tree.

somehow the tree is so advance now.

haha.

i was saying about the christmas tree actually.

and i found one which is so nice.

it was costly.

after getting everything, from deco to the tree.

i headed home with zoie to decorate it.

It was nice after all.

I understand that what you see from this pic is not that attractive at all.

but it looks nicer in real life. lol

Then tada.

i am done with one mission.

haha.

omg.

i am so sleepy now.

i will tersleep any time now.

********************************************

ZZZZ.

Hopeless.

i ended up tersleep.

now pula the next morning.

can't wake up laaaa.

but i have no choice.

damn.

alright.

gtg.

missing you.

ciao.

*What should i do with you?*

Twilight

I am in the mood to blog =)

even at this early hour.

opps, is already 11.30am huh.

and yet i am still sticking on my bed.

Hopeless.

I am so restless.

i mean yesterday was a tiring day but it was fun thou.

and one thing.

i am the first to see wei yin!!

xD

it was a good day.

Okie okie.

on tuesday, i went for a movie.

with ahem*, suppose zoie is coming but she ffk at the end.

so, blardy mv is full of people.

this is insane man, why do these people so free to come out?

hate it. so ended up watched in the gardens =)

the movie..........

Okie. Frankly speaking i am not a twilight fans at all.

and i am not even excited about watching this movie.

but i have no idea why, on that day i just wanna watch it.

it was such a typical love story.

and the funny thing is i don't even watch the first chapter.

Lol

this movie was ............ well i am speechless.

i guess the bad ratings were right.

somehow i felt interested in this twilight saga now.

and i know why those girls are so crazy about this.

thanks to edward and jacob.

they just wanna look at pretty guys.

awwww.

Yesterday was an eventful one.

from morning till night i am busy.

i got myself into this baking thingy.

don't laugh, i mean i just wanna learn.

i was so semangat to get all the ingredients.

cupcakes and cheesecakes.

it was not an easy task at all.

the cupcakes were quite a success.

but i am sure about the cheesecakes.

cuz i haven't go check it out, have to wait a day.

Hmm, hopefully i can make it myself the next time.

however, thanks to zoie and you of cuz =)

headed to korean bbq for dinner @ puteri.

i was superb hungry and darn full at the end.

time for me to head and sleep.

but when i reach home.

someone ask me go yum cha pula.

without thinking at all, i just went.

blah blah blah~

i came home at 2.30am.

bravo jay kok.

i can soon become zombie.

xD

Later i am going to Help College.

thanks to someone who is so lazy to go enroll.

=.=

and not sure about the plan later on.

will be meeting wei yin and ashley for dinner.

tomorrow, have to go cut tree la.

hahaha.

i need a christmas tree at home.

so basically i am gonna search for it.

No club this week.

that is some sadness.

the reason would be.

i am not allow to drink for a week.

=(

due to my sickness which part of it caused by drinking too much.

i feel like dying man.

is alright, 3 more days to go.

Can i have the best advice?

the same thing i get everyday.

Sighness~

what should i do about this?

just let it be?

wtf.

this is really confusing.

damn.

alright.

is time for me to un-glue myself from the bed.

and go check out my cheesecake.

hopeless betul.

missing you at this early hour.

shit!

have a good week peeps.

i am enjoying it.

=)

*Am i falling too deep?*

Heart

Okie i really have no idea what to crap today.

since she insist me to update so i will try to make a nice post here.

lol

Alright.

The match just over.

Chelsea vs Arsenal. 3-0

Poor thing for Arsenal, i don't feel good seeing them lost thou.

I was expecting for a draw match.

but turn out to be better =)

Hmmm.

If i am not mistaken, i think i updated on friday.

so let me recall what had happened this few days.

Sighness~

i think i got some short-term lost of memories.

i can't remember what i do on friday pula.

Oh ya, i went to club.

LOL

It was Dj Fatal trix aka Ryan's day.

cuz he was in the Dj competition thingy.

i was there to support him of cuz.

and at the same time ready to get drunk.

lol

It was kinda bored at first.

but later on better.

Club was fun, Liquor even better.

Drink drink drink.

so ended up, i was fucking knocked out.

well, i am not gonna expose what i had done that night cuz is not something to be proud of.

and is hopelessly memalukan.

One thing i can say is that i slept on the road? or suppose to call it tanah? =S

i don't know. just the tanah besides my car.

Someone just said that i love my car so much so i have to lie down beside it huh.

Okie okie.

i knew i was gonna be so drunk.

cuz i was sad before i went club.

when i said sad, i mean seriously fucking sad.

lol

thanks to someone basically.

and the fan jin-ness of myself.

blah blah blah~

the fucking next day, darn hangover wei.

almost died without waking up.

but i still manage to go for a late late lunch at 4pm.

wtf.

thanks to that fucker.

fucker that make pym sad all the time.

slap kao him man.

then until at night pergi minum tea at kuchai.

my new hang out place now.

go till can vomit already.

that fucker buat masalah again then ended up blah blah blah.

*sorry man, cuz is like a fucking long story so i just cut it short here*

One secret here.

i got some sickness.

and i gonna leave this world real soon.

so soon that you might not be seeing my post anymore.

lol

okie okie think positive!

hopefully i won't die okie.

I still need to be in this world to pamper someone =)

Today is one boring day.

Entertain my aunt and mum in the morning to one u.

then yum cha at kuchai again.

talk cock sing song~

balik rumah tidur macam pig then.

wake up makan.

then online.

fucking bored right?

argh!

Okie.

time for me to have some confession.

Based on my research on this few days.

i found some shitty stuff.

which i don't want it to be true.

arrr, can i slap myself thinking about that?

i am confused.

for some unknown reason.

zzzzzzzzz

whatever man.

i guess i think too much.

i am too free that's why.

too free to think of stupid nonsense.

Can i pull myself out?

i seriously wonder.

i don't know what i want.

but i am clear about everyone.

i know csl is long gone.

which will remain as my regret.

and about her?

arr, i just don't know how to explain it.

my ex's best friend? wtf. wtf. wtf.

but..........

there is something about her.

i tak tau la.

i don't want to expose so much here.

after got people perasan. lol

alright.

i guess enough of tcss.

need to head to bed soon.

god bless me.

bless everyone.

good day ahead please.

ciao.

*Half of my heart's got a right mind to tell you that i can't keep loving you, but i just can't stop loving you.*

Miracles

Halo there.

You guys must be wondering why am i still awake at this hour right?

Hmm.

That's probably i am still waiting for someone to get home.

I am feeling a lil sleeping now.

*yawn*

hopefully i don't ter-sleep man.

Finally i am done with my finals.

i have been waiting for this for such a long time.

the whole month of revision is making me crazy.

well, i can't guarantee myself with good grades.

cuz i think i screw up most of the papers.

so hopeless.

So now, i am with my holidays.

a fucking long break till March next year.

for sure i am gonna work.

but now i need some rest.

need some entertainment.

till i get myself into the busy weeks ahead.

Next week, with mission to complete.

with stuff to handle.

with places to go.

*yawn*

i am like drowsing off already.

wtf.

almost fall asleep.

and now, i am thinking what should i do everyday.

i have been quite bored especially tonight.

not knowing what should i do.

i think i should just go work.

lol

at least i have spend my last few days well.

drinking and movie and food.

i can't wait for the better one.

can't wait for wei yin to be back.

3 days to go XD

alright.

i am fucking awake now.

due to someone.

is already 4am.

i am worry.

and i hate this feeling. Argh!

Sometimes i do wonder.

and i doubt.

why is this happening.

something that is so impossible.

i seriously can't imagine myself being in this kind of situation.

Wtf man.

is it so true that you don't need a reason to fall in love with someone?

but........

Hmm.

i am in my deep thought.

thinking about this matter.

This feelings. so weird and yet so real.

wtf.

but i know is impossible okie.

whatever is it, just let it be for this moment.

I miss you now.

and at the same time i am worry about you.

i know you might think this is one of the biggest joke.

you just don't know man.

what is coming to you.

what is going to happen in the future.

now i do believe that nothing is impossible.

lol

Alright.

i know i can't be sleeping now.

but i need to stop writing here.

cuz i have just run out of ideas of what to crap here.

Okie.

Take care peeps.

=)

" Sometimes we just need to believe that, everything happens for a reason"