=)

Look. I know we've been friends for a while now.
But, I just feel like I can confess to you.
It's gonna be hard but.
Alright here it goes...

Imagine that the pillow that you cried on was my chest,
and the tissue that you wiped your face with was my hand.
Girl, imagine: if you needed advise about some other guy, I'm the one that comes to mind.
Not tryna hear you tell nobody that I'm just a friend,
just trying to make sure I'm that body that you call your man,
and anytime you need a shoulder -- it's yours, night or day,
but what I'm tryna say is, I wanna be...

The last number you call late at night (said I wanna be),
The first one that you dial when you open your eyes.
Wanna be the one you run to,
wanna be the one that ain't gonna hurt you,
I wanna be yeah, I wanna be yeah..
Be the man making your girl jealous,
be the guy shuttin' down all the fellas..
whatever you need, girl, it's all on me:
soldier, your friend or your lover, girl,
I wanna be...

Would it be cool?
Would you mind if I called you my boo,
what if the next whip you was pushin' was the one I bought for you?
Can I be the one that meets your pops and take your mama shoppin', be the only one they like?
Have you thought about it -- wait -- really thought about it?
Maybe you should take some time
call your girls and talk about it, yeah.
'cause I done already made up my mind,
don't need no more time to know if I wanna be with you,
I wanna be...

Put me on your screen saver, all over your myspace and make me one of your top favorites,
that's where I wanna be...
The one you cryin' for (stand up for and fightin' for)
wanna be your good, bad, love, hate girl..

The last number you call late at night (said I wanna be),
The first one that you dial when you open your eyes.
Wanna be the one you run to,
wanna be the one that ain't gonna hurt you,
I wanna be yeah, I wanna be yeah..
Be the man making your girl jealous,
be the guy shuttin' down all the fellas..
whatever you need, girl, it's all on me:
soldier, your friend or your lover, girl,
I wanna be...

Cross my heart hoped to die, on everything that's good,
I'm gonna do you right, show you right, get this understood.
Cross my heart hoped to die, on everything that's good,
I'm gonna do you right, show you right, get this understood.

The last number you call late at night (said I wanna be),
The first one that you dial when you open your eyes.
Wanna be the one you run to,
wanna be the one that ain't gonna hurt you,
I wanna be yeah, I wanna be yeah..
Be the man making your girl jealous,
be the guy shuttin' down all the fellas..
whatever you need, girl, it's all on me:
soldier, your friend or your lover, girl,
I wanna be...

Girl I wanna be, I wanna be....
I wanna be, I wanna be...

Taken from the song "I wanna be" by Chris Brown

Dedicated to that someone special =)

Perspective

Argh!

my fb account is under maintenance pula.

i feel so miserable without looking at my fb.

lol

I am still feeling tired.

*yawn*

woke up at 7am for some reason.

then i think i fall asleep later on.

so ended up woke up at 10am.

I have been feeling tired recently.

maybe going out too often?

but i guess it's all worth =)

The progression of my revisions are so so.

half way hanging all over.

seems like i am not taking it seriously.

too much stuff on mind.

can't really concentrate sometimes.

Okie this week gonna be the last week.

gotta work hard already.

My motivation! lol

My mind still stuck with prawns i guess.

thanks to pym seriously.

We went to steamboat buffet at sunway on saturday.

i think we took about 100 prawns.

and lots of crabs as well.

the humans at the next table keep looking at the 4 of us.

Lol

hopeless betul.

prawns just turn me off now.

haha.

Drink tea on saturday night.

from 1am till 6am.

lmao.

the time totally terbalik already.

I think i gonna die faster and some people gonna be so happy about it.

Chelsea got lucky yesterday.

both teams were playing well i Assume.

but whatever is it, Chelsea still won the match.

It's just the beginning man.

long way to go.

Guess what.

i have been hearing things about you.

not some good things of cuz.

so not my type of people huh.

i guess you are not worth.

and wasting my time.

therefore, i am officially gonna let go of you.

Time to say goodbye.

i know it takes times.

but i promise you will be out of my mind for sure.

Letting go is not hard at all.

lol

My life has been good.

happier i assume.

and one thing, my temper.

i think my temper just disappear somewhere.

he doesn't even come out now.

well, of cuz it is a good things.

now i know my temper will only show up to certain people.

haha.

Think positive.

i am changing the way i judge.

my perspective.

it has been going well.

seeing improvement.

unlike those random people.

*shake head*

can't wait for exam to be over.

lots of stuff to do.

lots of places to go.

lots of works to handle.

and lots of money to spend.

lol

okie okie.

is time for me to go study now.

instead of rubbish-ing here.

lol

ciao.

*my intention is about her, not you please"

You

2nd November.

Happy Birthday to my cousin, Jaime.

and not to forget...

Happy Birthday to you.

someone that i gave my heart to.

here to wish you, all the best and take care.

Dedicate a song to you.

"Vanilla Twilight - Owl City"

*I wish i am there for you*

Silence

The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake and miss you.
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
'Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me.
I'd send a postcard to you dear,
'Cause I wish you were here.

I watch the night turn light blue.
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
'Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.

I'll find repose in new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
'Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.

As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.

When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.

*Owl City - Vanilla Twilight*

Decision

I was standing in front of the fridge just now.

choosing what i wanna drink.

then i think i got selective problem (maybe influenced by zoie)

choosing between coke and tiger.

hmm.

both are also bad for health.

well. since both are so bad, then at last i choose tiger over coke.

lol.

i am feeling tired now.

due to driving? or maybe restless night.

is not like i can't fall asleep, just that i sleep kinda late.

well, i miss my yi li and xiao li.

i was thinking that whether i will get the chance to see them again.

sigh.

this is life i guess.

this two fella would be the only thing that i can't let go of.

i am feeling kinda down.

the reason behind it will be no reason.

out of sudden, i am just feeling sad.

i miss my friends.

and i miss you of cuz.

one thing, i am glad that is not too late for me to wake up now.

if not i am not sure how many friends i gonna lose.

Take this chance here, i wanna apologize to most of my friends.

I am sorry. Sorry for everything.

and also thanks for supporting me here.

supporting me even i am having all this problem.

you guys are still here for me.

seriously, thank god for giving me so many good friends.

damn.

i can't bring myself to concentrate at the notes.

what is wrong with me?

where's those determination?

to prove that i can do better

and to prove that i can go on with my life.

most of all, to prove that i am not hopeless.

wake up!

i seriously need some motivation.

argh!

corrupted piece of shit.

i get really sensitive towards the word "dirty".

well, there is a meaning behind this word.

lol.

i gave my heart and turn my back against the world.

though you were my close friend.

but you leave me no option.

i am ready to walk out from this mess.

i had enough.

enough of hiding in your shadow.

when you don't appreciate at all.

don't even want to change.

you are hopeless.

seriously, no offense.

bear in mind, what comes around goes around.

i don't mind you make the whole world against me.

saying bad things about me or what so ever.

go ahead, i don't fucking care.

won't wanna waste my time on a young minded fella.

guys, sex and branded.

well, no offense.

because i want you to hate me.

hate me as much as i hate you now.

looks like someone gonna get pissed reading this.

sometimes i do wonder why there is such person in this world.

i mean.

there is no words to describe them.

okie whatever.

tired of those girls nowadays.

*shake head*

I went to watch "Jennifer's body" today.

Megan Fox is a bomb man.

she is so darn hot.

but the show is just an average rating type.

a great day.

get to hang out with them.

and had fun thou.

at least something different okie.

tomorrow will be the last day of October.

can't wait for November.

bad luck go away.

or else i seriously need to go temple already.

2nd November, reminds me of you.

sigh.

looks like i got so many decisions to make.

hmm.

perhaps i should go to confession?

and counseling?

i need to get to study already.

MUST!

Looks like someone is falling in love.

please tell me it is not true.

okie.

that's all.

ciaoz.

*Pursuit of happiness*