Permanent

Is this the moment where I look you in the eye?
Forgive my broken promise that you'll never see me cry
And everything, it will surely change
Even if I tell you I won't go away today

Will you think that you're all alone
When no one's there to hold your hand?
When all you know seems so far away
And everything is temporary, rest your head
I'm permanent

I know he's living in hell every single day
And so I ask, oh God is there some way for me to take his place?
And when they say it's all touch and go
I wish I could make it go away but still you say

Will you think that you're all alone
When no one's there to hold your hand?
When all you know seems so far away
And everything is temporary, rest your head
I'm permanent, I'm permanent

Is this the moment where I look you in the eye?
Forgive my promise that you'll never see me cry

* David Cook - Permanent*

Gone

Long awaited updates! XD

*May 6*

Happy birthday to myself =)

Thanks Piggy for all the surprises =)

and also the pressie!

Emporio Armani Diamonds =)

and not to forget the satu longkang XD

thanks for the cake and the lunch =)

opps, and my superhero wolverine.

Happy Day =)

*May 7*

Dinner with the sweethearts @ Nerofico!

Thanks piggy, grandma, wawa, shanei and cindy.

for everything =)

you guys are so sweet.

*too bad that tisya and wei yin not here*

*May 9*

Clubbing session @ poppy

Thanks to people that came.

Not gonna post the pictures here cuz is way too many.

*May 14*

Law assignment due!

*May 16*

Ben's Birthday celebration @ poppy

Happy Birthday to Benji =)

So again, way too many pictures larh.

sad thing is piggy and me have to head home early.

due to the assignments.

*May 18*

F & I assignment due!

*May 19*

FA1 assignment due!

*May 22*

BCB assignment due!

*May 25*

Advertising assignment due!

*May 27*

finally got the time for movie.

head to watch angels and demons.

with piggy and adrian.

 I didn't read the book.

but overall still not bad.

*May 29*

another day for movie.

2 movies in a day.

one in the afternoon.

Night at the museum: Battle of the Smithsonian

 another one at night.

Terminator Salvation.

I darn like Christian Bale!

@.@

i am not gay okie.

*May 30*

FA cup final.

Chelsea vs Everton

and..................

Chelsea won the cup! Wohoo!

Thanks Guus Hiddink.

too bad that you are not staying.

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*June 1*

Suppose to go to Bcb lecture at 8am.

but......

can't wake up larh.

haha.

end  up Law lecture also never attend.

*guilty*

I already plan to wash my car today.

is always like that, when i wanna wash my car.

then the rain will come.

=.=

but i manage to finish my car wash session before it rains.

haha.

Better don't rain later!

if not my hard work will be gone.

i wash 1 and half hour okie.

sigh.

bored.

finals coming real soon.

i am so stress.

Have to start study by this week. *hopefully*

never study for today also.

Last sem did quite well in the exam.

so this sem has to be the same.

but my motivation is gone.

trying my best.

can't screw up anymore.

working hard for 5 subjects next sem.

Go Lakers for the finals 2009.

i think that's all.

new month, new beginning.

hopefully this month gotta be better.

god bless everyone.

word of the day = Know your enemy, not to trust anyone.

Jay @ stoning

Crashing

I am tired.
been restless for the past few days.
what to blame?
the addiction to the games i guess.

Study break this week.
only start to do an assignment today.
*hopeless*

What to do.
no mood to even look at my school works.
all i do is play games.
i think i am gonna dead soon.

The highlight for this study break perhaps will be the getaway to pd.
even though just 2 days, i feel a kind of relief.
get away from the tiring city life.
get some sun tan.
feel some relaxation.
it was alright, i enjoyed it.
hope wei yin and tisya was there with me but too bad so sad.

today is the beginning of may.
a labour day.
which people drive like shit today.
made me blardy pissed.

another five days.
i will be a year older.
i didn't realize how quick time passed by.
i don't feel excited for it.
i am afraid of it.
thinking that is just another usual day for me.
i don't give a damn anymore.
perhaps there is only one thing that could make me smile on that day.

i am a lil emo today.
i have quit being emo for a long time.
i can't resist it.
the feeling is killing me, fuck.
i am uncomfortable.

the anger.
made me regret again.
i know.
i know i am not alright at all.
why?
Why is it so hard?

i got no mood at all.
suddenly i feel the need for my friend.
people like wei yin which is so far away from me.
sigh.

alright.
not gonna spoil your mood here.
i will be fine.
don't worry okie.
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Wishing luck to the blues man.
and also lakers.

i gotta do my assignments real soon man.
6 more to go.
all due in this month.
fuck man.
i feel like dying.
hope these assignments can keep my mind busy so that i could think less.
haha.

i think i need to go get some rest man.
tomorrow will be doing assignments man.
*sob*

that's all.
update real soon.
=)

*love comes around and they knock you down*

Jay @ =(

Boston

In the light of the sun
Is there anyone? Oh, it has begun
Oh dear, you look so lost
Your eyes are red, the tears are shed
This world you must have crossed, you said

You don't know me
And you don't even care, oh yeah
And you said, you don't know me
And you don't wear my chains, oh yeah

Essential yet appealed
You carry all your thoughts across an open field
Where flowers gaze at you
They're not the only ones who cry when they see you

You said you don't know me
And you don't even care, oh yeah
Well you said you don't know me
And you don't wear my chains, oh yeah

She said I think I'll go to Boston
I think I'll start a new life
I think I'll start it over
Where no one knows my name

I'll get out of California
I'm tired of the weather
I think I'll get a lover
And fly 'em out to Spain

Oh yeah and I think I'll go to Boston
I think that I was tired
I think I need a new town
To leave this all behind

I think I need a sunrise
I'm tired of Sunset
I hear it's nice in the summer
Some snow would be nice, oh yeah

You don't know me
And you don't even care, oh yeah

Boston, where no one knows my name
Where no one knows my name
Where no one knows my name, yeah

Boston, where no one knows my name


Boston by Augustana

* I heard this song just now. I like it and i just wanna share it here. Look at the beauty of this lyrics.

Break

Hmm, it had been quite some time.
People been complaining why i did not update.
busy busy busy.

So lil time but so much to do.
24 hours a day or even 7 days a week is just not enough for me.
assignments, homework, classes and etc etc.
@.#

finally i got the chance to go club after so long.
i lost on count of how long is it man.
well, it was all good.
meeting friends and party together.
in our usual poppy.
and even got myself hangover.
drink too much, drunk like hell.
vomit till i am half dead. *sob*

lol.
finally, next week is gonna be my study break.
one week man.
but what the hell is study break when we still need to do the whole lots assignments?
why not they call it as assignment break then?
1 week 7 days which means the weekdays gonna be doing assignments.
so basically, one day one assignment?
*insane*

this week, 2 test pula.
one already which i did this morning.
i think i won't be doing well in it.
and another one due by this week.
block lecture for financial accounting.
which is until 7pm.
*wulamak*

tell me how can i get enough time to finish all my task?

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Look what have you done, Jay.

another mistake perhaps?
i wonder.

am i good in those sense thing?
i doubt.

if i was right about that, so it would be a mistake.
a stupid mistake.

well, maybe i am already living in a life that filled with mistakes.
who cares man.
what you wanna do to me is none of my business.
even you are smart enough to cause me pains using that someone.
i don't give a damn man.
you wanna tell people how bad am i, then go ahead.
i am bad, so what?

you think you got it all?
please use your brain.
just wonder why on earth there are so many brainless people.
*shake head*

The same darn thing, "like i can't live without you huh? fuck you"

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life is full with ups and downs.
but i am living my life to the fullest now.
enjoy even though it hurts sometimes.
i am proving it.
show you.
that you are nothing.

busy life had cause me to think less.
which somehow a good thing.
better to concentrate on my studies.

waking up in the morning and wondering when is my life gonna end.
what a joke huh.
this is me.
i am used to it.

things just happen.
we can't expect them the way we want them to be.
life is unpredictable.
which makes me a unpredictable person too.
so don't judge me.

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Hola~
hopefully this week gonna be a better week.

last week was still alright.
but with things happened such as:
got rejected by QUT for the Uni application.
*sadness*
kena catch by police due to me using the emergency lane.
end up rasuah him 50 bucks. *lmao*

good news was Chelsea is in the semi finals of the champion league after beating liverpool.
4-4
awesome game.












semi finals vs barcelona pula.
*mati*

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that's all i guess.

I am taking back my love, move on.
you are just a past.
a broken dream.














Jay @ woot