wat a fark up life i haf...i wish i could die away from dis blardy world...y cant god let me die ytd???it was a terrible accident but i survive...haiz...i just dun wanna think abt it anymore...i dunno wat's wrong wif me...there's so much anger in my heart...i m angry all da time..i m stress everyday...i dunno how...haiz...life is like tat...
i was so pissed just now...so piss tat i dun even want to c nor tok to anymore...is not tat i cannot trust her...i do...i just dun feel comfortable wif dis...i m dumb or stupid...is realli fark up...so fark up tat i dun wanna do anything...i noe, i can sense...i hate going through dis man...so fark up...i m so angry...i realli feel like dying...argh!!!no one will ever understand i noe...no one will ever understand wat i goin through...i hate dis life...i realli does...so motherfucker...dammit...i cannot stand dis man...is fark up...everyday is fark up...just hope tat i can die soon...no nid to care abt everything...

bored man...

omg!!!i m so freaking bored wei!!2 days holiday enuf to kill me man...i rather go to college...dun wanna stay home...hate staying at home now...haiz so stress man. i realli hope tat i can go to college from mon till sun so tat i no nid to stay home n suffer...blardy annoying me wei...hate being control...y must i haf to follow everything u said???y can't i do watevar i like???stop taking my happiness from me...i realli cant stand it anymore...just leave me alone,will u???
dun wanna tok abt it ady...make me so angry n sad. haiz...no class today but i still went to college to pick my baby...cuz want to go bangsar alexis n eat wif wei yin...today can say broke ady cuz baby buy stuff. da food was expensive, dis is memang wan larh then baby bought necklace n shirts...she realli darn geng wan man...go whr oso can buy sumyhin for herself...haha.went bangsar village 2...it was darn cool wei...i love being thr...all da branded but mostly for girls stuff...got zara thr...but onli for girls...y cant they make a zara for guys thr???if yes then syok man...wuahaha...if go thr sure broke...if go wif my baby lagi broke...haha...
haiz...life sux...no money many problem...let me kena toto then i will leave dis hse...i m not being bad sumtimes is realli hard to stand...dunno y baby always being stress...she said her life is boring...i just dun understand y...at least her life is better than me i guess...sumtimes i realli dunno wat she thinking abt...dunno wat she wants...sumtimes she is being mean too...i dun like tat but i realli dunno how to tell her...she said i changed, maybe i m cuz i noe i m no longer tat patient anymore...i noe how to get angry when she said sumthing i dun like to hear...i feel stress when she nag too much...dis is me for now...i dun wan to be like tat...i will change i guess but i hope she change too.
tired??i not sure oso...feel like sleeping but cant sleep..sure think alotz later...feel like playing games but lazy...dunno wat i want...was ok just now but after baby told me stuff...i feel kinda sad...aiks...i guess tat's all for today...ciaoz.

It's 6!!!

i haf no idea how long i nvr update my blog man...too bz wif homeworks n assignments. feel so bored man...i got tons of hw but darn lazy to do man. summore exam next week!!!holy shit...i din even start studying.no hope for me man...i guess i m gonna fail my bst cuz is comfusing me!!da onli hope is my accounts...haha~~~thx to Mr Kumar! Just after my b'day then start exam man...n i haf to stay at home for my b'day!!!not happy abt tat man...everytime oso nid to celebrate it earlier..haiz. Oh no da first paper is bst summore...well i m darn sure on my b'day i will be at home studying bst n get crazy then. well dis year is different cuz i haf my baby girl to celebrate wif me =)
hope to get lotz lotz present man...tot of having a poolside party but....due to many reasons...i haf no choice to make it next year cuz i m 21 yrs old wad...tat time can ask my aunty to sponser...hoho~ alrite enuf of tat...life as usual for me..ups n downs. stress wif studies n feel tat dis sem is darn bz...not enuf time in a day for me at all...can't finish my stuff in time...sad case. got tat YED cuming too...nid to help out...today just went to petaling street n find da bottle thingy.
next week gonna be a bz week man...got class on sat summore due to tat stupid hols...oh yea got 2 days holiday...alomost forget bout tat but still haf to do hw! maybe use one day to go out...haha~ my aunty they all went ipoh...i can go yum cha at nite...bravo! but after my baby dun let =( c how first...still haven't plan at all...dunno when i m gonna celebrate wif my frens...dun wanna think ady...feel sad cuz i m gonna be 20 ady...damn so old...but still so kiddo...haha.
is 27th today...i mean ytd cuz is past 12 dy...is 6!!!i mean is 6 months anniversary tat my baby n i together. happy = ) so fast ar...nowadays too much arguements, sry baby...dun mean to quarrel wif u always. i still love u a lotz...suddenly recall back tat time when i everyday wear pink shirt n let u notice me...it was so funny...nvr tot tat i haf da chance to get u as my girl...used to tell my frens tat my class got a cute girl...haha~ kenot believe tat da cute girl is my baby now. realli appreciate the times we had together, it was so much fun n happiness...forever baby...hope to be wif u for all my life. <3>
i haf no idea wat to do now man...so bored. whr's my baby?? waiting to call u ar...can't wait to heard ur voice...is gonna be 1am man...lucky tmr no tuition so can sleep till darn late...gonna be a gd boy tmr n stay home study...hope my baby not goin shopping tmr. miss my baby girl...dun feel sleepy at all...later maybe gonna continue watching prison break or play games...argh!!kenot download heroes esp 19 yet...i haf waited so long ady, cant wait to watch it man. nvm i guess i should download it after my mid exam...if not i no nid to study ady man...haha~baby ar...whr r u??

In love wif dis song!!

"When You're Gone"
by Avril Lavigne

I always needed time on my own
I never thought I'd need you there when I cry
And the days feel like years when I'm alone
And the bed where you lie is made up on your side

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]
When you're goneThe pieces of my heart are missing you
When you're goneThe face I came to know is missing too
When you're gone
The words I need to hear to always get me through the day and make it ok
I miss you

I've never felt this way before
Everything that I do reminds me of you
And the clothes you left, they lie on the floor
And they smell just like you, I love the things that you do

When you walk away I count the steps that you take
Do you see how much I need you right now

[Chorus]

We were made for each other
Out here forever
I know we were, yeah
All I ever wanted was for you to know
Everything I'd do, I'd give my heart and soul
I can hardly breathe I need to feel you here with me, yeah

[Chorus]


i love dis song man...just cant stop listen to it...Avril's songs still da best!!

Cao Ge : Bao Hu Ni

Hoho~~
i love dis song alotz....da lyrics darn meaningful...
dedicate dis to my baby girl...hope my baby understand wat it means...
love u a lotz baby...one day i let u hear dis song k...
gonna protect u forever...


Gary Cao Ge
Bao Hu Ni
跳着你的心跳抱着你的拥抱爱最深多深 我不知道沉默 什么都好 心里什么在烧幸福那么少 我竟然得到
月光太冷 海浪太吵我把你裹进我外套这双翅膀不飞了因为守护你最重要
这一生一世让我保护你就算跟世界成为敌当你把手紧紧放进我手里怎能不相信 世上真的有 奇迹Wu~ Hu~
跳着你的心跳抱着你的拥抱爱最深多深 我不知道沉默 什么都好 心里什么在烧幸福那么少 我竟然得到
月光太冷 海浪太吵我把你裹进我外套这双翅膀不飞了因为守护你最重要
这一生一世让我保护你就算跟世界成为敌当你把手紧紧放进我手里怎能不相信 世上真的有 奇迹
这一生一世让我保护你就算跟世界成为敌当你把手紧紧放进我手里怎能不相信 (怎能不相信) 世上真的有
这一生一世让我保护你就算跟世界成为~敌当你把手紧紧放进我手里怎能不相信 世上真的有 奇迹
这一生一世让我保护你 (Wu Wu Wu Hu)就算跟世界成为~敌 (Wu~)当你把手紧紧放进我手里(相不相信, 相不相信) 怎能不相信 世上真的有 奇迹Wu Wu Wu Hu~ Mmm Mmm Mmm~