How's everyone?
Hope you guys have a great rabbit year ahead.
It's back to the normal days again even though it's still cny.
just send my cousin to the airport this morning.
sunny day perhaps.
well, i guess it's time for me to think about my future.
Sort of deep though while on my way back from the airport.
I feel kinda useless after all.
i mean i am not being negative thinking here.
just that, now i just graduated.
it's like i still don't know what i want. where my life gonna lead to or what am i suppose to do.
I am always living a life where everything is being prepare for me.
and now i have to stand on my own and i do shit about it.
what's wrong? am i being lack of self-confident? or i just being lazy?
The job searching thing. I mean i do put in effort but i am darn sure it's not even 70% of it.
I am still lazy to face the darn reality.
In my mind, i just wanna live my life like this. wth.
I hate it when people ask about my job searching progress.
I really don't know how am i suppose to go on like this.
I understand everyone of us wanna be rich.
it's a common thing for a human nature.
a big house, big car, steady income, happy family.
but the problem is how are we gonna reach that goals?
what if we don't success at all?
what do we need to do to reach that goals?
It's different now. a different generation.
where everything talks about money.
how are you gonna get a family when you don't even have a house?
do you think a girl will willing to stay with you if you are not that rich?
No of cause.
It's not like the olden days where you study till SPM and somehow you still manage to build your own business and get a wife who stay at home to support you even though there is a downfall.
There is no such thing anymore.
Money is the thing everyone talks about.
People will tend to look at the richer one and say, we gonna be like them.
we gonna buy that car, that house or that sort of shit.
but is there anyone of us say that, we wanna be better than them?
Well, i guess there are.
I don't wanna be like them. I just wanna be who i am. someone different be somehow better than them.
Everyone of us have the ability to be a better person than anyone else.
We just have to try, and put in the hard work.
But i am not doing shit about it. sigh.
i am afraid that my dreams are not longer my dreams anymore.
cause i am lost of direction.
Somehow i don't know. Not sure whether i will be success, but no harm trying right?
How do we know if we don't try at all.
I should really take some time to think about how am i gonna achieve my dreams.
I mean, i feel stupid, jealous about how others are being so successful even at my age.
this is not what i want. i want to be successful too.
I want fame too. but that's after i succeed. Haha.
Looks like i need to get going with my stuff.
Update soon.
Well, a song that suit my post.
Fireworks - Katy Perry
check out the lyrics.
Ciao!
*Do you know that there's still a chance for you cause there's a spark in you*
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