Us

*Stones,

heavy like the love you've shown,

solid as the ground we've known,

and i just wanna carry on.

we took it from the bottom up,

and even in a desert storm,

sturdy as a rock, we hold,

wishing every moment froze.

Now i just wanna let you know,

earthquake can't shake us,

cyclones can't break us,

hurricanes can't take away our love.

pyramid, we built this on a solid rock,

It feel just like it's heaven's touch,

together at the top,

like a pyramid.

and even when the wind is blowing,

we will never fall, just keep on going,

forever we will stay,

just like a pyramid. *

Well, this is just part of the lyrics i get from the song, "pyramid by charice".

i know this song kinda old.

This song is awesome and the lyrics too.

fucking meaningful seriously.

loving it.

dedicate it to my sweetheart =)

you guys must be wondering why the hell i am still blogging at this hour right.

it's kinda weird thou.

it's like 3.40 am now. i can't go back to sleep.

I woke up at 2.30am just now after heading to bed at 11pm.

i was a lil unwell, down with flu and sore throat.

i hate being sick. it somehow make me feel weak and the medic, argh. make me feel restless.

i am glad i am slightly better now. as in physically, not mentally.

Basically thanks to sweetheart that i am not going back to sleep.

not that i blame her or what, just that i am worry that's why.

i hate the feeling of waking up not knowing what actually just happened.

like everything is so messy and you can do nothing about it.

for me, i got annoyed. i don't like it, i will turn moody for instance.

sometimes i don't understand what is with girls' brain?

no offense.

i don't know what are they thinking. as in i seriously don't know how to say it.

why can't they talk when they got a problem.

put aside this, i mean why can't they know that actually being moody is not the way to solve anything.

maybe, yea like what we always say, "pms".

okie, excuse.

why can't they think about other's feeling too? as in please aware that there is somebody there who is worry about you.

i admit i am a lil unhappy now.

i seriously hate the feeling of seeing my loved one being moody and i actually can't help.

and what is worst, i don't fucking know anything.

and even worst, make me feel like i didn't actually be there for her when she needed me.

cuz i woke up realizing this. wtf.

okie. i should be chilling now.

Looks like my turn of not being able to sleep now.

great.

since i don't have much time to blog during the human time.

well, then i should post more during this vampire time.

Jay Cullen Moh is back.

nightclub city should be the only stuff that gonna accompany me at this hour.

better still, then i can spend more time on my studies tomorrow.

drinking so much water make me keep go to pee pee at this hour.

no choice thou, water should be the only medicine to all sort of sickness i would say.

Sigh.

today is 18th of May already. wtf.

so fucking fast right. then gonna be June.

and presentation plus finals. kill me please.

not knowing how am i gonna talk things out with the family man.

maybe let the time comes only i think about it.

i am glad that two fellas that spam my tweet wall actually went to sleep now.

so basically is my turn now. lol

I just come to realize.

that i am much more creative during the vampire time.

lol.

maybe i am really abnormal. plus half vampire. what to do xD

another long essay i would say.

Maybe i should stay awake till the sun comes out. good idea.

looks who is being moody now?

haha.

*i know we didn't know each other well at first. not knowing what brought us here. not knowing what brought you to me. we were just friends. Got upside down for some time and not knowing what brought it back. Not knowing that making my first step toward change lead me to you. I doubted all the time, why it has to be you? After all that we had been through, look at who am i now, who you are now. I never regret for being who am i now. I am glad that i actually had the courage to change. I know i was once a failure, but i don't look back. i keep going, not afraid of being fail again. I was in shit few months back but i never give up. knowing that things will get better, miracle do happens, hard work do pay off, good people do deserve a chance.

Ever since you came to me, i look at things at a different perspective. we wouldn't know if we don't try at all. Spending time with you were great, you took my breath away. Not knowing what got me so into you, but i just can't stop falling. Not knowing what so special about you, but i just can't stop trying. I always believe in hard work do pay off, and never give up. You probably the reason that i keep going on in my life now. After all the shit i went through, i realized sometimes we are just to blind to see, what is right for us. At the certain point of time, i wanted to give up but you were there. You are the reason that i am not giving up, even i know i gonna fall like thousand time till i get my success. You brought a meaning to my life.

my 2010 were great, even just the five months time but i am loving it cause i got you. You never fail to put a smile on my face every single day. that's how you brighten up my days. i know sometimes we might have some misunderstanding or conflict, i am sorry for not being understanding and being the one that actually acting weird. I love you for who you are, not what you did or how you look. Just the heart i am saying, the person, the only one that i am attached to. I don't care how people look at this, i don't give a damn cause nobody gonna replace you in my heart. Nothing gonna take my love away from you, it will grow more each day but not any lesser. You guys might thinks that i must be bullshitting here, maybe i am, but this is what comes from my heart.

i might be running out of words for you, but i won't be running out of love for you. There will be no restock-able of love for me toward you cause my love for you is unlimited, eternity. Nothing gonna tear us apart, not even any disaster cause i make sure i gonna be there to protect you and stay with you all the time. Nothing can ever stop our happiness cause i will try my very best to make you smile, keep you happy all time. I couldn't stop loving a sweetheart like you, even when you pissed me off, i don't seems to get you out of my mind. God seems to take control of my life now cause he sent me an angel like you. I am loosing control, i can't feel my heart beating anymore, i am so weak. You got me going crazy, i just hate it when i am not seeing you for a day. You can't seems to get out from my mind, can't seems to get out from my heart too.

loving you is the new chapter in my life, probably the best chapter of all. Thank you for being with me all the time and bear with my stupid bull head attitudes. I walking toward an unknown journey but no matter how it's gonna be, i know you are there for me. I love you more than what i could actually say here. I could continue writing them but it doesn't matter if it's not true. Action speaks louder than words. I will prove to you instead of writing all sort of sweet words here. I want the best for you cause you are truly my loving sweetheart.*

Told you that i tend to be more active and creative during the vampire hour right.

see, that's the prove.

i can't seems to stop writing. haha.

i think i created some nice sentences here thou.

How good if i am apply this skill in my assignment and studies.

i probably the best student already xD

opps. it's 5am now.

but i don't feel sleepy at all.

i am thinking. what can i do now?

everyone is sleeping now. hmmmm.

okie, i need some songs.

i seems to be very outdated already.

cause i don't even know when is Jay Chou's album gonna out.

not even listen to his first single =.=

okie okie. i should stop writing here.

and get going with something else before my reader fall asleep reading this.

ciaoz peeps.

*I don't need any reason to love you, but i need a reason to stop loving you*