Mess

November 2nd~

sigh~

it been ages since my last update.

For those who are wondering,

i have been really busy.

with assignmentssss.

and of cuz girls XD

thank god, no more assignment for now.

haa~

but.....

finals this month.

gosh =(

The past few weeks, been ups and downs.

well, so many things happened till i can't even remember them.

okie, that probably those bad stuff.

so just throw them away.

so now, today, this hour.

i just got back from movie.

watched "the coffin".

gosh~

it brings me to my dream man.

so boring!

somehow, got back and started to feel emo.

sighness~

is already 2.17am, but i just can't bring myself to sleep.

feeling guilty, sad and lonely.

i miss her, to be honest.

people will only know how to appreciate when that something is not here anymore.

i found myself hard to move on.

with everything i do, they just hanging there.

i don't find myself complete something huh?

am i that useless?

well, i guess i made a mistake.

everyone make mistake right?

but am i too much sometime?

i messed up.

making life so miserable for other people.

i hate myself.

yes, i don't understand what girl thinks.

i don't even care.

i don't know what i want.

"your problem comes when you don't even know what is your problem" (Ms.Oh)

my lecturer said this last week.

which i think is so meaningful huh.

so apply to me.

i gotta start study really soon.

just somehow wondering whether i can concentrate not.

with these things around me.

i find it so hard to do something.

please please.

i am such an emotional person.

always let those stuff bother me.

wake up man!

i wanna settle this.

i wanna stop being emo.

stop.

emo sekarang.

you ask me not to be sad.

but how can i not sad?

i guess i am just too soft-hearted.

can i blame it to my horoscope?

which i think every taurus are soft-hearted.

haa~

what so ever la ok.

i am so tired now.

Happy Birthday ok!

enjoy your day.

i won't make you sad today.

ciaoz~

words of the day = i messed up.

Jay @ emo