Grasp.

sigh~

i am darn sad wei..

=(

fuck!!!!!!!!

seriously darn fucking sad.

really wanna cry just now man.

i was really expecting to go poppy just now.

but then, fuck man.

kena like anything.

i was really darn pissed larh!

so i just fuck it and stay at home.

damn.

do you how the hell is the feeling?

my friends are out there clubbing.

and i am at home.

and i am suppose to be there too.

and now haven't even reach 12 yet.

and i have to wait for Lp to come home as well.

=(

argh!

haiz!

but then, just now i called my aunt.

and talk to her for about 15 minutes.

somehow i know i was wrong.

i  overboard the freedom.

and i admit i really irresponsible.

i know she just worry about me and wants me to be good.

she said our country is not safe recently.

so just don't go out too often.

and also, saying that i got 8am class the next day, should sleep early and not went out till 3 or 4 am.

i admit recently i went out too much.

just over man, i feel bad too.

and i slept in the class and all.

so, i can't blame them.

i am wrong.

i should start to behave.

now think think think.

i feel better.

even though i can go out now, cuz my cousin just went to terengganu.

but i just stay home and insaf larh please!

but then.............

the sadness still here.

=(

nobody is here to cheer me up.

and where is that girl when i need someone.

alright.

enough of this.

let's talk about the past few days.

haha~

is gonna be a long post.

on monday,

went to hand up assignment at about 12 plus.

then head to pyramid for lunch.

suppose to go to the replacement lecture at 3-5.

end up we never go.

haha~

cuz we predict that not much people will be there.

then on tuesday.

went to class as usual.

QM class, damn i actually fall asleep.

haha~

eh first time i fall asleep in the QM tutorial ok.

and let that jaye ter-saw me also.

then afterthat, we went to eat.

at taman tun davis corner.

since taman tun is near to OU.

so went there as well.

walk walk, end up me and Lp bought baju.

sigh~

broke larh please!

so we faster run home.

and get away from those temptation.

XD

on wednesday.

it was a holiday.

but we have to meet up for mka assignment meeting.

so went to pyramid starbucks.

okie.

that zoie and Lp keep talk and talk and talk.

but me and kelvin have to do works.

haa~

bully guys huh.

so the outcome.

haha~

just only did the intro.

afterthat, went back to Lp's house.

wait for her to get done.

then head to pavilion to meet up dumdum and wawa.

=)

we watched "deception".

it was still alright, better than black water larh.

haha~

oh ya.

forget to mention that.

me and Lp puasa on that day.

haha~

we were like dying ok.

keep wait for 7pm to come.

after movie, we rush to thai express to have our dinner.

haha~

gosh, finally. FOOD!

took darn lots of pictures wei.

wawa pula suggest to go to la bodega for some dessert.

haha~

so i had a german beer at la bodega.

chit chat, take pictures and all.

about 9 plus.

i send Lp home.

then rush home as well.

a tiring day.

but it was fun hanging out with them

=)

on thursday.

went to class at 8am.

woke up late actually.

but who cares?

boring BIS class as usual.

slept in the class also.

then to mka class.

mka class was fun.

i love it.

that miss ooi is funny la.

she just somehow make the class interesting.

haha~

and Lp always said she looks like furby?

then after class.

whee!

excited, went to midvalley.

ahaha~

shopping day~!

cuz topman got this student discount.

so me, Lp and wei yin went.

before everyone go in, we faster rush in to get our stuff.

so i bought err, a tee, a shirt and a trunk.

and blah blah blah.

walk everywhere.

seriously like teruk shopping man us.

and i bought a short from radioactive.

okie.

afterthat, we faster run home.

cuz everyone is broke!!!

haha~

and at night pula.

kena from my cousin.

damn!!

then, today kena by aunty.

damn!

lastly, this morning.

as usual, 8am class.

mka lecture, got test.

never study but still manage to do.

sigh~

fall asleep again.

*no hope*

after lecture.

went to pyramid to eat.

Lp pula see those people ice skating.

i feel so boring man.

then end up, we had KFC.

haha~

then went back to Lp's house.

sleeeeeping timeee.

whee~~

then about 4.

went back to my house.

with Lp and wee fang.

talk, play then went to buy those buka puasa food.

haha~

went home, eat and watch movie.

get ready and all.

then fuck, suddenly.

KAAA BOOOOMMMM~~~~~

i end up staying at home.

=(

and now, i am thinking that that Lp is so enjoying herself now.

i feel so sad.

that i can't gooooooooo.

and that soh po.

where are you when i need you the most?

sigh~

please cheer me up.

go for movie till forget bout me huh.

=(

everyone forget about me.

i am so sad.

they are enjoying and i am here.

okie okie.

tomorrow i am going send kath off.

my god.

darn sad laaaaa.

i am gonna miss you la kath!!!!!!

shit.

nobody is gonna go to alor with me at night anymore.

=(

nobody gonna scold me farker anymore.

=(

sob~

must remember me ok!!!!

and then.........

last thing.

football results.

the champion league.

wuahah!

my chelsea.

i am so proud of them.

they swept the other team 4-0 ok.

but for arsenal, they only draw.

liverpool get to win too.

hahah~

and MU, eat shit laaa.

they draw.

this sunday.

big match showdown.

chelsea vs man utd.

err, no comment bout it.

but of cuz i hope my team to win!

true blues man~

damn.

i don't care man.

next saturday, i must go to that MOS event.

=)

my god.

haven't even reach 1am yet.

kill me man.

have to wait for LP some more.

okie.

gotta find something to do.

ciaoz.

words of the day = i will behave.

Jay @ so so so bored & sad

Fastidious

Just got home from movie.

aiks.

watched a darn boring show wei.

"black water".

lame like hell wei.

the whole blardy river only got one crocodile?!

=.=

i somehow think is so funny.

and so make me wanna sleep.

alright.

then took some crazy pictures after the movie.

sigh~

never been so crazy for some time already.

hahah~

kinda tired now.

i didn't know what i did just now.

somehow she told me that she was sad.

i feel bad.

but wondering wth did i do wei?

okie.

got assignment due on monday.

the QM.

now do till question 3.

guess i gonna continue tomorrow.

going class on monday pula.

those replacement class.

ish.

the lecture at 3 to 5.

damn!

make me can't sleep in the afternoon.

feel that i am kinda old already.

go club also tired half way.

haha~

went MOS on thursday.

is was alright larh.

like another college wei.

saw many of my friends.

and piggy was drunk due to some reason.

and then,

i vomited pula.

haha~

drink too much i guess?

maybe going to club again next week.

damn.

if every week like that, probably gonna really KO.

hmm.

nothing much to say.

tomorrow going for lunch with my family.

the mooncake festival.

sigh~

i just sense something wrong.

aiks.

maybe i think too much?

but seriously what did i do wei?

well, gotta ask her later.

i am drinking again.

just love to drink recently.

and guess what.

man utd lost to liverpool wei!

hahaha~

i am so happy.

but somehow for chelsea.

they are still playing the match now.

vs man city.

ish.

angry with them wei.

recently in love with quite a number of songs.

first will be the man who can't be moved by the script.

second will be superhuman by chris brown feat keri hilson.

third will be it's over by jesse mcCartney.

fourth will be miss independent by Ne-yo.

fifth will be crush by david archuleta.

sixth will be fall for you by secondhand serenade.

lastly, thunder by boys like girls.

this few songs just play in my head everyday wei.

darn nice.

it mean much to me thou.

still wondering.

how come she never message me.

aiks.

just something wrong.

and lastly.

sorry kath.

didn't make it to your farewell.

alright.

i guess that's all.

ciaoz.

words of the day = i feel so superhuman

Jay @ blur

Sensation

Been a while huh.

so i am here again.

suppose to be sleeping.

but somehow just wanna update a post.

nothing much happen.

only thing that make me stress would be the problem between me and kaka.

well, i guess is kinda settle now.

so hopefully i don't have to get upset over it again.

alright.

been rushing assignment.

next monday have to hand in QM assignment.

all i did is only one question?

*hopeless*

haha~

what is worst pula, i didn't know how to do the DSM test today.

what the hell man.

and what i did was.....

*look around*

and copy people punya answers wei.

>.<

dammit wei.

the outcome of not studying huh.

lucky is just a class test.

=)

been going to midvalley for like 6 times in a row.

and tomorrow i am going again.

what?!

haha~

guess what, i am going to BIS class tomorrow.

sigh~

don't wanna go but i have no choice.

and i don't want people to call me "lazy".

well, my first post without emo-ing huh.

should be celebrating.

to be honest, my life now has been really smooth.

gotta thanks piggy of cause.

and also her guys.

not to forget, soh po also.

i know piggy been really emo and sad recently.

i seriously felt hurt seeing her like this.

that blardy asshole larh!

ish.

don't ever come and disturb my LP ok!

who ever hurt her again, you will see your house gone!

XD

come on my LP, don't larh emo emo now.

just let go and treat this as a mistake.

learn from your mistake.

many guys out there still.

why wanna waste your time on someone like this?

i hope you will be fine really soon.

and i want you to happy ok.

please don't turn yourself like a monster.

you don't change because you fall once, learn to overcome the failure and you will feel that changing doesn't really matter.

so please, i don't want to see my LP in such worst condition.

i know you might think i will only sms sms with sharon.

but i do care about you ok.

i will always be there for you even though i have someone else.

u know what,

"You're the best LP ever!"

alright.

about her.

i guess i really like her more than a friend.

just somehow those feelings are telling me so.

but i know this is not an easy task.

well, i am just doing what makes me happy.

i am glad that i can overcome most of the obstacles.

like letting go of piggy.

and trying to like someone else.

i don't guarantee that i have done the task above.

but i will still trying hard.

good luck to myself.

oh ya.

Happy Birthday to Sea-lion.

lost contact with her man.

don't know where she disappear to.

gotta sleep now.

guess someone fall asleep.

haha~

=)

that's all.

ciaoz.

words of the day = you changed my life.

Jay @ tiring

ill

oh gosh!

been having some really bad week.

since last week.

this week just ain't gonna get better.

sigh~

start off this week with sickness.

sucks wei.

i hate to get sick.

but no one care now if i gonna die soon.

got the fever on yesterday after my movie.

then rush home, took medicine and sleep.

somehow, the sickness still killing me.

so end up, i sleep sleep sleep only.

until today about 9.20am.

shit man.

i am late.

hurry and rush to class.

i didn't feel like going at all cuz i am so sick.

but one of the reason is i tot got test.

but actually this week don't have.

another reason would be piggy.

i manage to reach on time.

i was darn suffer in class.

my whole body is like gonna break into pieces.

haiz.

so i just keep tahan until the class finish.

that Welman Tan some more want to kacau me there.

blardy lame ok he.

after class, went to visit the doctor with piggy.

blardy clinic.

make me wait darn long man.

make me pissed even when i am sick.

sigh~

went home after that, on the way raining heavily.

lucky i manage to reach home safely.

ok i did eat a bit of the bread then only eat medicine.

so don't scold me ok.

then sleep sleep sleep.

woke up about 3.

then went online.

then sleep sleep sleep again.

feeling unwell then.

sort of wanna vomit.

..........................

*&%$#@!*^

really vomit.

shit!

man, i was darn suffer.

sob~

see larh, is good to not get sick ok.

maybe i too exhausted recently, then finally fall sick.

bad week!

shit.

not only quarrel with piggy everyday.

shit do happen.

and make my friend angry with me.

and so many shit.

well, quarrel with piggy is i sendiri cari pasal one.

haa~

deserve it now.

i am sick so no need to quarrel.

"cari pasal, sendiri susah"

then about my friend.

is it really my fault?

i know she really care about me a lot.

but i really try my best to make her not piss at me.

i really got no idea how.

i don't know how to talk to her now.

because of this one small thing, she wanna ruined the friendship.

i don't find myself lying to her, but she don't understand.

how wei?

haiz.

hopefully my week is gonna be better.

just wanna live happily.

hope that i can settle the prob between me and piggy.

tired of being like this.

i am like another person.

out of me man.

if i still keep on like this, probably gonna die soon.

pls.

pray that i faster recover from this sickness.

i don't wanna get sick.

god just pity me ok.

make my life better.

i know i am wrong already =(

hopefully tomorrow i can go to class.

alright.

that's all now.

ciaoz.

words of the day = cari pasal, sendiri susah

Jay @ sick

Journey

i am sure this is gonna be a short post.

as nothing much happen today.

well, fight again as usual.

so bored with it.

kanasai man~

i am so sick bothering whatever she wanna do.

let her be then.

i am tired of helping her.

as u guys also said that she wont even bother listen.

okie.

slept so much today.

as usual.

even fall asleep during the lecture.

sigh~

trying to make myself happy.

but i know there is this someone that actually make me happy.

i mean recently.

maybe it is just what i think.

can't wait for the day to come.

hee~

i don't know why,

her every single message just make me smile.

maybe she is funny i guess.

hmm, as for the olympic.

USA bball team goes into the finals.

it just so cool!

err, nothing much then.

didn't even have the time to be emo.

well, maybe i should stop.

i guess that's all for today.

ciaoz.

words of the day = continuing my journey from the hole

Jay @ blank